Mishti :)

Today's plan was to visit other places of Manali, but at the last moment we changed the plan. Because we wanted to trek and Malana is one of the best place for trekking..

We reached in Kasol before 6.00 AM. After doing our breakfast there we went to Jari which is the starting point of Malana village..

The 5 km trek from Malana Taxi stand to the village tucked at 10000 feet is one of the engrossing day treks you would ever take. Walking the Malana Trek one can't escape the perfect nature setting around.

We reached in farm house at about 7.30PM. We all directly went to our room as we all were tired, but in my case it's worse. This environment really sucks. I am having high temperature. My whole body is paining .. It's difficult for me to even open my eyes...

I glanced at the watch, it's 9.30 PM .. I haven't told anyone about me having fever, as they have planned to go to a near restaurant.. They would have cancelled thr plan for me, so I didn't say anything..

I closed my eyelids, resting my head on the headrest of bed, wrapping the blanket till my waist.

"Mishti! You are still sitting here, aren't you coming with us? " Sam said coming to the room, I yawned being tired..

"Actually I am tired, you guys go na! I will stay here, " I mumbled, she raised her brows and sat near me..

"Even my legs are paining, but once we will go out na you will feel better. Sitting in this room won't help, so better come with us, " she tried to convince me. If I will tell her about fever, she won't go out and will stay with me, which I don't want..

"What you both are doing here? We are getting late, "

We both glanced at the door as Abir came inside.

"Why are you looking so pale? " Abir muttered, staring at my face.

"Nothing! Just little tired, " I mumbled, looking down. My health is getting worse, I felt like someone have kept a big stone on my head.

I got startled feeling Abir's cold hand on my forehead. "You have fever, " he whispered and touched my forehead again on his backpalm.. Sam too came and checked whether I have actually fever or not..

"Seriously! And you are saying you are tired, "

"Should I call the doctor? "

I yawned and stretching my body lazily, I laid on the bed.. "Don't worry! I will be fine.. You guys can go, " I whispered, closing my eyes. Then opened my one eye and closed it quickly. They both were glaring at me.

"Sam, come with me, " I heard Abir's voice and they both left. I opened my eyes only to see nothing but darkness.. The light was off..

Moving my legs up against my stomach I curled my aching body into ball. I felt like the temperature of my body raising up.. I took a deep breath, I had no energy left to wake up and take any medicine..

I turned around hearing heavy footsteps, I could see a familiar figure near the door . Abir. He came inside holding a tray and put it on the teapoy, then turned on the light.. I thought he left to restaurant..

He had changed his dress into his night tee-shirt and pyjama. Even in pyjama he was looking hot. With a frown on his face, he came to me and stood near my legs..

"Come! I have brought bread and milk for you. Eat this then you have to take medicine, " he muttered looking straight into my eyes..

"No need of that, let me sleep, I will feel better, " I whispered, I really was not in a mood to eat anything. And I can't go out of bed as I am wearing a thigh length short pant.

"Mishti! I didn't ask you.. " he said strictly, I licked my dried lips and sat on my bed, covering my legs with the blanket..

"Then give me the tray, I will eat here only, " I said forwarding my both hand, he squeezed his eyes, " Atleast wash your hands, " he urged..

"Listen! I am not feeling good, if you want me to eat then give it, otherwise you can go.. Come here, wash your hand blah blah, don't eat my head, " I shouted, flaring my nose in anger. Then looked down feeling bad for shouting at him, but don't he know how a sick person feel?

"I am sorry, " I apologized, playing with my tiny fingers. He didn't say anything , but taking the tray with him, he sat in front of me, folding his one leg at the bed..

He immersed one bread in the milk and brought near my lips. I opened my mouth and took a little bit of the bread in my mouth and swallowed it lazily. I hate fever, it make me a whole different person, during this time I feel lazy to even breath..

As I finished the bread, he again brought the bread near my mouth and I took a little from it again..

It took me more than ten minutes to eat only one bread, but he was not bothered at all.. He was all calm and composed while feeding me.

He immersed another bread in milk and I made a poker face. If I will eat one more then I will throw out whatever food is in my stomach. When he brought it near my mouth, I shook my head..

"One last time, Please " he said with so much softness in his voice,that I thought to take one more bite . But no! My body had enough, so I denied..

"Fine, " he sighed.. He put the tray on the table and cleaned his hand in basin. I raised my brows in confusion when he came holding a mug in his hand.

