Chapter 23: We can paint with our blood, a bright red of love

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     "He will be fine, Tae. Stop crying." the blond-haired boy whispers in his best friend's right ear, stroking his back.

      "He... he was shaking so bad, Jimin." Taehyung manages to comments, while other tears fall on his cheeks and his breathing becomes more and more heavier.

     Yes, after the ambulance called, he called Jimin as well. And damn, good thing he called his best friend! Jimin seems to have known what to do when a person is in a state of convulsion, and as soon as he arrives, he has managed to take care of Jungkook until the arrival of the medical crew. And since then, Taehyung simply has not been able to stop from crying. Why? Because his heart has never been heavier than it is now.

      "Do you know ... what made him do that? " Jimin asks, and the other one looks at him wearily, then wipes away some tears.

      "Yoongi." the boy in the bandanna says the name in a disgusted tone, then clenches his fists angrily. "Believe me, Chim, that bastard will pay for everything. He will pay for the state Jungkook is. " he continues then looks at the floor, again, closing his eyes a few seconds. "But he... he is not the only one to blame."

      The blond-haired boy just looks at him bitterly, hating the fact that he can not help him more. Whoever said that love can make you fly, but at the same time can leave you without legs, was not wrong. Jimin has never seen his best friend so exhausted both physically and emotionally. And that says a lot.

     "What do you mean, Tae?" Jimin asks again, and Taehyung just sighs in a heavy way, feeling his chest burning from all this crying. 

      "I'm to blame too, Jimin. If I hadn't argued with him, if I hadn't said things I don't believe, then he ... more than likely wouldn't have gotten here. " the bandanna-boy whispers, then bites his lips, trying to prevent another crying-session. "I was so stupid, so fucking stupid!" he comments after, guilt flowing through his veins.

     And Jimin really tries his best to be as calm as he can, even if is pretty difficult to do so. He's not really used to such a ... vulnerable Taehyung. But in this moment he can realize how much a person can change because of love. Until now, Kim Taehyung used to be focused most of the time on his own person. No, not in the sense that he was a narcissist or something, but simply because he always considered is much important to put your own person before the others. Okay, maybe it kinda the same thing? But anyway...

      Now he looks at another level of pain. He looks really devastated, and even though Jimin is not happy at all to see him in this way, he realizes how much the bandanna-boy has managed to change because of Jungkook. Love changes people, and where it doesn't, it isn't true.

       "Tae, don't say that. You're not to blame. Now all that matters is that Jungkook has to be fine! " Jimin comments and the older one nods. 

       "He... he will be fine, right?"

      His voice is full of despair, because yes, the image from an hour ago, still haunts him, without ceasing: The boy he loves trembled incessantly, while his eyes already looked like a dead man's, and his breath was no longer that of a living man.

      "I'd say yes just to make you feel better, but I can't tell, Tae. We can only hope. But Jeon is strong, so I think everything will be alright. " Jimin replies, and the bandanna-boy just gulps dryly, starting to play with his own fingers, because of the anxiety. 

      "He is not that strong, Chim." Taehyung comments in a weak tone, then takes a deep breath. "He... he just pretends to be, even if... even if it's not good to do that. " he comments after, then looks at his best friend again. 

     How could he stop this evening? How could he jump over all these torturous hours of waiting, jumping straight to the side where Jungkook is fine and where he can take him in his arms? He feels how slowly but surely he loses his mind (again) because of the boy with the tattoos. Why does he always have to do such drastic and serious things? Why doesn't he care what happens to him ?!

      "Taehyung, did he say anything to you before he became unconscious? Did he tell you why he took an overdose?" Jimin asks and the bandanna-boy nods, wiping away a few tears from his cheeks. 

       Yes, men can also cry, when everything gets too rough. Nothing weird or wrong in that.If anyone else has a different opinion, then they can fight me!

      "Yeah, he... he said Yoongi made him ... made him realize he is a monster. That bastard told him we all can live only if he dies. Hell, Jimin! I will never forgive that idiot!" Taehyung's voice becomes even lower than it was before, looking subtly at the room where Jungkook is now.

       "Aren't you going to report him to the police? From what you said, he can be punished for Jungkook's suicide suggestions." the blond haired-boy comments, looking intently at his best friend. 

       "I really don't know what to do. I know that Jungkook would say again that I had interfered in his affairs without any rights, so it is better to wait and talk to him first, before doing anything else. "

     Yes, he knows how much that bastard deserves to go to jail. He beat Jungkook more than just once. And now, because of him ... the tattoo boy has come to do what he used to do in the past. But he can't move now. Not until he talks to him, he apologizes for that useless quarrel and tells him that it doesn't matter what he feels, because Taehyung's feelings won't change so quickly. Now the most important thing is for Jungkook to be fine! After that, everything will be resolved.

