Chapter 18: Welcoming the frost in the soul

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   "I've never been good at hide and seek, but I'll always do my best to find you and bring you closer to me."

     The little boy smiles, looking at the older boy, then nods.

     "I will do my best for you to find me every time. "

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      "Aish, that idiot really knows how to kick. " the tattooed boy mumbles as he tries to open his eyes, and ignores the infernal headache.

     He doesn't remember much, only that he was beaten again. It's not like something wow anyway. 

      "I don't accept any more excuses this time, Jeon. " the thick voice of his roommate instantly wakes him from his numbness, and as soon as he manages to open his eyes, he notices that he is in the room of the two.

    Taehyung looks extremely angry. Or disappointed. Or even worried. Jungkook fails to say which feeling would be stronger, from his expression. 

      "How I am... here?" the younger one prefers to asks at his turn, and the other one just takes a few steps closer to him, then he sits down on a chair next to his bed.

       "I brought you here. " Taehyung responds and then exhales in frustration. "After that call ... I looked for you all over campus, and just as I was about given up, I thought about checking out the sport room. And then I ... I thought you were really dead, you idiot. "

      Jungkook swallows hard, then moves his gaze to the floor. It's not that he is scared because he feels like a punching bag, but because Taehyung was the one who found him in that state. He knows all too well how stubborn the older boy can be, and this time, he really doesn't know how to avoid all the questions.  

      "I... I just-"

       "Do not tell me! You wanted to sleep on the floor in the gym, covered in your blood again, didn't you?" Taehyung interrupts him sarcastically and angry, then looks at him intently. "Who did this to you, Jungkook? Tell me now."

      Okay, the youngest has no idea how to get out of this situation. Yes, he may want to tell her about Yoongi, but he can't. He doesn't want to endanger the older one, so he'll have to behave again more than just cold and rude.

       "Why should I tell you this? You have nothing to do with what is happening to me. " Jungkook decides to say it, trying to speak as accurately as possible, because he is still in a lot of pain.

      Taehyung just closes his eyes in frustration, trying not to really go crazy (but he doesn't have much time until then). How could he be calm when, a few hours ago, he felt that he did not have much until he himself will faint? When he reached that room, when he saw Jungkook with blood on his face, unconscious and hunted, he felt his heart break into thousands of painful pieces quickly and brutally.

       Why? He has no idea. Maybe because he started to care about Jungkook more than he should, or maybe because is his captain. But one thing is certain: he swore this would not end like that. He promised to find out who beat Jungkook again, or if he was the same person as last time. And once he finds out, damn it, he won't care if he goes to jail himself!

       "The only reason I didn't take you to the hospital and you didn't wake up with other cops in front of you, is because I wanted you to talk to me first. That's why I personally took care of you all night. At least you can tell me what the hell happened. "

       Jungkook feels more than guilty. He feels like a little kid being scolded for doing something stupid. He really doesn't know if he should smile or cry because Taehyung stayed up all night to take care of him, or because he didn't take him to the hospital. The situation would have been much more complicated if he had gotten there again. Besides the fact that he should lied again other policemen, he would probably have had to endure some infusions as well. I think everyone has already realized that Jeon Jungkook hates any kind of needle, or infusions.

       "I ... thank you. Because you didn't take me to the hospital, and ... I'm sorry you stayed up all night to take care of me. " the younger boy says, trying not to let his voice betray his feelings at this moment.

     And if Taehyung thought he was already used to this bipolarity of his roommate, now he realizes that no, he still is not. I mean, how can the idiot in front of him be the same guy who laughs with him, just yesterday? Why does his behavior change even more than the weather?

      "Really? Do you think that if you say thank you and apologize, I will leave you alone? " the boy in the bandanna asks and looks at him without moving his eyes. "If you don't tell me who the hell beat you up and why he did it, I'm going to the police right now, Jungkook. Are you sure you want this? I am really done with all your shity attitude, so just decide."

      The younger boy bites his lower lip restlessly, as he tries to think of a chance to escape from all this crap. By no means can Taehyung call the police! And he can't tell him the truth either. So what should he say or do?

      "Kim, we have an important match today, so don't worry about such things. We must just focus on the game. " Jungkook tries his luck, and the other one gets up from the chair angrily.

      "Damn it, Jeon! Do you really have to continue this ?! " the older boy raises his voice, while the younger one slowly gets up from the bed at his turn, feeling his stomach dusty, from the blows of last night.