He put his fingers inside the water mug and then wiped my mouth. I felt a strange sensation down my spine when his cold fingers touched my lips. He then handed me a tablet, and a glass of water.

After taking the medicine, I gave him the empty glass and again laid on my bed.. Taking all those things on the tray he left my room, not before turning off the light..

I didn't ask him anything about Sam and others, if they went to restaurant or not.. Because I felt lazy..

Not putting any pressure on my head, I closed my eyes to get some sleep. Only sleep can save me from suffering with this body pain and fever..

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With a heavy headache ,I opened my eyelids and groaned lazily. Sam was not sleeping at the other side of bed.. I glanced at the watch and my eyes widen, it's 9.30AM. We have our flight to UP at 4.30 in the evening, I haven't even packed anything..

I looked at my right side, as I felt something above my right arm.. Abir? He was sleeping, placing his head on my arm, sitting on a table near my bed .. I looked up, a bowl was placed over another table and a small piece of cloth..

I loosened my grip around his palm and pulled it slowly not wanting to disturb his sleep, but he woke up due to the small movements of my hand below his head..

"How are you feeling now? " he said touching my forehead. I nodded my head, I was feeling much better, my temperature has gone too..

"Did you sleep here the whole night? " I asked, sitting on the bed. He yawned in response. His eyes were little red and he was looking dull..

"Do you think I even slept? " he chuckled, then again slept keeping his head on the bed still on sitting position..

"I am so sorry, you had to stay awake for me , " I muttered feeling bad for him.. He didn't say anything for a minute then parted his lips to say, "It's okay! You are my responsibility, forgot what mom said? Take care of my baby! So I had to take care of you na, " he mumbled in his sleepy tone..

My heart clenched at his words, I felt heavy in my chest. Responsibility? I took a deep breath, as his words directly hit my heart. He is doing all this because Meera Aunty said him to take care of me? I don't know he said this in his full sense or in slumber..

For sometime I felt like a burden on him. I knew I am nothing special to him, but still I was not ready to hear this from him.. My stomach twisted in pain, not physical but mental pain.. I shut my eyes tightly as I felt water forming in my eyes..

No, I am not feeling bad, but I am going through some unknown feelings which is just killing me from inside.. Taking deep breath, I opened my eyes and stared at his sleeping face..

I got off the bed from another side and went to bathroom taking my brush and clothes.. After taking a warm shower, I felt good..

When I came out of bathroom after wearing my dress, I saw Abir sleeping on my bed and Saanvi di was sitting near his head, and was trying to wake him up..

"Mishti, how are you feeling, " I looked at the sofa, where Sam was sitting..

"Hmm... Feeling much better, " I muttered, "You can travel or should we stay here for one more day? " she asked to which I shook my head..

"No, I can travel.. I don't have temperature now, little tired but I will be fine, don't worry, " I said, she nodded her head..

My gaze fell on my suitcase, then I looked at Sam.. "You were sick na, so I have packed your luggage. I left some dressed in the wardrobe for today, we will pack it later, " she said , I smiled at her . Leaving one jeans and a shirt in the wardrobe, I put other clothes in my bag.

"Abir, you have to get ready, you haven't packed your clothes too, we have a flight today, wake up! " Saanvi di said little loudly, trying to wake him.

He shifted his head from his pillow to her lap, "Let me sleep and you sleep too, " he groaned and pressed his head on her lap.

"Listen don't eat my head, wake up and go keep your clothes, you don't have much time. You know na we have to leave this place before 2.30 , because airport is far away from our place, " she muttered , shaking his hand.

"What will you do then? Go and pack my clothes, till then I am sleeping , " he whispered, she rolled her eyes.

"And what made you think that I will pack your clothes? " she muttered, placing his head on the pillow, he frowned.

"Mishti, let's go for breakfast, after that you have to take medicine too, " Sam said dragging me with her..

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It's been twelve days, we have explored so many places of North and north-east India.. And Cheerapunji, where we are now, was our last destination which we have explored too..

In these days I avoided talking with Abir, it was not like I didn't talk anything , but it was casual. I don't ask for any help, at fast he was little confused about the sudden change but then he too avoided me, which I could feel.

Reason of avoiding him is I don't want to get attached with him, which will hurt me in future. I don't usually get attached with someone so easily but he is different. He make me feel different and it's so difficult to not look at him, to not talk with him.

