It's not depression.

It's a multitude of other feelings, but they aren't as major as depression.

You are discontent with the people around you in school. They would never understand who you are and what you believe. That makes you disappointed and a little lonely.

However, that's not entirely true. You've met Christian friends at school. You were able to talk about your views and beliefs with them. They agreed with you and kept talking to you. You are not alone.

You are apathetic and feel that any passion you have for anything has been drained from you. There isn't anything that truly makes you happy, at least for a large amount of time.

That's not entirely true either. You enjoy your hobbies, the friends you've made from those hobbies. However, you have been wasting your time with mindless and time-waster games. Delete them, and focus on the hobbies you love.

Your major feeling here is your desire for self-improvement. You constantly seek a method to gain more knowledge. You think you'll be happy if you're perfect and knowledgeable. That's where you are truly incorrect.

You cannot create unrealistic expectations for yourself and expect to reach them immediately. You'll simply stress yourself out and become more depressed. Seeking perfection is futile.

Instead, focus on being optimistic and loving. Don't let knowledge prevent you from feeling these beautiful emotions. Knowledge is a curse, when used incorrectly. Don't be like Solomon.

You're not depressed, just lost. You'll find your way soon.

-Arkada