Dedicated this chapter to AngelMinnu Thanks for supporting the story and your comments.

Warning :-I dont know if everybody can connect with this chapter or not...or you may find it boring.. but even if you can't connect or find it boring .Enjoy the chapter !

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(I love the lyrics of this song and think it suits this chapter)

If I told you this was only gonna hurt
If I warned you that the fire's gonna burn
Would you walk in?
Would you let me do it first?
Do it all in the name of love
Would you let me lead you even when you're blind?
In the darkness, in the middle of the night
In the silence, when there's no one by your side
Would you call in the name of love

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

If I told you we could bathe in all the lights
Would you rise up, come and meet me in the sky?
Would you trust me when you're jumping from the heights?
Would you fall in the name of love?
When there's madness, when there's poison in your head
When the sadness leaves you broken in your bed
I will hold you in the depths of your despair
And it's all in the name of love

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

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Rayna's POV

Before we could say anything Surya walked towards his room and we both stared at him till he went in his room and after he left we both looked at each other and both were sprechless.

We went and sat on the sofa.

"Has our kids really grew up? I mean few days ago they were crying to go to park and today they are talking like adults."Aaryan said making me laugh.

"They are our little kids only....but in this situation they are seeming like adults but after this situation they will again be our little kids who will talk about drawings,homework and park."I said.

It felt so natural talking with him and when I came here it felt natural as if nothing happened.

As if I belong here with kids and Aaryan.

"Is Piya sleeping?"he asked and I nodded in a yes.

Surya changed in his casual clothes and came out of the room and went to Piya's room and after few seconds he was going back to his own room.

"Do you want to have milk?"Aaryan asked.

"I will have it when Piya wakes up.Now I am going to do my homework."he said and went in his room.

"He didn't even look at me."I said making Aaryan laugh.

"What should we do?"I asked.

"Frankly , I dont know.As I was only one in their life they never saw fighting or anything in the house and it hurted them to see us fight."he said.

"We didn't argue...we literally fought...and according to me there's a difference between arguments and fights...Fights become ugly and messy and arguments are day to day things and as you said we fought."I said what I felt and he nodded in a yes.

"Now?"I asked.

"How can I know?I am also new to this side of parenting."he said making me laugh , again.

"As you said parenting..I remembered something."I said.

"What?"

"I heard many people say..that two people should stay together because of the kids even if they are fighting everyday."I said to him what I have heard as I wanted to know his opinion about it.

"Now that's stupid."he said making me laugh.

I know that's stupid.

I also thought the same thing.

"If two persons get married they are making a decesion to stay with each other for the rest of the lives."he said.

"And if both of them are planning to bring a child in this world...they should make a mutual decesion of not fighting...i mean as you said normal argument is okay but not the ugly fights where it comes to a point that they are tied because of the children and not in love with each other."he continued.

He looked so nice when he passionately talks about these things and that's why I love to know his opinion.

I love hearing his opinions and thoughts.

"I mean people never stay the same..with time and years people change for good and sometimes for bad also...even if after twenty years suddenly someone changes for bad..like drinking regularly or suddenly disrespecting you for whatever reason or treating you bad.. you can leave that person.."he said.

He looks so hot when he explain things like this.

Focus Rayna.

Focus.

"But even if that person is changing for good...like after some years of marriage..that person is being too ambitious that you work whole day..that's a good change..being ambitious is good but the basic thing that you both are married and have a child are the two most fixed decesion and even if you change for good keep that two fixed decesion in mind."he continued further.

Wow!

Wow!

"Wow!where is the Aaryan who created scene infront of public?"I asked.

"He is still there."he said and we both laughed.

"I love when you talk.I love you thoughts and opinion."I said.

"Because we both think alike."he said and a laugh escaped my lips.

"After so many days I have seen your laugh."he said.

"You know what...i didn't miss you...i miss those cheesy dialogue of yours."I said.

I love his serious side and I love when he says such filmy dialogues.

"I missed everything.You know when we got apart...I cleaned the whole room at 3 a.m as I was not able to sleep."

"Hmm...that's why the house is so clean."I joked not wanting to remember the day I lost my sanity when we were apart.

I will never tell him the day I had almost gone crazy without him.

Not because it will make me look weak but because I dont want to remember that night where my thoughts were all crazy and messed up.

And what will I tell him and will he understand?

Him cleaning the whole room is understandable but my thoughts were all crazy....the voices in my head asking me to give up as I am not good person...anyways,i dont want to remember that day.

"Where are you lost?"his voice broke me out of my train of thoughts.

"Nothing."

"Tell me."he said.

"What if I tell you I am not normal...I mean I am mad or crazy."I asked and he started laughing.

I knew it.

I knew he will think I am crazy.

He will not understand.

"I know that.I know you are not normal and that's why you are with me."he said.

"Give me hi-fi."he said as he gave me his palm and I gave him hi-fi.

"You are not understanding."I said.

"I mean..my thoughts...sometimes its too hard for me to live...my negative thoughts always tell me I am not good enough...i dont have any reason to live...i should not live."I said and when I looked at him..it was the most normal expression I have ever seen...it was not like we were talking about a serious topic but it was like we were talking about weather.

"It's okay.You can wear nice clothes and feel yourself confident from exterior but when you are having negative thoughts..the worst negative thoughts...it's okay...it will come but dont let it define you.....live your life...do your work...dont try to fight with it or make it go..The more you will make it go the more it will come...it's like okay I thought bad about myself...I thought negative about myself...It's okay...and live your life."he said and I hugged him and started crying.

"I know I had issues...like you said I was not confident on the outer side....but few days back I realized that...maybe..maybe I had other problem...the day I started thinking bad about myself...to the extent that I want to take my life because I thought I am not good enough...and I should die..i realized I have some other problems too...where there are many negative voices forcing me to not live."

"This happened the day we were apart?"he asked.

"Yes."

"Sh!t .It's my fault."

"No.It was there and thank god I realized it early."I said.

"It's okay it's not some deep problem...we will live our life and if some thoughts come constantly..we will still be together...and live our life...As you said we will take one day at a time...let's see where it goes.Okay?"he asked.

"Okay...I thought I am mad and have some major problem."I confessed.

"No it's normal and even if it's major...we will live our life together...let the thoughts come...it will not affect our day to day life or our happiness."he said.

"Now that I know you are mad...i am relieved."

"Why?"I asked,confused.

"Because I thought there's some problem with me...I mean..from the day we got apart..you know I started zoning out and making stories in my head....good stories...bad stories...i mean I thought I needed checkup because it never happened to me until we got apart."he said making me surprised.

What?

He had also gone through the same thing when we were apart.

"What stories?"I asked.

"Crazy stories..I was zoning out and making stories...They are awesome stories..Someday I will tell you but now I am relieved."he said.

"Now we are both mad and not normal.Yayy!!"he continued making me laugh.

"Now let's go and make some coffee."he said and we both went in the kitchen

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Did you realize one thing.

Both said when we are apart..not when you left me or or something like that..

Anyways...I hope you liked the chapter.

This chapter was hard to write.

Surya didn't even look at them :(

What do you think of the parenting conversation?

Nobody talks about mental health problem..in the hope of tagged as crazy or mad...but I hope people soon realize talking about it is so important and necessary.

Instead of ignoring it we have to talk about it freely atleast with one person with whom we feel comfortable..friends or family.

Random question :-the lyrics of the song you like..share two to four lines you like of that song.

Please COMMENT and VOTE if you like.

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