"Oh, that wretched turtle is paying for her sin, the punishment she deserved for taking the my of my dear pet. She's banished, she doesn't exist in this world anymore" the voice now unravels itself, it was a large green snake

"But that's the mistake of her past life, why must she pay for them when she didn't do them in this life? Please let her go" Jungkook requests

"Oh no, she can't be freed, she deserves the punishment for tainting a pure heart"

"Where is she?" He asks

"She's in the underworld, serving with all the other spirits that had done deeds similar to her's" it says

"I'll go and find her-"

"If you enter the underworld, the realm of the dead without a shield you may never come out. You may have to burn with them till eternity"

"I'd rather burn till eternity than let her go again"

"But that's not the end, the doors may never close again and the powerful spirits demons may destroy the living world's peace. The peace of children and happy people in their peaceful lives may be threatened- "

"You think I care about who is happy with their child they made with love and kissing their love of life on the kitchen counter when the love of my life is dying?" He laughs bitterly

" I'd burn every man and their love if I see as much as a single scar on my Noona. I'll be the worst demon out there if you test me anymore" continues with flames bedazzling his purple eyes

The snake of the mountain felt pity, it's eyes softend at the sight of it's own pet with the same purple eyes for a moment. Even if it means letting go of the very thing that ended the rabbit, if that's what the rabbit wants then the mountain God too was helpless

"If you're really that adamant , I may lend you a shield but it's a living being so you'll have to watch out " the mountain spirit says

"Do anything but let me go to her, even if it means I can't ever get out, I'll gladly burn in hell because the world isn't any different than hell without her" he breaks down in tears

"Do you see the lake flowing underneath my mountain?"

Jungkook nods

"3 days from today is the full moon night, when the moon clearly reflects in the lake water, you will jump " it causes for a beat "You will not try to swim but let yourself sink, if you're lucky, you make enter the gates of underworld and if you're not..."

The spirit leaves the rest unsaid,

"Are you ready," it asks

" I'm ready to do whatever it takes to bring her back" he says

"After you've entered, you'll find my shield with night on it" the spirit's says "May the odds be in your favor"

And the spirit slowly goes back inside the tree

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The next 3 days are the hardest he had ever been through, coldest to send shivers way inside his bones and to leave his hard painfully hollow.

The cold nights of thinking Noona will never love him like she loves Joon hyung or when he first saw her kissing Joon hyung aren't the same, because it was the kind of sorrow he only felt for himself. That he had to keep to himself when he had no one else

But this time it's different, he knew he had her, his lovely Noona with him and yet she had to vanish like that. Abandoning him after showing him how beautiful it could be to be loved by her, to be more loved by her than anyone he has been loved by.

And so with only his solemn loneliness and the pain in his chest to accompany him, he shuts down to the world and waits for the day to drown himself.

Whether be it to find her or to end himself, it would be no different because without her, like would be no different than death where he ceased to exist

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Lips chapped, face pale and eyes drawd in when he reached the lake the night. Even then, the moonlight shone on him with his ever pure eyes dazzling in liquid agony.

He resembled very closely to night, painfully beautiful. He was a dead man, with his taken away

He looked at the tree once before slowly walking into the waters, his hands were tied with chains so he, even by instincts won't try to swim. It was a precaution he took himself

Slowly with time he let the water engulf him, the cold taking over his body but nowhere as deep as the chills that settle deep within his soul of knowing he existed in a world where is Noona no longer exists

One by one each senses numbing as he drifted deeper, the white noise too was deafening of the storm inside his heart

And when his eyes stung and the waters filled his nostrils, ears and mouth he knew he was finally laying life down like he always promised.

Something eased like the weight over his chest, that he kept his promise and that it wasn't just empty words. He felt the fulfilment sinking with his consciousness, the fulfilment that resembled of having his love in his arms

It was as though the pain of drowning took away the misery of losing. Because for him, the labour of living was way harsher than drowning in his own laments

But what is the value of shallow breaths if not my heartbeat to accompany me?

Just 2 chapters left

I felt this constant pain in my throat as I wrote, it was the part of the main story but it felt way too painful for me to write. The last Jungkook fic I wrote had to change endings for how pure he was that I couldn't bring myself to kill him,