Mishti :)

Finally after 7 days which felt like an eternity, Abir returned home.. But I was in college so didn't go to Airport. And I came late as I had work in my college.. It's already 9:30 PM and I still haven't seen him.. Going to Rajvansh house at this hour is so awkward..

Even he didn't come nor even called me to come, he didn't even message me that he reach here , through Sam I got to know this .. He must be resting but me being restless want to see him. And I know if I will go to his house at this hour then his siblings will tease the hell out of me.. Still  making myself ready for all the teasing session I made my way towards his house..

The guard opened the gate, I was about to go inside when Sam called me from lawn.. I went towards lawn, everyone were chilling there except Abir.. "You here at this hour.. Any emergency? " she asked in concern, I shook my head..

"She came here to meet her boyfriend, " Sahil chuckled, I rolled my eyes..

"But he is sleeping in his room and didn't want Anyone to go inside saying he is tired and don't want to have talk with us, " Sahil said, I made a pout and nodded.. I will meet him tomorrow then, he must be too tired otherwise should not have said this.. I tuned my feet to go back that's when Aadarsh bhai's words stopped me..

"Mishti, in case you don't know, you don't come in the list of Anyone, so you can go and meet him.. I don't think he will say anything to you, " bhai said with a smile, his words made my heart fluttered. I just stared at the grasses thinking what to do..

"Um okay! " saying I made my way towards the house, Meera aunty and Geeta aunty were so busy in their talk that they didn't notice me, which is better for me atleast I didn't have to face thousand questions.. Abir's room door was just closed, pushing it slowly I went inside and locked it ..

Only a low power ball was lightening his room, I scanned his room and found him lying on the bed.. As I turned the light on, he frowned but smiled as soon as his gaze met mine. My eyes were dying to see him.. As soon as my eyes met with his chocolate orbs it sparkled in happiness.. Taking slow steps I went to him, he sat on the bed resting his head on the headrest.. Today he is not glowing just the way he glow..

"Are you fine? Umm.. " I asked sitting beside him, he nodded his head and shifted a little away from me which made my heart dropped.. Today he is not behaving like Abir Rajvansh.. But I kept everything aside.. "How was your trip? " I asked, "hmm quite hetric, " he replied.. He didn't even hug me, which made me more sad.. May be he need some rest, I should not overthink..

"It's okay! Umm you sleep, we will talk later, " I said and got up but he held my hand. I burrowed my eyebrows in confusion when his hands touched mine.. I kept my palm on his forehead, my eyes widen.. "You are having high fever, " I uttered, checking his temperature again. That's what I am thinking, he was not looking normal..

"No it's not! I am hot you know, " he said, I glared at him and he shrugged off..

"Just stay with me, I will be fine, " he mumbled.. "Why you didn't tell anyone that you have fever? " I asked, he rolled his eyes..

"Leaving their all work, they will come to me, I can't tolerate so much attention at once, " he said, I chuckled.. "Have you taken medicines? " he nodded, I sighed.. I stared at the clock, I don't have any mood to go my house , that too when he's suffering from fever, but I don't have any reason to stay..

"Hello? What are you thinking? " he asked gaining my attention..

"I am thinking that you should sleep, due to travelling and environment change you are having high temperature, as you have already taken medicine so sleep, you might feel better tomorrow, " I said, he pulled my hand, making me shifting my position, I arched my brows in confusion.. "Wait! " he showed me his hand and took his phone in his hand and typed something on it.. I waited till he complete his work..

"I have said bhai that you will stay here tonight, if Mom will ask he will say you have work with Sam, " he said and my lips curved into a smile.. "Now go and turned off this light, just don't off the dim light, " he said, my stomach twisted in nervousness.. I have slept with him before too but that's when I was drunk or he was, and one time in terrace.. But in his room, on the same bed, it just make me little nervous..

But I know he won't do something which will make me uncomfortable, so I just got up and turned off the light.. My heart was hammering against my chest.. I climbed on his bed, but he was still on the same position , resting against the headrest..

"Sit here, " he said pointing at his lap, I raised my brows but he don't have this much patience to answer me so he just pulled me, I comfortably sat on his lap, folding my both leg at his both side.. I kept my both hand on his chest, even though his eyes were looking sleepy and tired, I couldn't match his intense gaze, the room blue light was making things hard for me..

