Abir :

The audacity of Rohan to hug My Girl at my place!

Yesterday evening, when Rohan hugged her, I swear if it was not my home, then I would have buryed him without even thinking twice..

But she hugged him back too .....

I parked my car in front of her house. Abir Rajvansh can never give up easily. There is something which she is not telling me, I can feel it. She's fighting with her emotions, I could see it from her face..

I kept my coat and phone on the passenger seat, I don't want any disturbance today. She have to tell me what is bothering her..

As I opened the gate, my heart skipped a bit in nervousness. I am scared, what if she will tell something I can't bear.. Keeping my shoes outside, I entered inside as the door was opened.. If today something worse will happen, then it would be my last visit to her and her houe..

I can't punch my heart again and again.

I entered in her drawing room. Two three suitcase were placed on the floor, two were opened , one was closed. Either she was unpacking it, or she was packing it. My gaze fell on a passport and some sort of flight ticket..

I was about to pick it , when someone snatched it away. I looked up and my heart melted seeing her. I clenched my fingers into a fist, to hold myself back from hugging her. Every inch of my tired body was craving to hug her , but it will make things more worse, so I stopped myself anyhow ..

"Are you going somewhere? " I asked, even knowing the answers..

"None of your business! " she replied without even looking at me.. I took a sharp breath and gulped..

"What are you doing here? " she asked and closed the suitcases.. "We need to talk! " I muttered, inserting my both hands in pocket..
She gave me a cold stare and looked away. "There is nothing to talk, I have so many things to do, so please don't waste my time, " she mumbled and was about go inside her room , I held her elbow..

Holding her both hand, I pinned her onto the wall , sandwiching her between me and the wall.. She glared at me, tried to push me, did everything possible but failed. I kept my eyes on her face.

"Leave me! " she shouted, pushing my chest with her tiny hands.

"First tell me, what's bothering you? " I tried my best to keep my voice low and calm.

"Please don't waste my time, leave me, " she again protested, but I tightened my grip around her hand.

"I asked you something! "

She kept silence, making my blood boil in anger.. Sometimes I hate her stubbornness..

"Mishti! Don't test my patience.. I won't leave you until I get the answers, " I muttered, she looked away as tears started forming in her eyes, breaking my heart into pieces..

"Leave me! " she whispered, I pressed my teeth to have a grip on my anger.. She's suffering, but isn't telling me anything ..

"Mishti, I need answer. For God Sake stop behaving like this, " I uttered..

"I am not your puppet, that I have to give answers to your every damn questions, " she shouted, I arched my brows..

"Puppet ? " I mumbled, her stoned emotionless face robbed my breath away..

"Everytime do this, do that, don't do this, eat this, go there, sit here, I am tired of all this! " she snapped back, making my heart shattered..

"It suffocates me.. You suffocate me.. I don't want to even breath the air you breath.. Why don't you understand this even when I am ignoring you from last 15 days? Just... Just stay away from me.. Leave me alone, Please! " she screamed, pushing me hard, I stumbled over my feet..

Her eyes were blood red, my chest started falling up and down as it became difficult to breathe . What have I done to deserve all these words ? My heart soared when I couldn't see a glimpse of guilt on her face for saying those harsh words to me.

Her words were drilling into my heart, breaking into billion pieces.. My throat dried, for a second my lungs stopped working.

"You know what! It's only your name what is sweet, otherwise your heart is full of bitterness.... " I don't know how this words came out of my mouth. She stared at me, my mind was so blank to study her face..

I turned away before tears could flow from my eyes.. Without looking back, without thinking more, wearing my shoes I got in my car and made my way to home..

Everything in front of me was so blurry, as tears were formed in those eyes who always crave to see a glimpse of her. It was actually her? Did I just say something to her which I never wished to say. It was hard for me to drive as my whole body was shaking. But still with those trembling hands, I managed to drive..

