Louis P.O.V

"Louis quit being such a party pooper" Ashton threw his bitten apple at me. They were all trying to convince me to go to a party that some Emma girl was hosting but I kept declining the offer.

"I got shit to do" I got the plastic fork and poked the egg that was on my tray.

"Like?" Mike hit Nick on his chest making Nick punch Mike back.

"Got to help that asshole of my dad pack his shit" I rolled my eyes when I heard Nick laugh. I looked up to the cafeteria doors and I see Niall and Harry walk in. It's been almost two fucking months since Harry and I last talked. He got back with that Josh guy, which I think is stupid. Harry seemed better than he use to look before, he looks... healthier. I kept my gaze on the both boys who where in line getting lunch.

"Louis, mate" I quickly looked at Luke who was looking behind me, I turned around and found Zoe walking towards us.

"The fuck does she want?" I turned back to the rest of the guys and they all laughed.

"Hi Louis" Zoe's high pitched voice rang through my ears. I turned around to look at her and turned back around to the guys.

"Okay... I'm having a party tonight. You can tag along and so can your friends" Zoe bent down to my ear as she seductively bit my ear. I pulled away and Zayn laughed.

"Zoe, if you wanna fuck Louis just say so" Luke said loudly getting people's attention. I looked over at Harry and he was staring at our group, I got up from the table and turned to Zoe.

"Zoe I've rejected you several of times, stop waisting your time" I said calmly. She looked at her two friends that where beside her and she huffed.

"I'll see you around" was all she said before walking away. The guys all started laughing and I rolled my eyes.

"Louis? Are you gonna eat?" Luke asked, he seemed kinda worried but I pretended that he wasn't. He has asked me if I was okay which I don't understand because im perfectly fine. Even my mom and sisters are worried which i find pretty stupid.

"No, I ate a lot this morning still full" I sat back down onto the bench and Luke took a deep breath.

"Louis, I don't know what has been going on but you haven't ate. I haven't seen you eat a full meal" Everyone in the group watched me and I rolled my eyes.

"Luke you exaggerate, I do eat" I pushed my tray towards Ashton but Luke was to quick to put it back in front of me.

"Blow me! We aren't dumb, look at you! You look dead!" Luke raised his voice up a bit and making me stand up from my seat.

"Honestly Im fucking fine and I don't wanna argue, Im just gonna go to class enjoy your lunch" I grabbed my bag and walked out the cafeteria and out to the field. I saw a soccer ball next to the gate where a couple of guys were standing. I didn't pay much attention to who they were but I just gabbed the ball and took off my bag throwing it somewhere behind me I started kicking it into the goalie.

"Finally decided to come back to the field?" I look back and see Josh standing with Harry behind him.

"Ive always been on the field, I just stopped playing" My eyes slowly started to examine Harry but I quickly looked away.

"Coach Bass, would like if you came back. You were one of the best players" Josh patted my shoulder and I fake smiled.  Are Harry and Josh a thing again?

"Psh, he hates me. Especially after what happened the last game I played." I ran a hand through my finger and Josh raised a brow.

"I doubt, He keeps saying how his team isn't the same without Tomlinson" Josh laughed and I smiled.

"You look a bit sick, are you alright?" Josh asked. I looked over at Harry who was looking down at the floor and I nodded.

"I'm fine" I quickly said. A phone started ringing and Josh quickly patted his pockets taking out his phone from his front pockets.

"Shit let me take this real quick" He walked away from both Harry and I making Harry look lost. I started to admire him, he still looks pale his lips a darkish red and his eyes, his eyes are beautiful and I feel like I haven't seen those eyes in years.

"Harry" I whispered. Harry didn't turn around nor even glanced towards me. I looked over at Josh who was till on the phone and his back was faced both Harry and I.

"Harry, please" I noticed my voice cracked a bit at the end but Harry still payed no attention. I touched his arm and Harry backed away, his eyes were staring right at me and I felt so insecure.

"Don't touch me" Harrys voice sounded so demanding that I was sorta scared.

"I understand what I did was wrong but-" Josh appeared behind Harry and I quickly closed my mouth.

"Did interrupted something?" Josh look at me and I nodded.