"Don't you think I need medicine? " he asked, I joined my brows in confusion, he said he have taken his medicine, I looked up at him, seeing the little smirk on his lips my heart stopped beating. I understood the meaning behind his words, he was just having his own time of enjoying my different type of expression.. I again looked down, as my mind went blank..

He pulled me from my waist making my breath stopped.. "Until I get my medicine, I am not going sleep, neither I will let you sleep, " he said, it was more like a command.. I felt my cheeks getting warmed.. Looking at him I smiled and he turned his face towards right, showing me his left cheek  .. Bringing my face more close to him I placed my lips on his cheek, clutching his shirt tightly, my toes were curled like a ball..

Holding me from my waist he made me laid on the bed and came over me, making my whole system stopped working.. I closed my eyes when he pressed his cheek against mine, moving my head a little I lingered my lips on his cheek and bit his earlobe.. He groaned and nuzzled his nose on my ear.. "Don't you think you are taking advantage of me, when I am sick, " he whispered in my ear, my eyes widen and I pushed him, he laughed resting his head on the pillow..

"You sleep alone, I am going to my house, " I said gritting my teeth and got up but he again pulled me , making myself fall on his body.. Even though he is sick, still can't sleep without annoying me.. "Good night, " he whispered, I kept my head on his chest, wrapping his hand around me he closed his eyes  ..

I pulled the blanket till my neck, keeping my hand on his abs.. I snuggled more into his chest and he pulled me close to him.. His every touch was just making me realized how much I missed him beside me, his presence, his voice, his eyes, everything about him.. I had a satisfactory smile on my lips before falling deep into sleep..

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Abir :)

There was not a single moment when she didn't knock my heart in these seven days.. When I saw her after so many days I felt like living life again even though I was sick and feeling bad.. I didn't want to tell her about fever knowing she will get worried.. And it happened.. She fell into sleep in my arm but again woke up at mid night..

After so many denials, she still didn't listen to me and put wet cloth on my forehead trying to reduce the temperature, which helped so much.. But I don't like when someone take care of me forgetting sleep.. And it was not enough, she didn't sleep the whole night, she was just checking my temperature in every half an hour.. I had no energy left to make her understand and say her to sleep, so I slept..

And when I got up I found her sleeping on sitting position beside me.. I was feeling much much better than yesterday night, even the temperature got reduced.. I made her sleep on my bed and went to freshened up..

When I came out I saw her roaming in my room restlessly, seeing me she came to me and again checked my temperature.. She finally took a breath of  relief .. "You need to sleep, " I said to her and pushed her towards my bed, but she stopped seeing me in my formals..

"Are you going to office? " she asked raising her brows, I nodded.. I haven't visited office from last few days, I need to sign on some papers and I have to attend three meetings too.. "But you need rest, " she protested, I frowned, I don't like lying on the bed the whole day, it's better if I will make myself busy in somework..

I came out of my daze hearing Sam's voice , I went and opened the door.. I shook my head in disbelief when Sahil and she both came inside pushing me and closed their eyes hurriedly making me confused. I looked at my room, everything was fine..

"Why have you closed your eyes? " I asked leaning against the door.. They opened their one eye slowly and then opened both, which made me more confused.. "Actually we were checking if you guys are in a decent way, " they both said in union, I rolled my eyes, and sat on a couch.. "That's why you both came inside just after I opened the door, " I said, Mishti was just staring at all of us, she must be thinking in which family God has pushed her into..

"Jokes apart! Mishti let's go to college, " Sam said, I got up and stopped Mishti as she was going..

"She won't! She haven't slept last night, so she need some sleep, " I said, holding her hand.. Both of them stared at me with a teasing smirk, I rolled my eyes when I got to know they took my words in a different way..

"Umm, what was she doing that she didn't sleep? " Sahil said shaking his shoulder, Mishti digged her nails on my palm, throwing me daggers through her eyes ..

"I was doing absolutely nothing and I don't need sleep too, " saying she jerked my hand and walked out of the room. They both raised their eyebrows at me, showing me their idiotic smile.. "You guys are going or I will throw both of you out of India, " I shouted and they both ran out of the room..

Cleaning my bed, taking my phone and wallet with me I went downstairs .. Sam was already left to Mishti's house with her .. Having my breakfast I went to office..

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It's nearly 7:30 when I came from office.. Only when I entered inside I bumped with Sahil, Mishti was beside him, they both were well dressed and seems like going somewhere. "What? " I asked, crossing my hands over my chest..