Stopping the car in the garage, I kept my head on the steering.. Tears were flowing, but the pain was not going away. I tried to breath but everything was nearly impossible.. I got startled hearing a knock on the glass door. I looked up, it was Saanvi..

She can't see anything inside from outside, I wiped my tears harshly.. Wearing my black goggles, I came out of the car, holding my phone and coat.

As soon as I came out, she hugged me! I couldn't hold my tears back, and it again started falling from my eyes. But I wiped it as she broke the hug..

"Where were you? After that day we didn't even talk.. Can you believe Aunty just agreed for us ? I mean I am getting engaged in just 5 days? I can't believe.. You didn't-" she said jumping in excitement but stopped in middle and stared at me..

I really don't want to ruin her happiness by telling all these things. It was her life biggest dream and when it's happening, I am not able to even enjoy.. I was never this much helpless in my life..

"Wait! Why are you wearing glasses now? " she questioned and stretched her arm to take the glasses away but I stepped back..

"There is little eye infection, that's why! " I lied, she was not satisfied with my answers.

"And what is with your voice? Why are you sounding like this? " she asked, crossing her hands..

"Due to cold! " I muttered, trying my best to sound better, but failed..

"Wait! Did you talk with Mishti? "

I shook my head in response.. It's better to walk away, otherwise she will make me blurt out everything..

"Yarr! I am really tired.. Can we talk later? " I mumbled, she raised her brows in confusion. First she stared at me for some second, then made a pout then nodded..

Taking a deep breath, I left. I am not in a state to have a talk with her..

I looked up at the sky, moon has hidden herself behind the clouds. Even moon don't want to face me today.... !!

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Mishti :)

You know what! It's only your name what is sweet, otherwise your heart is full of bitterness....

I kept my both palm on my ears, as his words kept ringing around me. Shutting my eyes tightly, I sat on the floor, not wanting to cry anymore..

Never in my wildest dream I thought that one day I will say these things to you. But it is you who forced me to do so. If I would have not said all those things, you would keep coming to me, which I don't want. You are going to get engaged with someone and I don't know but I can't see it.

May be these things are normal for you, but not for me.. My heart clenched in pain, why did he even come here to talk with me, even when his engagement is just after some days ..

Everything seems so unreal, fake... I wish I just open my eyes and realize it all was just a bad dream and nothing else. But only if God listen to me!

Taking a deep breath, I got up wiping those tears, who were dropping from my eyes even when I don't want..

I still haven't informed about the leave to my Principal. We don't have to take any classes now but there are so many official works, which I can do staying in home too.. I can't say anything to Principal now..

I was keeping some official documents in my bag when my gaze fell on two files . It was of Sam, before we went to trip, she was working on this file here with me , but I guess she forgot to take it.. I am going to my home tomorrow morning so can't even give it to her in college..

I dialled her number and she picked it after 5 rings ..

Hello Sam!

Hii Mishti! What's up?

Actually Sam you have forgot to take your files in my house, and I just checked you need to submit this tomorrow.

Aree My God, I am searching it here. Thank God it's with you..

Yes! Come here and take it..

Yarr! My legs are really paining due to all these engagement works. I can't even move my leg. If you don't mind, can you please bring it..

Umm.. Why don't you come tomorrow morning? I will give it to you ..

There are still some works left. That's why I need it today , so that I can complete it before morning..

Umm... Why don't you send anyone then?

Wait! Why are you not coming to my house? Anything happened or what.. After the trip I didn't see you here! What's wrong..

No no, nothing like that..

Okay.. But I would have sent someone, but my brothers are not in home. Sahil went with his friends. Aadarsh bhai and Sameer bhai didn't return from office.. And Abir bhai, I am not sure but he is not here too, I saw him going somewhere.. And all these workers are busy in decoration..

Fine! I am going..

I cut the call.. If he's not there then I don't have any problem, still I don't want to go there. Ramu Kaka isn't here too, otherwise I would have sent him..

Having no other option, I put the files inside a bag and came out of my house and locked the door.

