Chapter 32: Dust of love, in grams of hope

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     "It's been a good few days since we last spoke. " the silver-haired boy says, looking amused at the boy in front of him.

    "I find it hard somehow, to believe that you missed talking to me. " Jungkook responds flatly, looking at the older boy in the eye, while the other one smirks weakly.

      "Maybe I didn't missed talking with you, but just to beat you up. " Yoongi whispers later, and the younger boy shifts his gaze to the store door, hoping that his boyfriend will o out as soon as possible.

     No, he's not afraid of Yoongi. He never was afraid of the silver-head, even though he always let him beat him, but that was just because of guilt, and nothing else. With every fist Yoongi used to throw on his body, Jungkook felt that he was getting rid of all the guilt, at least for a moment. That's why he never retaliated, not because he was afraid.

      But he wants Taehyung to get out from the store as soon as possible, because he knows that Yoongi has the power to make Jungkook, forget all the progress made so far, and throw him back into the same endless darkness, with just a few simple words. And the tattooed boy really doesn't want that. He doesn't want to start being the same boy as before, now that he's started on a different path.

       "What do you really want, Yoongi? You want to beat me? Then do it faster, I have to get somewhere. " Jungkook says without changing the tone of his voice, while the older one looks at him a little surprised.

       "Whoa, the bunny get the courage, didn't he? " the silver boy asks in an amused tone, then shows a wider smirk. "I hear you're trying to quit drugs. Are you sure you don't want me to bring you some merchandise? I have exactly the same product as that night. " he says in a much more serious tone, while Jungkook looks at him more intently this time.

       He knows what he's talking about, he knows he's talking about the drugs Jungkook used when his brother died. Drugs that are damn dangerous, on a whole other level. And damn it, Jungkook would be lying if he says is not even a little tempting. A single overdose, and not even the doctors can not save him. A single overdose would more than likely end him up right next to his brother. Actually no, he wouldn't go to Heaven, but you know what I mean. He will die for sure. 

      But no. He can not do this. Not when Taehyung is by his side day and night, trying to help him recover, to forget about this addiction. Not when its own sunset, it has its own sunrise.

      "No thanks, I am good." the younger one manages to comments, and when he notices that Taehyung is about to leave the store, he breathes more calmly.

       "You don't have to hide from me, Kook. I know how much you want those drugs. " Yoongi whispers again, and these words make the other one to smile bitterly.

       "You want me dead so much, don't you? " Jungkook then asks, and immediately afterwards, he hears the store door and realizes that his boyfriend has left it.

      And even if Yoongi seems to get a little more serious or think of something, when he notices Taehyung approaching the two of them, he just gives Jungkook one last smirk. 

        "You know the answer. " he says later and leaves him, not wanting to create another scene, because of the boy with the bandanna. 

     And when Taehyung looks at him intently and curiously, Jungkook knows that he must mask any trace of pain on his face, replacing ot with a fake smile, and yet extremely useful at this time.

        "Did you buy banana milk? " the younger boy tries to change the word, looking at the net in the right hand of his boyfriend, but the older one does not seem willing to let this be overlooked.

        "Did he hit you? Jungkook, tell me, he hit you? " Taehyung asks in a damn low tone and at the same time somehow agitated, and that makes the other one smile a little more truly this time.

      Taehyung cares about him. He cares about him a lot. And Jungkook doesn't really know if he should be grateful or sad because the perfect boy in front of him is wasting his time on a destroyed boy like him.

       "No, Tae. He didn't hit me, you don't have to worry. " the tattooed boy responds and then heads for Namjoon's car, while his boyfriend still looks at him, not quite convinced. 

       "Then what did he talk to you about? What did he tell you? " Taehyung asks again, and the other one swallows hard, not knowing what to say.

     He doesn't like to lie, especially, he doesn't like to lie to Taehyung. But he can't tell to his lover the truth. He knows he will most certainly create another scene. And he really doesn't want Taehyung to be scolded by the coach again because of him. He can't cause trouble again.

       "Nothing unusual, he just doesn't like my face and stuff. " Jungkook says and get in the car, trying to escape somehow.

     And the older boy just nods , then gets on the car at his turn, leaving the net on the back seat. He's not going to insist anymore, but he already knows Jungkook is lying. He knows that whenever his boyfriend tells a lie, he avoids looking at him. And that makes him wonder even more, what the hell that bastard told him. But he will find out somehow, even if not today.

      "Are you ready for our date? " Taehyung then asks, starting the car, and the younger boy approves instantly, extremely enthusiastically.

       "Of course! I have the chance to spend more money on you! " Jungkook jokes and then they both laugh.

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      "Hell no!" the boy with the longer hair raises his voice, looking scared at his boyfriend. "I'm never going to ride that thing." he says later and the older one blushes subtly because of his perverse thoughts. 