"We both are going on a dinner date as she has promised me, " Sahil grinned, my mouth fell agape.. Dinner date? Seriously!! I scanned her from top to toe, she smiled at me brightly.. She has never got ready this much when it comes me, I frowned and rolled my eyes at both of them ...

"Keep burning, bye bye, " saying Sahil left, Mishti came and just stood in front me.. Stretching her arm, she arranged my collar and grinned.. "Bye Mr Rajvansh! " saying she left, I squeezed my brows.. I hope they both will just eat healthy food, which is nearly impossible.. They both are mad for street side fast food..

"Keep her safe, " I shouted when she sat beside him in my bike.. He just showed his thumb to me, Mishti waved her hands at me. I smiled when she did a flying kiss.. As they both left I went inside..

I was going upstairs when Mom stopped me, calling me from my back.. "Bachha, it's for you," saying she forwarded an envelope to me.. My heart clenched when I realized what is inside it.. Priyanshu had sent me those custody papers, he had said me that he had sent it by mail..

Taking the envelope with me, I went upstairs.. Taking a deep breath I opened the envelope, praying my assumptions to go wrong.. I took a glance at the papers, my heart was beating fast.. I kept the papers inside the envelope and sat on the bed..

I was right! It's clearly mentioned that Aarav choosed to stay with his father, how could he do it.. My mind went blank, I bit me lips being restless .. If Mr Agarwal got the custody then why everyone kept her in darkness in these years.. My mind was blasting, taking the envelope with me I kept it in my wardrobe..

There was so many questions in my mind but I have no answer, I can't even ask anything to Mishti, and I won't tell her about this, it will break her heart.. I need to find out the truth first.. I called my personal agent and said him to find full information about Aarav Agarwal and the whole family.. It's so messed up that I can't come to any conclusion..

Pressing my forehead I laid on the bed closing my eyes. Just when I closed my eyes my phone started ringing, I took out my phone from my pocket. I chuckled seeing Mishti's name on my screen. Sahil must have forgotten her after seeing food ..

Get bored so soon? 

Abir..

Hearing her fearful voice I stood up, my heart skipped some beats..

What happened?

Abir... Sahil.. He is..

Mishti, what happened? Where are you? What happened to him?

I don't know Abir, he just getting some attack, please come..

Where are you?

I have sent you my current location.. Please come soon..

I cut the call, taking the keys with me I rushed out of my house.. Not again!

God please make sure he is just fine, something has reminded him of her..

Breaking numbers of traffic rules, I finally stopped.. I came out seeing both of them, the road was empty.. He was sitting on the ground and she was just trying her best to control him..

I ran to him and held his hand.. He was sweating fully, breathing heavily.. "Sahil! Calm down, " I yelped making him look at me, he was not able to open his eyes fully.. I looked at Mishti, her eyes were red..

"What happened? Can you please explain me? " I asked, taking Sahil in my arm, I made him sit on the back seat, Mishti sat beside her.. I started the engine and made my way to near hospital..

"I don't know, we were just roaming in the mall,a couple were just having little fight,he stopped there hearing their conversation and ran from there, I could not understand anything so I just came behind him.. He fell on the ground and from that time he is just behaving like this, " she said, I stopped my car in front of hospital..

Without wasting any second I took him inside hospital, doctor admitted him , Mishti was completing the formalities.. My stomach clenched in pain seeing Sahil in so much pain.. "Please don't cry, he will be fine, "

I came out of my zone hearing Mishti's voice, I realized I was shedding tears. I just sat on a chair as my legs gave up.. Mishti came to me and brushed my hairs.. I could not hold myself, pulling her I pressed my face on her belly, letting those fear come out in forms of tears.. She was constantly patting my back..

My whole body was shaking, I was trying to breathe properly but failed.. All those flashbacks came in front of my eyes, I felt current passing through in my vein.. Pushing Mishti slightly I got up and went near the door.. His eyes were closed, even though he have put on ventilatior, his breathes were not normal, his chest was falling up and down..

Pushing the door I went to him, the doctor came to protest but I pushed them.. "Sahil, Please breath, you know how much we love you , please just don't think anything, she loves you,you know na! Please breath " I cried brushing my palm over his back palm.. The doctor injected some medicine into him and after some time his breath came to normal..