Each step towards Rajvansh house was giving me chills, it's hard to even walk. How much you affect me Abir, do you even know that? Never in my life I thought I will go through a phase like this, where I don't want to get sad, I don't want to cry but it's getting difficult.. These feelings are so creepy for me, I want to run away from all this bullshit..

I stopped in front of the huge gate.. My breath stopped when my gaze fell on two letters and a heart between them..

A *red heart* S

It was written on the upper part of gate in capital letters.. I felt like to return back, but gathering all my courage I stayed there. These things should not affect me..

The gate was opened, so I took slow steps towards his house.. Small small lights were enlightening the surrounding. The decorations works were still going on.

My pace became more slower when I saw Abir coming from lawn. He rushed into his house holding a bag. I sighed hoping we won't meet . But again he came out just after some fraction of seconds, holding some keys in his hand..

I was going towards him and he was coming towards me. We just had a two seconds of eye contact, but then we both looked away. We went passing each other like some strangers who don't know anything about each other.

I directly went upstairs before anyone notice me. Sam was applying some sort of oil in her leg, sitting on the floor..

"Hii.. " I greeted her and put the file on her bed..

"Sit here, " she said pointing at a sofa. I shook my head, "Actually I need to go home, as Ramu Kaka is waiting for me for dinner, " I lied, as I don't want to stay there..

"Umm.. Okay. I thought you will have your dinner here. Okay some other day, " she mumbled with a pout.. I sighed.

Saying her bye, without wasting a time I came out of the house before anyone could notice.. Thankfully both the Aunty were in kitchen.

I stopped on my way seeing all the Rajvansh brothers near the gate. I had no other option, so I took slow steps towards gate, hoping that anyone of them won't stop me. Abir toh definitely won't stop me, but if anyone will do it, it will be more awkward for me , I can't stand in front of Abir..

"By the way, whose idea it was to add this A heart S at the entry? It's quite beautiful na? " I heard Sahil, I was just near them so I could hear everything properly..

"Of course! Your beloved brother, Abir! He want everything to be perfect and beautiful, " Sameer bhai said to Sahil. I licked my dried lips..

I can't even pass without looking at them , it will be so disrespectful. God ! Why you always put me in this type of situation..

"Mishti! You here, " Aadarsh bhai shouted, as soon as his gaze fell on me.. Now I got everyone's attention. Gulping hard, I made my way to them..

"Hello! " I muttered, giving them a awkward smile. Abir was leaning against the car , but as soon as I reached there he walked away and went inside the house without glancing at me. This is what I wanted but it still hurts.. The three brothers stared at his departing figure , then at me.

"Umm... Actually I came her to give Sam some documents, now I need to go, " I mumbled, the brothers stared at me then nodded, waving their hands.

Taking a breathe of relief, I came out of the boundary..

I want to bang my head somewhere, I wish I could be happy in his happiness. I wish I could wish him for his new journey rather than what I am doing.. But what can I do? I can't pretend to be happy when I am not..

And I can't see him getting engaged with someone.. So it's better for both of us to stay away..

I was on my way to my house when I got a call from my house owner..

Hello Uncle..

Mishti, Don't go anywhere for two days. I am going to visit there.. And will take the rent fee too..

Umm, can I send the money through online.. Actually I am going to Canada, that's why!

Ramu was saying you will go after three days.. So you can stay here.. And moreover I need a copy of your Adhar card and passport size photograph, in beginning I couldn't keep it because I had some urgent work.. These are the basic things we house owner keep with us for our safety. And you have to sign on a paper too that you are staying here..

Okay uncle!

I cut the call.. For God sake, can't anything happen according to my plan? Locking my house door from inside, I went to my bedroom..

I ordered a Pizza, enough of starving myself . After 30 minutes, the delivery guy delivered my pizza..
When I opened the pizza box , the manali incident flashed on my eyes. The way he was denying me to eat, the way he gave me the medicine and whatever we did in kitchen. He was doing all those stuffs only to tease me? I pulled my hair in frustration..

