Harry's POV

It's crazy to think how much power fate actually has over us. How if we would change even one little action our whole future could change. I think about it all the time.

People always say that our past doesn't define us. I do agree with that statement but our past is what has made us...well us. It will always be a part of us.

For some people it's a good thing but for others not so much. I fall into the category of the latter.

A dead dad, drug addict mum and abusive step-dad will always be a part of me and there's nothing I can change about it no matter how much I'd like to do that.

Sometimes I wish people could just erase their pasts. But at the same time I don't.

Our past is what helps us learn from our mistakes and move on with our lives. It's what forms our personality, abilities and basically our entire existence.

On days I feel like forgetting about my past I think of the fact that if all those bad things wouldn't have happened to me I wouldn't be where I am today. I wouldn't be surrounded by my amazing brother, caring friends and a loving boyfriend. To think about it, I probably never would've met them.

I once talked to Louis about it. He said that if we hadn't met like this he would've found me anyways.

I want to believe that with all my heart but unfortunately I know that it's not possible.

That's what originally got me thinking about fate. If Niall hadn't come knocking on our door that day we probably wouldn't be friends. If I hadn't bumped into Louis that day we probably wouldn't be together.

It's scary how little things like that can decide our whole entire future.

Talking about the future and the past, I'd like to yell you about a few of my favorite memories from this year.

For example, Louis' prom. It was genuinely one of the best nights in my life. He asked me one night when we were just laying in my bed.

Now I know it may not sound romantic to you, but to me it was. Because after all my bed was where our relationship actually began developing.

*flashback*

Louis and I were watching a movie in my bed when I let out a yawn.

"Are you tired my love?" He asked me.

"A little bit, yeah. It's been a long day."

"Trust me, I know. The exams were horrible." He groaned. "I'm so fucking glad they're over."

"I can't believe you and Zayn aren't gonna be with us every day next year. I'm gonna miss you so much."

"I know baby, I'll miss you too. But we'll make it work, yeah?"

"Of course we will." I said with a grin. And I truly believed that we could get through anything as long as we were in it together.

"But the year isn't over yet so let's just enjoy it for as long as we can." He said which made me a bit confused.

"But there's only a few days left of school."

"I wasn't talking about that, angel. I actually wanted to ask you something."

"You can ask me anything, Blue." I told him.

"Don't worry baby, it's not anything serious." He said with a smile. It definitely eased my worries.

"Would you please go to prom with me?" He asked with hopeful eyes. For a moment I was quite shocked because I definitely hadn't expected a question like that.

"Of course, Lou!"

I heard him let out a relieved sigh. "Oh thank God. For a moment I was really worried."

"Why would you be worried? You're my boyfriend and I love you so of course I'd go with you."

"I know. I love you too." He said and flashed me one of his infamous sunshine smiles before kissing me.

Soon Louis pushed the laptop placed on his lap aside and I took its place. He was rubbing my back with one hand and the other was tangled in my hair.

He yanked the one in my hair, not too roughly of course, and I couldn't help but let out a moan.

"My kinky little baby. I love you so much."

"I love you too." I panted and then connected our lips again.

We continued making out until our lips hurt. In my opinion it was a great night.

*flashback over*

So yeah, that was the story of how he asked me. But now to the actual day of the prom.

I was so nervous the whole day as I had never been to anything like it before. What reassured me was the fact that all my friends would be there as well because Zayn asked Niall and Ed asked Liam.

So really all it was gonna be was just us hanging out with fancy clothes.

Regardless I still felt nervous. I was afraid I'd do anything to embarras Louis or make him regret inviting me. Or worse, make him break up with me.

Realistically I knew it wouldn't happen but I can't help but overthink every little thing. That's what anxiety does to you.

(AN: Ayyyy where's my anxiety gang at?)

Before the day arrived we had gone shopping and Louis and I bought matching suits. I thought we looked really good.

And then the day arrived. I don't even know how but I spent most of the day getting ready. And when there was finally knocking on the door I was so ready.

*flashback*

Li, Ni and I were all getting ready together in my small room when we heard a knock on the door.

"Looks like your prince charming has arrived." Niall commented with a laugh. I gave him a nervous smile and then headed towards the door.

I walked down the stairs and when I finally saw Louis I froze. He looked absolutely amazing.

He looked up and in that moment green met blue.

"You look gorgeous little one." He complimented me.

"Look who's speaking? You look like you hopped out of a bloody movie." I told him and he laughed.

"Are you two done now?" Zayn asked in an annoyed tone. Way to ruin a moment.

"Yes, we are." Louis said.

"Good. Now is the time we need to have a talk. No funny business tonight, yeah?"

"Of course not, you know me. And the same goes to you and Niall."

"Of course. Have fun!" Zayn told us. I hugged him and then Louis and I left.

He opened the car door for me like a true gentleman and helped me inside. And people say chivalry is dead.