"Please go outside, " one of the staff said to me, muttering a sorry I came out.. Mishti was looking so scared, she had never seen me nor Sahil in this state.. I just hugged her, she stumbled over his feet.. Seeing Sahil, no one can even imagine what he have went through.. I felt little relaxed when she hugged me back and tightened her grip around me.. Closing my eyes I tried to calm myself down ..

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Mishti :)

As doctor said, Abir took Sahil with him to Rajvansh house but denied me to follow them. He just said Sahil won't feel comfortable so I didn't ask much. God know what exactly happened to him! I was so scarred and seeing Abir I totally went numb. Taking a taxi I came home, I didn't call anyone because Abir has clearly said to not tell anything about this..

I was just walking back and forth in worry, my mind was becoming restless.. I ran to open the door hearing Abir's voice.. He came inside and sat on a sofa .. I poured water in a glass and handed it to him.. He drank it like he was thirsty since forever.. Taking the glass from his hand I stood silently giving him little time to compose himself..

"I am sorry, I just left you alone there, " he muttered, his eyes were closed..

"It's okay! But can you please tell me what happened to him? " I asked sitting beside him.. "It's okay if you don't want to tell, " I said when I realized he was not comfortable, but he shook his head hurriedly.. "I want to tell, I can't keep it in me for more longer, " he said, my breath just became slow hearing his trembling voice..

I took his cold hand in my hand, it was trembling.. He let out a deep breath and sat comfortably crossing his legs.. Every passing second was giving me anxiety.. It took him ten minutes to open his lips to say something, I didn't say anything but just pressed his palm trying to comfort him..

"Leher! " he said and again closed his eyes, forcing my heart to stop, because his voice was never this much hurtful.. "Abir, it's okay if you are not comfortable, please don't stress yourself , " I said, cupping his cheeks.. My stomach twisted in pain when he broke down in front of me, tears were just flowing from his eyes.

"My boy die everyday and I can't do anything, " he said, I got up and give him another glass of water , he gulped it and wiped his tears..

"In the mall, that girl was constantly saying Leher love zombie teddy and that boy was saying how can you like such horrible toy, " he mumbled I nodded my head, the couples were fighting over a teddy..

"Leher too likes zombie teddy and Sahil don't like it, " he said, I just sat not knowing what was he trying to say. Who is Leher?

"You know what Sahil means in hindi? It means Ocean. And she is his Leher, Leher means Waves, " he concluded, I inhaled a share breath. His words were just crashing in my mind. Sahil Leher, Ocean Waves, what a combination of name. These two names are just claiming how perfect they are for each other..

"Umm Leher.. His girlfriend? " I asked , he nodded with a smile..

"But she's no more, " he said, my breath stopped.. Goosebumps erected on my body, my eyes were fixed on him, trying to digest his words..

"His fast and may be last love, " he whispered, unknowingly a tear dropped from my eyes.. Sahil had a girlfriend and he .... He always make fun, tease and annoy every other person, I never knew he have kept something like this inside him.. He looks so happy all time..

"Leher was an Indian girl, both were classmate, during 6th standard they started talking, they were friends only, but during their 11th class they started dating, he was madly in love with her.. Even he went abroad to study his bachelor degree just because she did there.. But it's just 2 years before thing, when everything changed.. They both went to some hill areas in evening in a bus, while coming back due to the road the bus could not keep balance and it turned upside down..

But the bus didn't fell from the hill , so many people got injured. Sahil and Leher were among them.. Somehow Sahil took her out of the bus, both were bleeding, no one was there to save her.. He called ambulance, he called his friends but nobody reached their in time. In front of his eyes, on his lap she took her last breath.. That time I went to his hostel to meet him, so I got to know about all this otherwise he would have never told me this.. The thing is he always curse himself that he could not save her and it's so heart wrenching to see your love of life dying in front of you and you are unable to do something, "

His words made me froze at my place.. I was way too shocked to react anything.. I was breathing deeply, I gulped a huge lump, my throat started burning in pain.. I felt like someone stabbed my heart. He never let anyone know about this, and the way he behaves it feels like he don't have any problem in his life, like totally carefree..

"You must be thinking why he is so chill and happy, because it's what Leher said her before dying. Live your life to the fullest, do everything what will make you happy, stay the way you are even though I won't be with you... She just left, but he.. He can never forget her. You know why he always do fun, annoy all? Because he want to keep himself distracted, it's not like he want to enjoy.. But he has promised her that he will live.. And with her thoughts it's so hard for him to even breath.. He never shared it with anyone because he don't want our family members to give sympathy or talk about her.. And if my brothers would have got to know , they would have never done any type of fun with their respective girlfriends thinking it will hurt him.. Which he doesn't want..