Even the pizza didn't taste like pizza, the excitement in me was dead. But still I ate all, because I was hungry..

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Abir :)

There's so many things I wanted to tell her. But what she said, after that it was difficult for me to even stand in front of her. Mom had sent me to our family Pandit with a list, after giving it to him, when I came back I was dumbfounded to see her in my house..

But I ignored her, this is what she want. We again became strangers and this hurts. If something like this was bound to happen then why did even we meet in first place..

"Bachha! Why are you crying? "

Hearing Mom's concern filled voice, I opened my eyes and realized I was shedding tears, I wiped it hurriedly..

Pressing my face on her chest, she hugged me, rubbing my bag.. I held her tightly, I felt like living my life again. She kissed on my head..

Cupping my face, she stared at me but I looked away..

"It's nothing, I was just watching a series and it had a tragic ending, that's why I was sad, don't know how I ended up crying, " I muttered looking down, this was the most lame excuse..

She sat beside, holding my cold palm in her hand ..

"And you think I will get satisfied with this answer? " she asked, rubbing her thumb on my backpalm..

"Yes! Because it's true.. Do you want me to show the history in my phone? You can check whether I am telling thuth or not? " I said, taking my phone out of my pant pocket.. To be honest, I haven't watched anything , if she won't stop me then it's over for me..

She took my phone away and kept it on the sofa. I sighed in relief..

"I trust you! But nowadays you are looking so lost, so just asked, " she told.. All can see the pain then why can't Mishti see it? My face dropped but I smiled faintly..

"No, it's just for heavy work pressure, " I muttered.

"Umm.. If you are saying then ok. But you were saying something about series? Which type of ending it had? " she questioned, raising her brows..

"At the end , the leads got separated. The male lead never got a chance to confess his feelings for her, because he kept waiting for right time. Which he never got and he lost her, " I explained, of course it was my story.. I still believe it's not the end of us. It can never be like this..

"Where did the girl go? I mean what happened in the end? " she asked, I had no answer for it..

"I don't know, only that girl know, " I uttered, looking at the infinity sky, full of beaming stars . She hit my shoulder, "Are you sure you were watching something? What are you saying is going out of my head, " she laughed, I sighed..

"Leave that.. Tell me why everyone don't get a happy ending, why there is no FOREVER for everyone? "

She took a deep breath and stared at the carpet..

"Forever doesn't mean FOR EVER. For me it means the duration of time you were with your soul mate, it can be a day, it can be a week or a month or some years or the actual forever, " she whispered, her voice was low.

I cursed myself for asking these questions to her. She must be remembering dad.

"But at the short duration of time, they give us a lifetime memories which we cherish forever! " she added, I could see the pain behind her sparkling eyes.. I took her in my embrace, she kept her head on my chest.

"Sometimes I miss your dad, I know situation was hard. But he could have shared with us na? We would have helped him in someway, " she sobbed, I felt my shirt getting wet due to her tears..

I want to bang my head somewhere, I should not have asked her something like this..

"You know, Aadarsh is getting engaged in just few days, he would have been the happiest knowing the girl with whom he is getting engaged is Saanvi.. " she whispered, clutching my shirt tightly. I rubbed her back, trying to sooth her..

Saanvi was dad's favourite. I wish I could just change my past.

"Mom, please don't cry. He is with us, in our hearts, and he must be happy now! " I muttered, I couldn't find some proper words to comfort her, because my own heart is craving for someone..

"Who made my mom cry like this! " Aadarsh bhai said dramatically, trying to lighten the environment.. Mom broke the hug , I wiped her tears and kissed her cheek.. Bhai took her with him..

I laid on sofa, as my chest tightened in pain.. The cold breeze was blowing. There was a peaceful silence in the wind, but my heart was exploding. One way I am happy for my brother and my best friend and in another way I don't know.

I still have a hope that everything will be fine. But I won't go to her after whatever happened today.

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