"Are you excited?" Louis asked once he got inside the car and all buckled up.

"Of course I am. But I'm also a bit nervous and it isn't even my prom."

"There's nothing to be nervous about, angel, I'll be with you the entire time."

"Promise?" I asked, holding out my pinky.

"Promise." He smiled and connected our fingers.

We made it in around 10 minutes. The school parking lot was packed with cars and there were dressed up teenagers everywhere.

I looked at all the pretty dresses the girls were wearing. Maybe I could wear a dress one day as well? I'd love that very much.

"Do you want to wait outside for the others to arrive or do you want to head inside already?" Louis asked me once we got out of his car.

"Oh you can decide."

"Okay then. I say we go in so we'd get good seats."

"By the food table?" I asked him playfully.

"You know me so well." He grinned. We both laughed at our own silliness. That's one of the reasons I love being with him, we can both always be ourselves.

He took my hand in his and led me inside. There was already a lot of teenagers in the decorated gym.

Some were even already dancing while most were just conversing with their friends.

Louis and I sat down at a nearby table and began talking ourselves. Once the others arrived around 15 minutes later they joined us.

The party actually came to life around half an hour later when the boring old people music got switched to more modern one. Everyone got up to dance with their partners.

"Can I have this dance?" Louis asked with a playful bow.

"Yes, you may you kind sir." I played along. He reached for my hand and took me to the dance floor.

Just as we made it there the music got changed to a much slower one. Great!

He placed both of his hands on my waist and I wrapped mine around his neck. Since neither of us could actually dance we just swayed along to the music. I rested my head on his chest to be more comfy.

I then saw a person I really didn't want to see. Danielle. She thankfully had left us alone after the day I got taken to the hospital. I still hadn't told anyone what really happened on that day.

I was even more surprised to see who she was with. Nick Grimshaw. They make a great couple.

I decided to just ignore them and focus on the closeness of my boyfriend. He smelled divine that day so I couldn't stop myself from inhaling the sweet smell deeply.

"What are you doing?" He asked me.

"Nothing." I answered with a blush and thanked my lucky stars that no one could see my face.

We spent the rest of the night similar to that, just enjoying each other's company. Occasionally we also joined our friends and spent some time with them.

Around midnight the security guard hired by the school had to escort a drunk Nick out of the building which caused a bit of a scene. I saw Danielle trail behind them with embarrassment clear on her face.

After that the night continued on as normal and everyone kept having fun.

We headed home a few hours later and just cuddled the whole night.

*flashback over*

Those were the happy memories. But there was also one which was sad but was still an important one. The day they had to leave for college.

Both Zayn and Louis got into the school half and hour away which wasn't really that bad. They decided that they'll share a dorm room on campus but visit home as much as they can.

Niall and I also decided to move into one house so we could take care of each other and so we wouldn't be lonely.

Zayn decided to study art so he could become a tattoo artist which I thought was really cool. Louis actually decided to study to become a drama teacher like he always wanted.

I loved the fact that he was working to achieve his dream but I hated the fact that we had to be apart for the time being.

The day they left was probably one of the saddest days ever.

*flashback*

"Do you have to leave?" I asked again for at least the third time, my face nuzzled into Louis' neck.

"Yes we do, darling. But I'm gonna miss you so damn much."

"I'm gonna miss you too." I said with teary eyes. "We'll talk every day, right?"

"Of course baby. And we'll come home at least every weekend if not more. We're gonna be okay."

"I know. I love you."

"I love you too."

I unfortunately had to let go of him so I could say goodbye to my brother as well. I stood in front of him with tears now falling down my cheeks.

He opened his arms wide for me and I immediately ran into them.

"It's okay baby, everything is going to be okay. We'll see each other all the time. Trust me, soon you're gonna be happy to get some freedom."

"I can't believe happy of you're not here." I mumbled into his chest.

"Yes you can honey. You'll see soon. And besides, you'll still have both Niall and Liam."

"I know but it's not the same. We've never been apart before." I told him which was indeed true. The longest we'd been apart before was only a few days.

"I know but it'll be fine, trust me. You can handle anything, Hazza, you're the strongest person I know."

"I love you Zaynie and I'll miss you."

"I love you too Hazza. And trust me, I'll miss you more."

And then they were gone.

*flashback over*

The first few weeks were very difficult, I barely got any sleep and ate something.

But slowly I got used to it and realized it wasn't that bad. Of course I still had my little insecurities.

I was afraid that Louis would find someone his age, someone better. He assured me that I'm perfect for him and no one could ever replace me. It made me feel better.

I felt really sorry for Louis. He was so used to always being able to sleep because we were always together but now he couldn't anymore.

He said the first week or so was hard for him but then he got used to it again.

So really, nothing was as scary as it first seemed. And I knew for sure that we could get through absolutely anything, we were meant to be.

AN: And this is it! This was my first time ever writing an epilogue. Was it okay?