As he know that I know about all this, so I too behave casual and don't make him feel like I am pretending or something like that.. But I know it will take time to heal but he is trying, but it's so hard, " he said looking down, my heart was pumping blood fast.. After that neither he said something nor I had the heart to hear anything.. My head started spinning..

I just turned around to get myself a bottle of water but I froze at my place seeing Aadarsh bhai, Sameer bhai and Sam.. They both were standing like a statue, those hurtful expression were saying they have heard what Abir said.. I got up quickly and shook Abir's shoulder slightly.. He looked up and directly stood on his place..

He was about to take a step ahead when Sameer bhai showed him his hand, he was looking clearly angry.. I gasped, the environment became tensed.. "I thought we guys don't keep secret, but ... " Sameer bhai uttered and sighed in betrayal..

"Sameer please it's nothing like-" he could not complete more when Sameer bhai just walked out  ..

"Bhai why you didn't tell us.. He is suffering alone and you didn't feel like to share with us just because you have promised him? " Sam said coming to him, he was hust staring at the ground, standing without any emotions.. I palmed my mouth when Sam held Abir's collar tightly..

"Why? You are the one na who was angry on me for not sharing the truth about Riyansh? Then how could you do this? " she shouted, pulling his collar, I became numb.. "I couldn't break his promise, he doesn't want anyone to feel sad for him, " Abir muttered, Sam just kneeled down in front of him, Aadarsh bhai came and held her.. Abir was still standing without moving..

I went to outside to check if Sameer bhai is there .. My heart throbbed seeing him sitting on the ground, his hands were tightly holding those grasses. I ran to him and sat beside him on my knees and rubbed his back.. "He is struggling with his own feelings these years and we have no idea about it.. How is he living? I can't even put myself in his situation, he was all alone these years and didn't share with us just because we will be shattered? I failed as a brother today.. Even being so close to him I could not see the depressed soul behind that smile, " he yelled and started hitting his hand on the ground, I held his hand trying to stop him from hurting himself..

"You guys are the reason why I am alive, then how could you even say that you failed as a brother? "

I got startled hearing Sahil's voice, I looked up and found Sahil staring at Sameer bhai.. Bhai stood up, I too got up and took a step back.. All the siblings came out from my house.. Nobody say anything, I could hear everyone's heart beat.. After some minutes Sam just went and hugged him .. Just after her everyone hugged him, making it a group hug..

My eyes got moistened seeing them, the siblings who just laugh together , are just crying today.. But I was little happy that finally things are clear between them.. It must be hard for Abir to not share anything with his siblings.. After some moments they broke their hug, but Sam was still crying, my sensitive girl..

Sahil stared at me and we exchanged a smile.. "I think we should go, I still need some time to process, " Aadarsh bhai said, all nodded in agree.. They all left with Sahil except Abir.. He came to me, burying his face in the crook of my neck, he pulled me into a bone crushing hug.. I felt his heart beat coming to normal when I started rubbing his back, he started breathing calmly.. "Everything is fine, don't worry! " I muttered, he  tightened his grip around me and lifted me in his arm holding me from my waist. I held him , tightening my grip around him..

He pressed my body onto him, I felt like I will get merge with him.. But it was needed.. After some minutes he made me stood on the ground and broke our hug.. "Good night, " he whispered, cupping my cheeks.. I stood on my toes and kissed his cheek, he smiled in response..

"Bye! " I waved my hand at him, wearing his sandals he left by walking.. I went inside and locked the door.. I gulped a bottle of water to gain some energy.. Destiny is so cruel for Sahil.. Going to washroom I splashed handful of water on my swollen face.. Sahil was always my favorite boy and today he just developed a soft corner in my heart, I don't know but his pain is beyond imagination for me..

My eyes were already tired due to shedding infinite numbers of tears, so I fell into sleep quickly..

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It's been five days to that day when the truth came out.. Sam didn't come to college, I didn't go to Rajvansh house.. I didn't have a talk nor I met with Abir. I can understand his situation, he need some space and it's better if they will spend time with each other.. So I didn't disturb him nor called him.. Just sent some messages ....

As exams are going on in my college so I came from college at 12:30 .. After doing lunch I went to Rajvansh house.. I just want to check Abir, but I am not sure if he went to office or in home.. He didn't pick my calls..