Even staying away from him didn't help much, I end up thinking about him only.. Other than him, I had good company with me, his brothers and sisters were really good to me.. I enjoyed the trip to the fullest, but it was not satisfying like I was craving for something which I don't know..

And in these days, I used to talk with Rohan everyday, even with his mom too.. It's better to keep good relation with him atleast till the trip end. Because what if I won't answer his call and he will call my Mom, he doesn't know that Mom doesn't know about this trip..

But what is making me anxious that he's not flirting with me anymore, which he usually do, which is better for me, but why the sudden change in his behavior.. Somewhere I am happy because he's talking with me the way we used to talk before when he used to be my close friend..

In fact he was so good, he was one of those person with whom I used to share my feelings. In university days he was the only one who stood by my side during my ups and downs phases.. We used to be good friends, really good, but he ruined it the day he proposed me..

When I denied, he think he was the one who went through the heartbreak, but it was me who suffered the most. Because after that I lost a friend, a friend who was always there for me. After that everything changed between us, because whatever he did I felt like he was doing all those to impress me only..

He didn't do anything wrong, I mean how can it be wrong? He said what he felt for me, but I never take him more than a friend... He don't have any idea, what I went through after that day.. I freaking lost a friend, and nothing is more painful than this.

But now he started talking with me the way he used to. I hope he's not doing this to impress me. Otherwise it will break me again..

I turned my alarm off as it started ringing, I had already woken up before . It's 5.00AM in the morning, the reason of waking up now is that we are staying in tent.. And the problem is , here we have common washroom, I mean one for male and one for female, but inside one washroom there were six bathroom.

Before everyone wake up, I need to bath so that I won't have to stand in a queue. Because other than us, there were some other people too who are doing camping here..

Taking my dress and brush in a bag, I came out of the tent. We were inside the jungle so it's quite dark here.. I entered inside the washroom rubbing my eyes as I was still feeling sleepy. I could not sleep properly due to the mosquitoes..

"La-la-la-la-la "humming silently I locked the washroom inside..

" La - la-" I stopped humming at middle..

"Aaaaaa" I screamed, putting my both hands on my eyes, when my gaze fell on Rajvansh brothers, they all were only in towels and shirtless.. All were there except Abir..

"What you guys are doing here? " I said still closing my eyes in embarrassment..

"That's what we should ask you, what are you doing in male washroom, " I heard Aadarsh bhai's voice. My eyes widen, how did I forgot my route.. "I am sorry, " I muttered and turned around quickly due to which my leg slipped because it was water over the floor..

But before my head hit the floor, I was caged by two strong arms around my waist.. Even though my eyes were closed, I recognised the touch, it was definitely Abir. I bumped on his muscular chest as he pulled me towards him , I was so embarrassed that I didn't open my eyes..

I felt him dragging me till door, then heard the door's opening sound..

"Now you can open your eyes, " I heard him saying, he was still holding me firmly..

I removed my hands and looked up. So many emotions rushed down my spine when my gaze met with his. I felt my heart thumping loudly against my chest.. He was shirtless too, but a towel was wrapped around his neck and it was covering his chest too..

The cold wind passed giving me chills. I breathed hard, when he opened my hairbun, making my hairs fall on my back. Some hair strands fell on my cheeks.

I freed myself from his hold and turned back to leave but he held my hand and blocked my way coming in front of me..

"Why are you ignoring me from from last few days ? " he asked looking straight into my eyes..

"Nothing like that! " I said looking away. He left my hand and left without saying anything. I stared at his departing figure, till he went inside his tent.

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Abir:)

I wore my cloth and laid on my back, closing the tent. She's really behaving weird from last few days. As per I remember she was in good term with me before her fever. But from the next day, which ghost came inside her.

I don't remember doing something which would have hurt her.. I didn't even talk with her after that night, I remember after putting the wet strip cloth on her forehead to reduce the temperature, when I got up she held my hand. I tried to freed my hand but she held it tightly.

I didn't want to disturb her sleep, so I slept there holding her hand. Then when I opened my eyes, I found myself on bed, Saanvi was shouting at me. After that too I didn't talk with her, because she was avoiding me.

When did things go wrong? Everything was going well..

