I hug my pillow tighter, it feels so warm. Then I remembered who I was hugging the last time I was hugging my pillow tight

Yes, it was again my ehem- velvet pillow.

My head was on Jungkook's chest while he played with my hair, I looked up to his eyes only to find him smiling down at me with a lazy smile. He is with me as if he was always here, as if he could never be anywhere else, as if I couldn't be anywhere else, as if he belongs with me.

"I can never solve the puzzle as to why you would ever love me" I start but see his mood shift

"We're not having this talk" he says, eyeing me sternly

"I know I'm worthy of love and everything, I get it. But you could have found so much better, why would you settle for me?" I say

"Noona, I'm not settling for you. I'm in love with you, I can't imagine my existence without my feelings for you" he says, pulling me onto his chest

He cups my cheeks and says

"I'm not me if you're not mine, without you I'm nothing, Noona. I came this far so you would like me, how could I ever

"There are so many better people in this world, you may have crossed paths with much more deserving people in college, school. You didn't pay attention to them because of me" he cuts me off

"Why do you forget it again and again, that there is no one else in my world except you and me. You're my paradise. You may not want to call me yours but I can never be anyone else's ever" he says, craning his head up to put his lips on mine

"You're never asking me again if I love you or not, how much I love you, why I love you."

Teary eyes stare at mine

"Instead I'll hand you a knife if you want, you can rip my chest open and take my heart out. Crush in under your pointy heels if that makes you feel happy" he says

"You love me that much?" My own eyes well up when I ask, my voice breaks up to it's betrayal

He wiped my fallen tears with his thumb.

"I'm sure you were Persephone in past life, I was hades" I say "You love in such a pure form, I never knew love could come in such a form"

At that moment, I realized that I've lost myself completely when I started talking like a poet. They say poetry is for lovers and losers, I'm sure being a CEO is proof that I'm not a loser.

"Damn, as cute as you look when you cry, I feel hurt seeing you cry after trying to console me, " I say "you look like a baby rabbit by the way" I whisper the last part

He stares at me, wide beautiful galaxy filled eyes, faces tinted with red from tears and confused by expression. It's definitely my favorite weird combo of emojis after today

I suddenly get the knowledge that I'm stark naked over Jungkook equally clothed body under the blanket when I see my dress hanging at the headrest

I peck his nose and in bullet speed I cover his eyes with my fingers and cover his head with the blanket

"Don't peak" I say

"There is clothes your size, I've kept it in the bathroom" he yells, not coming out of the blankets, I could hear his giggles through the blanket

Indeed I find a cream silk dress, with matching shorts. The dress is not your sexy skimpy lingerie's excuse to be a dress, it was infact a very cute ruffled dress that was so comfortable until I the thought sank in that he had a pair of women's clothes lying around his house. Of course he had his share of female conquest, it's nothing you to be shocked about

I come out while he's still under the blanket

"I have changed" I say

"So I'm aloud to look at you ?" He asks still now peeking out

I crawl to him on the bed and take off the blanket

"So, is this dress from the same girl who taught my Ggukie how to kiss?" I ask,

"Yes, but not exactly from the girl. It's for the girl" he says confusing me

"I bought this for the girl who I planned to marry, the same girl who I gave my first kiss to and stolen the first kiss of, the only girl I've kissed in my lifetime " he says pinching my cheeks hard

"You never kissed anyone aside from me?" I ask

"Not even once"

"Then how did you get this good?" I ask

"You can blame the books you didn't let me read for this one"

We share another kiss before he gets out of the bed, finally dressing himself up after a shower.

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After I showered, I find him plating good on the table

"My multi talented baby boyfriend, what am I gonna do without?" I coo, reaching out to pull him my his neck and I peck his boopy nose. This might just become my new favorite thing

He pecks my lips

"Let's eat, and tell me if you like it?"

And as everything about him is, his cooking skills too were perfect

"How did you learn how to cook?" I ask

"Military" he laughs

"Noona, now we're even" he giggles

"On what?" I ask

"On you making me baby food and me making you real food" he laughs

" So that's what we're are on?"

Does life ever feel too perfect? I never knew I needed him in my life before I had him, and now I'm just afraid I might never be able to let him go. I would never be okay without him

"Don't think too much," he reminds me

I just watched Wonderland and boy did I cry!

Could you believe this man on the screen is 45 years old at this moment cus I may just peck his nose and call him POOKIE if I get a chance