The whole house was silence, I could not find a single worker.. Silently I went upstairs , I checked Abir's room and terrace, he was not there .. I went to Sam's room. I stopped when my gaze fell on her. Burying her face between her knees she was sobbing silently.. It didn't take me a second to go near her..

"Sam, what happened? Are you okay? " I asked, brushing her hair, she looked up and wiped her tears..

"Don't worry I am fine, " she muttered, I sat in front of her ..

"Today it's Bade Papa's death anniversary, so I just.. Umm, " she stammered.. Abir... His father's death anniversary it's. "Um where is Abir? " I asked, she lowered her gaze..

"He went to our farm house, " she mumbled.. His dad died in suicide, my heart started beating fast imagining Abir's state, I need to go to him.. Without saying anything I came out of her room, I booked a cab in my phone.. After ten minutes the cab arrived..

After thirty minutes of drive I finally reached there.. I stood silently in front of the huge gate .. When last time I came here so many things had happened.. He was drunk and the situation was related to his Dad but it's his Dad's death anniversary and I know he won't take alcohol.. I was about to open the gate when two guards came and didn't let me go inside..

I tried to make them understand but they didn't listen anything. They were just constantly saying 'Abir Sir don't want to meet anyone' .. I felt like punching their face but it's their work so I stayed polite with them.. One of the guards phone started ringing..

"Okay Sir! " he muttered and cut the call.. Without saying anything they opened the gate for me, smiling brightly I went inside knowing it's Abir who called them.. Keeping my shoes outside, I pushed the door, a lady was working in the kitchen..

"Can you please tell me where is Abir? " I asked, she gestured me to go left and go to third room.. As per her instructions I did, pushing the door slightly I went inside.. Abir was sitting on the bed, the blanket was covering him till his waist.. His gaze was fixed on the window, pushing the door a little I closed it and went near him..

"I was not expecting you to come, not after whatever had happened here last time, " he muttered in a calm voice.. Letting out a deep breath I sat beside him..

"Our equation is not what it was. I need to come here because I think my friend need his friend, " I whispered, moving his head he shifted his gaze to me, I just gave a slight smile.. He again looked away and kept his gaze on the window glasses.

"Have you taken your lunch? " I asked, holding his arm in my small hand, he shook his head.. "I don't want to, " he muttered..

"But-" he didn't let me complete..

"Can I just sleep here keeping my head on your lap? " he asked in a soft tone, I nodded my head quickly.. Adjusting himself he kept his head on my lap and covered himself fully with the help of blanket.. While brushing his soft silky hair in my fingers, I scanned the room.

My eyes got fixed on a photo frame. It's of uncle and aunty. No doubt why Abir is so handsome, it's due to his gene . Uncle was looking so fine and he too have hazel eyes like Abir.. I shifted my attention to another photo, it was a family picture where Abir and Aadarsh bhai and Aarushi were ..

Both the brothers were looking quite similar in this pic as it's their childhood picture.. "The boy who's wearing orange t-shirt, that's me, I was just 7 years old in this picture," Abir muttered , I looked down at him, he was already looking at me.. The photo was not clear and due to dust his face was not clearly visible .. I gave a slight node..

There were so many questions crashing in my head about his dad, but I didn't feel like to ask him, I don't want to make him uncomfortable and today it's just not the day.. I again shifted my gaze to Abir when he held my palm tightly, I rubbed his chest with my another hand..

His hands were so cold,  just his one touch made my body hairs stood. The air-conditioner was off , but still he is trembling means he's just suffering from inside.. Bending down a little, I placed my lips on his forehead, he closed his eyes.. "Relax! I am here with you, " I whispered, he just tightened his grip around my fingers..

"I was in 10th standard, we used to stay in Delhi.. Dad used to stay here.. Bhai and I came here to Mumbai to surprise dad and... " he just stopped, I was staring at him with my full attention, not wanting to miss a single word.. It made me little happy that he started opening up about this thing from his side..

"When we came here the guards said that he haven't come home from office last night.. So we directly went to our company.. He was not there too.. Checking the CCTV we got to know that he stayed in the guest house last night which was behind our company.. We wanted to surprise him so didn't call him.. Both went and knocked the door but he didn't open.. We kept knocking but no response. Without having any option a guard broke the door, " he stopped and turning his body he curled himself into a ball.. My heart was beating fast like it will explode anytime soon..