     He becomes unbalanced due to a strong dizziness, but just tight before he makes contact with the floor, Taehyung catches him, pushing him carefully back on the bed. The younger one can swear that for a moment, he felt something damn strange in his stomach. More than likely hunger.

      "I just... I already told you, this is nothing important." 

     The comment makes the older one to chuckle sarcastically, then takes another deep breath. He really tests the limits of his patience every time he has to talk to Jungkook.

      "Nothing important? Jungkook, this isn't the first time you have been knocked unconscious! When will it be important? When will you not be able to open your eyes? Or when you die somewhere, where no one will know about you? Then it will be important, Jungkook ?! "

      Jungkook doesn't quite understand why Taehyung is so angry right now. He doesn't even know if he's ever seen him like this before. But he knows he shouldn't feel so good because the boy in the bandanna seems worried about what's going on with him. He should not be in any way wondering what if all the things of the past had not hunted him in the present, and if he could live like a normal man.

       "Stay in your side, Kim. We have nothing to do with each other. I don't even want to continue that nonsense with the ten exits. I'm much better off without a friend like you. " 

      The younger boy does not understand if his roommate can realize that he is lying because of his trembling tone. But in a way, he hopes so, because yes, he didn't really say these things from the heart. He really wants to be friend with Taehyung. He is the only one who has managed to keep him distracted from his own problems and thoughts so far. But he needs to put a distance as soon as possible. Because Yoongi is capable of anything. And in no case does he want another innocent soul to get lost because of his inner storm.

      "You mean it? Look into my eyes and say that again. Say that you really hate when I am around you." the older one comments, and the other one just grits his teeth. 

       Normal. Naturally, by now, Taehyung realized that the younger boy is always lying when he moves his gaze to the floor, avoiding eye contact. One of the many things Jungkook hates about himself.

      "Kim, stop. I already-"

       "I already know who did this to you. "

      This sentence makes the younger boy freeze for a moment, not knowing if he heard really well or not. But he hopes not. If Taehyung had already figured it out, then why would he insist on that? Most likely he is just trying to find out who is really guilty, with such tricks.

       "Who? Peter Pan?" the younger one asks in a sarcastic tone, but still, tries his best to be as calm as he can.

        "Do you really think I didn't realize that Min Yoongi was on the phone?  You think I am that blind or stupid?"

      Jungkook forgets to breathe. Here's how to put it bluntly. In fact, he forgets that he is still in great pain, and gets up from the bed again, this time without thinking, and without caring about the dizziness. He hopes this is a nightmare and his roommate didn't realize it. Damn, this have to be all a joke!

        "This is... is not true. He was not-"

         "Stop trying to lie, again, Jungkook! This does not work with me. Not when I managed to tie everything together too well. " the older boy says, and the younger one is just trying to think of a better excuse. "I just wanted to get you to admit it, but I guess I was not able. Will you tell me the reason, or will I have to go to him and ask him? Will you tell me why the hell he did all this to you or not?"

      Do you know when it is said that there are times when you feel trapped between a hammer and an anvil? Moments when you feel like you have no escape? Well, Jungkook is in such a moment. If he doesn't tell him what's going on, Taehyung will really go to Yoongi. And Jungkook knows all too well that the silver-haired boy has a lot of connections, which can easily kill his roommate by beating him. And if he tells him why Yoongi is still beating and assaulting him, he will lose Taehyung as a friend more than likely. The older one won't be able to look at him the same way under any circumstances. He will most likely look at him as others usually do: with disgust and contempt.

      But if losing the only person he consider a friend means he can protect her, then so be it. Taehyung was the only one who did not avoid him from the beginning of his move here. He was the only one who kept trying to help him, to talk to him, even if at first they understood each other like a nut on the wall. And even though he always tried to put him at a distance by his rude and cold attitude, the boy with the bandanna did not back down. Even more, he tried harder and harder to understand him.

      So yes, maybe it's time for Taehyung to really distance himself from Jungkook. He will certainly do so as soon as the truth is revealed. You know the saying: the hardest things to do are the right ones.

      So Jungkook just takes a deep breath, shifts his gaze to the boy in front of him, and as soon as the words he hasn't said in a long time leave his mouth, he feels the frost cover his soul:

      "I killed his lover. "

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Yeah, new chapterrr

Maybe it is pretty boring, but hey, it is better than nothingggg

I wait for your opinions and see ya at the next oneeee

Who is curious about Kook's past??👀