"No, I was just leaving" I kicked the ball one last time into the goalie and grabbed my bag from the floor. I didn't bother looking back, because I know that if I do Josh and Harry are probably hugging, holding hands or worse kissing. The rest of the day was the same shit, going to class zoning out and almost falling asleep, but this time I felt sick. I raised my hand getting the teachers attention, she pointed at me with the pen she had in her hand.

"Yes Louis?" The teacher asked.

"May I use the restroom?" I quickly said and the teacher nodded not giving two damn fucks. I rushed out the classroom and into the boys restroom. I opened the closest stall and quickly got onto my knees. I threw up but I didn't throw up anything my stomach was empty. I sat on the floor with my legs crossed and my head against the wall. I stayed in the bathroom for the rest of the day till the last bell rang, I got up and walked to class to get my bag but I was stopped by Luke.

"Man! Get your shit we going to Zoes party tonight!" Luke yelled and Zayn yelled behind me.

"I really cant, I'm not feeling good. I wanna go home a get some sleep" I ran a hand through my hair and Zayn punched my arm.

"Here's you bag, now lets go" Zayn gave me my bag and I rolled my eyes.

"Guys! Really I'm not feeling good" I tried to tell them but they kept ignoring me.

------------------------------------------------------------------------

"Mate check this chick out!" Ashton yelled over the music, we all looked at the girl that was grinding her ass onto Ashton's groin and half the guys laughed. We started to walk more into the house and I started to feel a bit dizzy.

"Here!" Zayn passed me two shots and I quickly grabbed it from him I arched my back and drank the liquid.

"Hey Louis" I turned around and found a guy standing behind me.

"Uh, hi? Who are you?" I asked not knowing who the person was.

"I'm David" The guy smiled and I looked at him confused.

"You want another drink?" The David guy asked and I looked around, I noticed that no one from the group was with me so I glanced at David again and nodded. Fuck it, what can go wrong.

       Many shot later I was on the floor laughing with David at some stupid dumb shit he said. David wasn't bad looking he was fit had bracelets on his wrists his eyes were brown and his hair was a dirty blonde. David and I were sitting across from each other just looking at one another. He's good looking I will admit. People were just passing by us not even bothering us, Zayn and the rest were probably dancing on some chick or upstairs fucking some bitch. While im out here sitting on the floor with a guy named David that I have no clue who he is but he's a nice guy. Everything around me was spinning so fast I felt nauseous. I didn't know what I was thinking but I wanted the urge to kiss the boy in front of me. I grabbed David from his knee and he looked up at me, I bit my lip from the inside and I started to lean in.

"Louis" David whispered before closing the gap between us. My lips and his were now on one another and they felt good but not too good. They didn't feel like Harry's. I have to get him out of my head, I grabbed David from the back of his neck kissed him harder. I moved myself close to him and I found myself on his lap. I moved my hips into figure eights earning a small moan from David.

"Fuck" David bit my bottom lip and I moaned. David started to kiss my neck and I arched my head back to give him more access.

"Never expected you to be into guys" David whispered in my ear and I quickly pulled away. I looked at him and quickly got up trying to cover my semi hard on. David got up and stood in front of me, he was taller than me. People weren't even paying attention to us, but I felt like someone was watching. I looked over at Davids should and Harry was sitting on the chair with his eyes glued to us. First of all why is Harry at a party?

"Louis, I'm sorry of I said something bad" David grabbed my arm and I looked away from Harry. I leaned in and kissed David again, my hands ran through his hair giving it a small tug. I pulled away and started to walk off, my heart was aching I was kissing a guy while thinking of Harry, not only that but I kissed a guy in public. I walked through the crowed and out the front door. I was tripping over my own feet but I didn't care. I wanted to go home, I wasn't feeling good I wanted to puke.

"Louis?" I heard the raspy slow voice call my name, just with that I wanted to get on my knees and tell him how sorry I was, but I couldn't show affection. Louis Tomlinson doesn't show affection. I turned around a found Harry in a big loose sweater. I wanted to burst into tears thats how much I missed him. I wanted to hug him but I couldn't do that. I wanted to touch his curls but I also couldn't do that. I looked at his green emerald eyes... the eyes that always showed how hurt he is the eyes that show the happiness when he's around people who care for him, but his eyes weren't showing happiness they were showing hurt.

"Why?" Harry whispered at I gabbed onto the light pole that was next to me.

"Why what?" I was a bit confused.