"He was lying in the bed lifelessly, going near to him we shook him, tried to wake him up but still there was no response.. I froze when I could not hear his heart beat, he was not breathing.. I found a poision bottle beside him, my whole world turned upside down, " he said pressing his face on my lap, I was constantly rubbing his back..

My father never loved me still I went through a heartbreak when he just left me but he, I can't even imagine what he must have gone through.. My heart broke into million pieces seeing him crying on my lap.. This is the worst sight I have ever seen in my life.. Bending down I pressed my cheek against his, he was still holding my one hand tightly..

Seeing him in such a vulnerable and devastated state , I myself got shattered. The man who just walk by your side and you will feel yourself under his power , under his control, is just so weak today  , my stomach twisted in pain.. The eyes who hold stars in it are just shedding infinity numbers of tears, who spark everyday no matter what are just looking tired today.. His voice which always amuse me, today it's breaking me into pieces..

His heart beat which is music to my ear, is beating in an uneven pace today, showing how scared and lonely he is today.. "He is with you, will always stay in your heart, you know na, " I stammered placing a kiss on his ear, his cheeks were getting wet due to my tears..

My heart was thumping against my chest, it's so hard for me to see him like this, totally in a miserable state.. Holding his head, I gently made him sleep on the pillow and made his body turned towards me.. I laid beside him, he pulled me tightly and pressed his face on my chest, his head was on my arm.. I was constantly rubbing his back.. "Abir! Please calm down, you are losing yourself, " I muttered in horror when I found him breathing deeply..

"Ssshhhh! Stop crying, " I muttered, it's so hard for me to console him today.. But slowly slowly his breath became normal and after sometimes he fell into sleep.. I removed my churni because it was disturbing his sleep.. Pulling me more closer he fell into his deep slumber. He was crying constantly from last one hour.. My chest portion cloth was totally drenched because of his tears .. I looked at the time, it's already 4:30 pm.. When I felt his arms around me totally loosened, I made him sleep on the bed and wrapped the blanket around him.. Closing the door I went outside to hall..

The lady was cooking in the kitchen, seeing me she just smiled.. "Are you making dinner for him? " I asked, she nodded.. He haven't taken lunch, I hope he will eat in night at least...

"Abir always come here on this day? " I asked her out of curiosity, her smile faded as soon as she heard my words, taking a deep breath she nodded..

"As he was in Paris, his family thinks he just want to stay alone on this day, so he doesn't come to India. But the truth is he always come and stay here, don't meet anyone. You are the first person who came here .. He had clearly said me to not tell all this to anyone. He doesn't  like show how weak he is not even to his family, I guess you hold a special place in his heart, that's why he allowed you to come here, " saying she again got busy in her work..

Her words made me weak, I walked out of the open kitchen and went to the room where Abir was sleeping. He was sleeping with a frown, sitting near his head, I brushed his hair and the frown on his face got faded. I just kept staring at his face, how would have he passed the day every year alone? My heart stopped just by imagining it.. I placed a kiss on his forehead and took his palm in my hand..

I guess you hold a special place in his heart..

Of course! I know this, but I never realized when our bond became so deep, when he started feeling so much for me. I quickly got up and stopped his phone from ringing,  Meera Aunty was calling him.. I could not understand what to do, he is sleeping.. Sam know about him coming here means they all have a idea of it.. I picked the call as she again called him..

From morning I am calling you.. Why are you not receiving?

Aunty! Um he is sleeping.

Mishti? You?

Hm actually..

It's okay! Is he fine? We all came here to village, only He and Sam, Sameer, Sahil are in home, so I was just tensed..

Yes Aunty! Don't worry, he is fine and sleeping.. When he will wake up I will inform him..

Okay... Bye

Aunty cut the call.. I sighed and kept his phone on the lamp table ..

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He woke up at 7:30 .. But didn't come out of the room, it was his Mom and Dad's bedroom. I forcefully took him outside and just went for a walk.. He was all silent and just walking.. Staying in the same room will damage him more, so I took him with myself.. After that I made him eat something, he was behaving like a one year baby today.. But after struggling for more than one hour I made him eat .. The cook left, locking the door I went upstair..

The room still scares me , the way he shouted at me that day, I still feel hurt over it.. But he was drunk and I can understand, it's just my heart which can't take any rude word from him.. I saw Abir opening a tablet, going near to him I took the tablet away from him..

