Maybe not all intimacy brings pleasure

Like the resentment that comes with betrayal

Not every love is a fairy tale

The deceit that grows with survival or the crack rooted in our childhood

And how we unlearn to change our perception

Or carry the burden that might alter all we can be

I battle with my imperfection but still I see

So much we could have accomplished

But still I bleed

From everything we never got to see

Now I know I'm free even amidst the pain

And all the hurt we built over the years

Free from the standards and lack of empathy

The inconsistency or effort to prove my worth so I embark on this voyage to freedom

Searching for a miracle to hold on

Am I really ascending

Or the uplifting is all in my mind

The blueprint or sudden surprise

The change in events or pain in my eyes

The meltdown or silent tears I pen down..