"Why are you doing this to me?" Harry asked and I raised a brow.

"Do what?" I started to hiccup, I let go of the light pole and tumbled backwards but I was caught by Harry.

"Louis-" I cut him off by waving a hand.

"You know what Harry, im tired of this shit" I started to laugh and Harry looked at me with sad written all over his eyes.

"You didn't let me explain myself to you, and now two months later you wanna talk to me while I'm drunk?" I moved myself from him only to be colliding onto the ground.

"You're right because my reason wasn't a right reason, I didn't want to talk to you because I was realizing how big of a dick you were! A dick that I fell for! I don't wanna talk about the same shit I'm done expressing my feelings towards you, now its your turn to tell me how you really felt about me! How you agreed on that bet that I was involved in. Trust me this will be the last time you'll ever talk or see me I just wanna know everything before I leave" Harry's pale hands ran through his curls while my brow was raised.

"What do you mean by the last time I'll talk or see you, where are you going?" I was shocked.

"That's something you shouldn't be worried about, you have a week to tell me everything of course if you want to you can tell me now" Harry looked at the people that we're passing by and I just looked at him.

"What's the point of me telling you everything? It's not gonna make you stay" I whispered the last part and Harry looked down at me.

"I'd prefer to know than not to know that way I'll know why I was stupid enough not to know" Harry looked a bit confused about what he just said but he didn't bother on trying to fix the sentence.

"Okay you wanna know? I'll tell you everything" I laid myself on the wall and Harry sat next to me but far away.

"I fell in love with you, but I'm not gonna say that for pity. It all started when we were playing spin the bottle but with truth or dares, Jake dared me to sleep with a virgin but I wasn't expecting him to be a boy and especially not you. I thought it was gonna be easy since you were a nerd a gay nerd, I started talking to you that way you and I could've got close, and we did. I forgot about the bet I was doing that I started actually liking you, more than just a friend. I wanted to be with you all the time, I wanted to know everything about you. The first kiss we shared I was beyond scared, I didn't want to fall for you even more and I did! I then told Jake I wanted out but then Zayn found out and he bet more money into it. Thats when we had sex in the car, I didn't throw the condom away, I showed it to Zayn and Jake I felt guilty when I did. The week after that Jake noticed that I was still talking to you and he told me he was gonna tell the whole school what I did. I was scared, not that the school was gonna find out but that you were gonna find out. I protected you from Damien because I hated when he laid a hand on you. Thats why I still shared kisses with you I was head of heals for you, I wanted to make you mine but I couldn't because I had a reputation. When I told Ed about you he couldn't believe me thats when I took him to school with me and he saved you from Zayn. Ed didn't know about the bet and when he found out he stopped talking to me. I didn't think that all this was gonna hurt you, when I found out you were in the hospital I rushed my ass there to be by your side Harry. I didn't mean to hurt you. That bet meant nothing to me, but the secret hugs, cuddles, kisses and your first time all meant something to me. I really like you Harry and you might not believe me and I understand why but please you cant be leaving" My lip started to tremble but I quickly covered my face with my hands.

"Why didn't you tell me, you think that I would've preferred to hear it from someone else?" Harry's voice cracked and I nodded. I wiped my tears and looked up at Harry.

"I didn't want to end what we had, for the first time in a while I actually felt happy when I was with you and I didn't expect Jake to tell you" Harry looked up at the dark sky that was full with stars. His tear slowly ran down his cheek and my chest started aching.

Harry's P.O.V

"Fuck! I'm sorry Harry I'm an idiot please don't cry" Louis was now bursting into tears and I closed my eyes. Louis done so many things to me, bad and good. He made me happy. I opened my eyes and I pulled Louis into a tight hug. I was the one who was supposed to end up crying but instead it was Louis. I put Louis head on my chest while my chin was resting on his head.

"I dont want you hating me" Louis whispered through his hiccups and I closed my eyes tightly.

"The bad thing is that I don't hate you" I whispered back to him. I hugged Louis tighter and we both stayed silent, the only sound that was coming from us was our running noses and the small hiccups from Louis. I hate him but the inside of me is yelling I love him.

Finallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Many of you hate me maybe because it didn't go the way you guys didn't want it to go but I just wanted to write and update because I haven't been so active lately. So sorry if you didn't like it! My 16 birthday next month June 25 yayayyaya