And one more thing which is giving me weird vibes that she's talking with Rohan everyday, that too for more than thirty to forty minutes. My mind was blasting due to overthink.. I could not even enjoy this trip properly, like how could I enjoy when the person I wanted to talk is ignoring me for the reason I don't even know..

After that I too started avoiding her , I mean I just can't talk with her forcefully. So it's better to avoid her.. What even I can do?!

I hit my head on the pillow in annoyance, she's now getting on my nerves. I finally asked her today but she looked away saying there is nothing..

So I came here without saying anything, if she is happy and don't care about my presence what can I do.. But atleast I deserve to  know the reason of her acts, which she's not telling me..

"Abir, " I heard Saanvi's voice, I unzipped my tent and let her come inside the tent. She forwarded me a cup of tea and sat beside me.

"Did you talk with her? " she said, shipping her tea, I shook my head.

"I asked her, but she avoided me again, " I took a sharp breath..

"You know, she was talking with Rohan last night , all smiling and laughing, " she muttered, keeping a serious face..

"You know what, I want to punch your face really hard, " I whispered, her eyes widen and she sat keeping a distance between us..

Already I am overthinking from last few days and now she is adding ghee on the fire..

"Listen do one thing, kidnap her and marry her, " she said chuckling..

"What about kidnapping you and then kill you then bury you, " I shouted being annoyed, she gulped and focused on her tea..

But her idea was not that wrong. I mean I can kidnap her and marry her. But I love my life too, I don't want to die so soon.

Just when I started thinking she's getting comfortable with me, she started ignoring me. Can my life not be hard on me for a day atleast?

Saanvi left, taking the cups with her. I was scrolling through my email, when I heard Mishti's voice. I hurriedly came out of the tent and looked here and there.

My heart flinched when I saw her feet bleeding, I ran to her and sat on my knees. She took out the thorn from her feet and hissed in pain.. I took her in my arm and made her seat above a rock..

"Stay here, " saying I went inside to bring the first-aid kit. When I came out I saw her walking, anger built in me. Can't she keep her stubbornness away for sometime?

I again made her sit , tears were rolling from her eyes due to the cut. I sat in front of her and placed her feet on my lap..

"It's okay, I can manage, " she muttered, and pulled out her leg but I held her feet tightly clenching my jaw..

"What's wrong with you? " I said gritting my teeth. She held her feet, closing her eyes tightly as I put the cotton on her cut.

"I don't need your help, please let me go, I don't want to be a burden on someone, " she said trying to pull her leg. I raised my brows in confusion. Burden?

"And what made you think that? You are not a burden here, so stop talking rubbish, " I muttered and applied an ointment on her cut.. The bleeding has stopped as it was not that deeper.

"Let me go, " she again said and that is when I lost my temper. I took a deep breath to control my anger.

I sat on my knees, held her shoulder and made her look at me.. I felt a sharp pain in my chest when my eyes met with her red eyes. She was looking hurt ..

"Please tell me what's is bothering you? What did I do that you are ignoring me? " I said, trying hard to sound calm and composed.. She looked down and tears started falling from her eyes..

"No need to help me or take care of me, just because your Mom said to do so.. I am not a child, I can take care of myself, " she mumbled, I blinked my eyes rapidly..

"And who said you that? " I asked lifting her chin up through my finger..

"You! " she said!

I left her shoulder and frowned.

"When? " I asked, getting up.

"That day when you slept in my room, I don't know if you said in real or in your sleep. But it was true actually! " she said, I was deeply shocked.

Hell! I did a blunder and I don't even have any idea of it.

"Listen, whatever I blabbered , I never meant it. I was tired and sleepy. How could you take it seriously? " I muttered. I cursed myself for saying this to her.

"Don't feel bad about that! Actually it was my fault, unknowingly I started depending on you which I shouldn't. There is nothing between us, I don't have any rights on you nor you have on me. Neither we are friend nor anything.. So it's better if we both don't bother each other, " she mumbled, I just stared at her helplessly.

There is nothing between us? My heart tightened in pain as her words kept ringing in my mind.

"Yeah! There is nothing between us! " I whispered , taking a step back..

"And I am sorry for hurting you, but honestly I never meant it.. " saying I went inside my tent..

I pulled my hairs roughly, how could she say there is nothing between us.. Did she never feel anything for me? Not even a bit? I gulped down a bottle of water in one go and laid on my back.. But it was my fault too, but was my one act enough to made her feel like this? She forgot everything we shared before?

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