What I've done

The worst thing
Isn't the pain!
Though it hurts the most.

The worst thing
Isn't the sadness!
Though its the heaviest feeling.

The worst thing
Isn't the goodbye!
Though it's unforgettable.

The worst part
Isn't even the emptiness!
Though it resembles death.

No,
The worst thing is the guilt,
The feeling that I ruined myself;

The feeling
That kills me every moment,
(I don't feel alive!)

The thought
That doesn't let me breathe,
(I can hardly feel the air!)

The remorse
That makes me hate myself,
(I can't tell you how much!)

The guilt
That doesn't let me walk,
(I fall down the stairs!)

The fault
That doesn't let me stand,
(I can't reach for a support!)

The shame
That hacked my senses,
(I can't see or feel!)

The worst thing
Is the knowledge of fake farewell,
When the truth is we can't be apart!

The worst thing
Is when I remember the times
You scolded me for saying sorry,

The worst thing
Is the culpability of losing
The only thing I felt blessed with,

The realization of my blunder
The inability to ever forgive myself
For what I've done!

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30-06-2016