      "Kook, think twice before saying anything, it will be better. " Taehyung says and then straightens his voice, as he glance at his boyfriend again, which looks scared like he is about to jump from a building or something. "And it's just a bicycle, love. Besides, I'm here, aren't I? " he says later and the younger one just looks at him with a sulky pout, which makes Taehyung giggle because of this cute view.

      "When you said we were going to a date, I didn't though you wanted to come to the park to teach me to ride a bike. " Jungkook mumbles not as excitedly as he was in the car, and the other just rolls his eyes, then quickly kisses his boyfriend's lips.

      "I promised you a few months ago that I would teach you." Taehyung says and the other one looks around, a little embarrassed.

     "Tae, but we are surrounded by children. Kids who know how to ride a bike! They will make fun of me! " Jungkook whispers as it tells a secret, and the older one just looks at him amused.

     "Since when exactly did Jeon Jungkook cares about the opinion of those around him? " Taehyung asks, then remove some strands of hair from his boyfriend's eyes. "Besides, you're my cute baby, aren't you?" he tease the younger one after that, and Jungkook can swear he becomes red instantly. 

      Fuck those stupid nicknames! 

     "Yes, you're right, I don't care. But if you leave me alone, I swear you'll find frogs in your bed tonight! " Jungkook threatens him and the other one just approves while laughing, then takes the bike from the bench, while smiling.

      "I will never leave you alone, love. Not now, not tomorrow, not in a thousand years. " Taehyung says and then strokes Jungkook's left cheek. "Now come on, get on the bike first."

     "This is embarrassing as fuck." the tattooed boy mumbles under his breath, then he slowly sits down on the bicycle seat, while Taehyung's hands are wrapped around him on the bicycle horns.

      Hell, that's really embarrassing! There are four-year-olds who know how to ride a bike in this park! When the mothers of the children will see a big boy over twenty years old, struggling not to fall off the bike, they will surely have reason to laugh.

      "Love, stop looking around. Nobody laughs at you, nobody pays attention to us. " Taehyung whispers as if reading his thoughts, and Jungkook nods weakly, then takes a deep breath. "Put your hands on the corners of the bike, exactly where I have them now. " he says later and the younger boy does exactly as he is told.

      "I know what I should do first, Tae. I'm not that stupid. " the tattooed boy comments and the other chuckles again.

       "I know you are not stupid, love." the older one says, then becomes again more serious. "Okay, that's the brake. " he then says and shows him, and the other one listens intently, without thinking about everyone around him. 

      "You will catch me if I fall, right?" the younger one wants to be sure (again), and the other just kisses his head briefly, smiling at his lover's sweet shampoo scent.

      "Always, Kook. Always." Taehyung assures him, then rests his hands better on Jungkook's shoulders so that he can support him. "Try to start, I'm right here with you. " he says later, and immediately after that, Jungkook starts pedaling slowly, feeling really good.

      With every meter that Jungkook travels cycling with Taehyung's help, he feels the smile on his face grow more and more. Damn, how good it feels! But more than that... it feels normal. And in these moments the younger boy does not remember how he looked when he was little as other children riding bicycles smiling, but he feels exactly what they felt.

      "I... I think I get it! You can let me go now! " he then tells Taehyung, and the older one looks at him intently.

      "You are sure?" Tehyung asks, and Jungkook nods within a second. "Fine, but you have to pedal slowly, I need to be near to your side. " he says and then takes his hands off from his boyfriend's shoulders, while Jungkook keeps his face focused, as if he's having a math contest or something.

     The older boy smiles when he sees Jungkook moving away from him, with a big smile on his face. And at this point, he has no idea if his heart is happy or sad. He feels fulfilled because he managed to be with Jungkook at such a time, and sad because such a thing was normal for any child, in childhood. He had to be taught by his parents, not by him. 

     "Fuck!"

      His boyfriend's voice makes Taehyung instantly go out from his mind, and when he sees the younger one down, he immediately starts running towards him. He slip him out of his eyes just for a few seconds! When this happened?

     "Love! You are okay?" Taehyung asks anxiously, kneeling in front of his boyfriend, and starting to look at him to see if he is hurt.

     Meanwhile, Jungkook is just laughing like he hasn't laughed in a while. He really laughs and doesn't think about all the problems he has. Because now, in this moment, he feels really alive. And it may sound like an exaggeration, but this is how he feels. He feels happy, free and it's not because of the bike ride. But because he did something he should have done when he was younger.

      "I am more than just okay, Tae." Jungkook responds with a smile, then touches his lover's cheeks, kissing him without caring what they both look like. "I... I start to feel alive, thanks to you." he says after breaking the kiss, and Taehyung knows. 

     He will do his best until Jungkook really comes out of the darkness.

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Yesssir, a new chapterrrr

I kinda liked it idk hehe

U can be happy until the angst will come hehe:)))

Question: Do you want a sad or happy ending?
I'm pretty confused, that's why I ask:)