       "I think I should call the coach and tell him what's going on. We can't hide this from him, it will be worse after that. " Jimin suggests and the other one nods again.

       "Yeah, you can call him." the bandanna-boy agrees, and the blond-haired boy gets up from the chair, then takes his phone from the pocket, and then heading to a less busy place.

      And as soon as Taehyung is left alone again, one of the worst and darkest thoughts makes his blood freeze in his veins again:

      "What if he won't be fine?"

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      "Are you sure you're going to be fine overnight? " Jimin whispers as he watches the sleeping boy on the hospital bed, and his best friend inhales wearily.

      "Yeah, you can go, Jimin. I want to stay with him." the bandanna-boy comments in a tired voice, without taking his eyes from the younger one. 

      "I will be back tomorrow. Goodnight, and try to get some sleep. He should be fine now." the blond haired-boy replies, and the other one just nods.

      "Yeah, goodnight." Taehyung says at his turn, then Jimin leaves the room in a few seconds.

     Two hours ago, the doctor came out from Jungkook's room, explaining to Taehyung and Jimin what the state of the tattooed boy is. According to the man in the white robe, the younger boy was very lucky that Taehyung called the ambulance in time, because otherwise, things could get extremely ugly, even to the point of death. That thought (that Jungkook could have been dead if he hadn't been there) scared Taehyung more than he thought he might be scared.

       "The doctor said that you will have to stay under supervision for a few days, but that ... you will be fine, as long as you do not start your addiction again. " Taehyung says to the younger one, even if the other one can not hear him. 

      What could he do better anyway? He has already decided to stay overnight with Jungkook, so he can at least talk to him, even if he doesn't get an answer. Yes, Jimin suggested to do an exchange, but Taehyung was more than stubborn, telling him that he would stay with Jungkook all night. And in the end, who is Jimin to intervene between his best friend and the boy he likes? 

       "I guess you really love this hospital, right?" the older one jokes after that, then chuckles bitterly, but just for a second, and after that, he becomes more serious. "I guess you love to worry me as well, Kook." he continues after, as his voice breaks even more than before. 

    It's not just about what happened now. It's much more. Jungkook worries him with every word, with every fake smile thrown on his porcelain face. He worries with every action meant to hurt his own person, with every reckless gesture that endangers his life. He is worried about the desolation in his eyes, the pain in his voice, every time they start talking about some things from his past. In short, Jungkook makes Taehyung to worry with all the things he does!

     But maybe this is also a more vague shade of true love. Concern for the one you love. Thoughts and ideas about how that "someone" might suffer, or be in danger. And still there, you are trying again and again to defend them and help them as best you can. Even if sometimes you don't succeed. Yeah, this can also be a shade of love, right?

       "You know, Jeon, I thought about it a lot. " Taehyung starts and then grabs the younger boy's right hand in his larger hands. "I thought I was not ready to give my love to a person who is not able to feel love. But when I saw you in that state, I realized that ... It's not your fault you can't feel love yet. And I will be by your side from now on, showing you how simple and beautiful it can be to feel something like that." he comments after, looking softer at him. 

      If until now he was not mature enough to realize how hard Jungkook's life was, now it is. He realized that maybe this is why he kept rejecting him. Maybe the younger one is somehow afraid to feel something other than pain, a little more colorful and warm feeling, where butterflies roll in his stomach. But from now on, Taehyung will bring summer in his heart full of winter.

       And even if Jungkook doesn't fall in love with the bandanna-boy as well, at least the older one will still be able to be there for him, as a friend, at least. Love cannot be forced, and the friendship that has been watered and has already grown like a beautiful flower should not be cut even after that. So it doesn't matter what happens to their relationship, or what happens in the future. Taehyung will be more attentive from now on with Jungkook. It doesn't matter if as a boyfriend, a friend, a roommate, or a captain. He will be there, he will help him overcome his difficulties, he will help him out of the darkness. 

        "And I withdraw what I said, Jeon. Sunsets can also be beautiful. It teaches you to cherish what you love, as long as you still have those things or people. " Taehyung breaks again the silence, smiling a little, even if it hurts, because yeah, he cried for some good hours in a row. "And I will take care to value you much more and I promise, I will make you value yourself too. "

     And yes, maybe Taehyung has no idea what will happen in the future, or what happened in Jungkook's past. But as long as he has the younger one in his life, he will do his best to bring him "back to life".

        "We will create our own sunset, Kook. I'll take care of that. "

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Yeah, a boring update after two days without any

But yeah, I am tired af so I hope u liked even a little bit

Here is almost midnight so I gotta go to sleep, see yaaaa

some drama is near hehe