"Noona, there is no guy anywhere" Jungkook says as chills drip down my spine

I train my hesitant eyes on the road and I'm neither surprised nor shocked but I feel this coldness of my layers against me when I see the phantom of the man had disappeared

It was just like that snake, I see but Jungkook doesn't and it's not here.

"Noona, are you alright?" He asks me looking genuinely concerned

"Yeah, need to get my eyes fixed. Thirties are banging fists at my door" I try to laugh dismissing any negative thoughts

He stares at me not even amused

"You're letting me drive or were getting out of the car" he says,

I don't argue. Given I just risked our lives, I'm in no position to

"Fine" floating my hands as surrender, I let him swap seats

Only getting so close that his freckles become visitors in my mind, they stayed there. When did grow so much that even he has signs of aging?

That one mole under his lips, he always had that. The diamond shaped one, that day when he asked me if he was a -

I heave a sigh, I can't be thinking this way after that day, it has been too late

"You work too much, so much that your tiredness is affecting your brain functions" he says

"Is that your way of saying I am going crazy from working too much?" I laugh

His serious face kills my laughter, he isn't laughing anytime soon

"I don't work more hours than you" I say staring at the window

"You work even after you go home, we're not having anymore of that" he seems to be commanding me

"No promises, Jungkook" I say

"From now on, you're only working 8 hours a day and no more" his voice goes low but something felt so powerful in that voice, I couldn't argue with him

"Yes sir" I smiled

He eased a bit at he looked away from me

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"How far are we?"

"Still a good 40 kilometers," he says

He's driving a lot slower than I was, he's a lot more reliable than I am because I almost caused an accident and the past hours he's driven, he hasn't gotten a single bumb even

What feels like eternity keeps passing,

I want to ask something I shouldn't be, not after what we've done. What I've done when I was drunk

Was I drunk that bad?

Curiosity may have killed the cat but I can't be eased that easy

"You're doing it on purpose, right?" I ask, looking at the window instead of him

"Doing what, Noona ?" He asks as if he's actually oblivious

"You joined here intentionally to get revenge on me, right?" I ask

"Revenge on what ?" This time his playful tone comes out

"How I- " how I rejected you in Boston?

I don't finish, I can't finish . It was cruel of me, if I were him I'd hate me. But I still do-

I turn to face his, to read his expressions but the smirk on his face makes me suck a harsh breath

"How you what Noona?" He persists with a airy voice

"Am I still a child in your eyes?" He asks, eyes filled with innocence and hope

But I can't lie, I can't give him hope when all I may do is break his heart if I am given

"Can you see me as a man, as lover ?"

"I can't, Jungkook"

"But, I trained and I am as tall as Namjoon hyung now. You've dated him, things didn't work out because he didn't trust you but I promise I will"

"Nothing between us will ever workout, can't you understand it? You'll always be the toddler that looked at me with shiny eyes," I sigh "Pretty but not a man, a child," I ignore the urge to pit a 'my love' in the edge of the sentence

His eyes start welling up, becoming so shiny that it takes all my energy to stop my hands from going up to wipe them

"You have to get over me, you'll never be a man to me Jungkook. Never"

"Fine, but can I ask something from you, something I need to get over you?" He asks, his voice breaks in the process

I nod

"Can you kiss me?"

"Jungkook you're just- ?" My eyes go as wide as they could

"18? You lost your first kiss before that. Kiss me, if you believe I will never be a man to you, kissing a child would do no harm, right Noona?" He says as if trying to prove a point for the last time when he's already to give up

How can I refuse? He's already a crying mess,

I can do this much right? Best for him, he'll get over after he's understood that admiration and love aren't the same. That he sees me just as an idol and not a woman

"Fine, " I say

He starts to lower so our lips could meet, that's actually a bit embarrassing after calling him a child I'm the one who has to tip toe but he's leaning down.

The smells of aftershave is still there lingering on his skin, he's put on efforts to meet me. That increases my guilt...

He softly places his lips on mine, I want to ignore the feeling of goosebumps raising all over my neck when his fingers reside there. Slowly moves against my lips, so softly as though he's afraid he that his lips may caus eme harm.

Yes he's there, steady and persistent. I gasp feeling something warm and sleek on my lips. I gasp in surprise and he uses that as a cue to enter my mouth with his tongue fighting against my limp one.

I reciprocate, I haven't kissed in a while but he seems more skilled than I thought

He softly grazes my lips again

A cold tear falls on my cheek from his eyes.

He jerks away as if he thinks what he's doing is wrong

"Thanks Noona, I won't burden you with my feelings again" he says

At that moment when I can't take anymore I used the sleeve of my sweater to wipe his tears.

At that moment I realized I didn't push him away because I considered him a child. I did, but also because he was pure.

So pure, so innocent like a pristine cream crayon. Smoothe and beautiful, I didn't want to use him, to destroy him like I've been after falling in love young and nearly ruining everything I had.

He's too good for all this.

The rest of his trip to the airport he was silent, I wanted to join him on his crying session but I knew that would make it worse.

It broke my heart, I didn't want to hurt him and yet he's broken because of me.

But this is the best for us, better than him having feelings for someone who felt nothing

°°

I told him to get over with him two years ago and now I'm falling for him instead?

"You're intentionally doing this to get back at me right?"

"Doing what?" He asks with eyes so innocent even the devil would fall for it.

But your actions say otherwise

He is definitely doing it to get revenge, first he'll turn me head over heals for him and then throw me away and say 'in your face'!

A deaf army asked for their voice description and someone very lovingly described them. I loved Jungkook's description so much!