"What type of medicine is this? " I asked, arching my brows.. "Sleeping pills, I can't sleep tonight without it, " he muttered, making me stunned.. "You take this on this day ? " I asked and he nodded simply.. This day just haunt him so much, I threw the table through the window and his eyes widen..

"It's not like every year, I am with you and you won't take this, " I said, pushing him towards the bed.. "No Mishti, I will get nightmares, it's unbearable, please try to understand, " he whispered, my throat became dry hearing his painful voice.. I just want this day to end soon.. Seeing him in such a devastated state, my body was just collapsing..

"You will not get any nightmare, I said na I am with you, don't worry, " I uttered, making him sleep on the bed.. I turned off the light and went to other side.. I wrapped the blanket over us, even though he had slept in the evening, his eyes were sleepy.. We both were facing each other, I blinked my eyes in assurance.. He slowly decreased the distance between us and kept his one hand around my waist..

Shifting myself a little, I made myself comfortable and held him tightly.. After some time he closed his eyes, I kept staring at his swollen face.. I was just preparing myself what will I do if he will get some bad dreams.. I stayed awake till 2:00 am, but he didn't wake up.. I could not stay awake more as my eyes gave up, from last few days due to work load I haven't slept and today also I was so tired.. So I closed my eyes, not before praying to God, hoping he won't get any type of nightmares.. Soon I too fell into deep slumber, in his embrace..

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Abir :)

For the first time I didn't get any nightmares, may be I had someone with me who was just praying for me... It's 9:30 in morning and she's still sleeping, I didn't wake her up.. Yesterday the pain had consumed me so much that I didn't realize she was with me, I didn't ask whether she ate or not.. And the cook said she haven't taken anything after coming here..

So in morning first I cooked breakfast for us, but when I came here, I saw her sleeping, I didn't feel like to wake her up.. A smile crept on my face seeing her sleeping so peacefully like a baby.. This place haunt me, because I have so many memories with my Dad, but still I come here because it give me some peace too.. I feel dad's presence around me in this house  ..

Dad was in so much pressure.. Economically we were too weak, he had taken loans from so many banks and company.. All the clients refused to deal with our company.. Dad sold so many properties, still didn't inform us.. Chacha was in London with Sam, dad didn't let him know all this. He thought he will handle.. But after so many efforts he couldn't do anything .. Situation became so worse that he lost the company, our Rajvansh villa and the Delhi house too..

But still he could not able to give money to bank and he had no one here to help him. And in this pressure he took his own life .. When I got to know that he is no more, I could not believe. I had no idea.. Mom was calling me but I didn't have the guts to inform this news.. Bhai was shattered.. I thought if I will call Chachu, he will come here and console our family.. But when I told him, he could not take the pressure.. He got a heart attack.. Sam was alone with him..

I made thing more worse by telling him.. But Sam managed to take him hospital and this news went viral and reached Mom.. She became numb. All came here and after that we all got to know.. The person who was by our side at that time is Ramesh Chacha, with whom I used to stay in Paris .. We lived in his apartment in Delhi.. Things started becoming normal but both our mental and economical condition was worse..

Chacha came here, leaving Sam in hostel.. He took over the business, Ramesh Chacha helped us as much as he could. Bank didn't ask for the loan money as dad passed away.. And slowly slowly everything became normal but things would have never come to this much worst situation if Dad would have shared with atleast Chacha.. And Mom.. She was completely shattered, she didn't speak with anyone of us.. But at the end she stood up again just for us...

It reminded me of Mom, I hadn't talk with her.. I looked here and there and didn't find my phone, then I realized I left it in their bedroom.. I went to downstairs and then to her room.. My phone was on the lamp table, I scrolled through it.. I called her but she didn't pick up.. After keeping it in my pocket, I was about to go when my gaze fell on Mishti's white churni.. Taking the churni with me I went upstair..

I smiled seeing her awake, rubbing her eyes she yawned, as soon as her gaze fell on me, she stretched her arm for a hug. Quickly I went to her and took her in my embrace.. "How are you now? " she asked brushing her nose in my chest..

"I am good, don't worry! " I mumbled, she let out a breath and placed a kiss above my heart forcing my heart to stop beating.. I broke the hug and my gaze met with her sleepy eyes..

Every time I just stare at her I realize how deeply I am in love with her, her eyes just make me feel weak.. She's the first person I want to know in and out of me.. I never knew how beautiful it feels to love someone in this way until she came to my life. I want to build my future with her.. Her and me, a home, a family..

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