The episode "Primitive" wasn't meant to be read so early, I accidentally posted it before this so please forget it 😭

Spoiler alert, I didn't forget anything when I woke up. I woke up in my bed, tucked in my sheets in my work fit. A nasty hungover headache galloping my head, but most importantly I remember everything. Everything, clear and vivid, in 4k

With a fair chance of all turning into a dream- I am badly hoping for it that I didn't drunkenly take advantage of Jungkook

I take a cold shower to wake up, I look horrible with my face like a swollen like a drowned rat's ass and dark circles stretching upto my feet. No amount of concealer would work today......

Whether something happened with Jungkook or not is completely left to my imagination however the way I found myself in my bed says I was not completely out of it yesterday.

It was another wet dream, I very sensibly came back and slept in my bed

°°°°

Parking  and going to office I find Jungkook where he always waits for me.

My paths seems empty as everyone has gone to their respective seats other than me, the late bloomer. With no one to greet me other than Sunjae at the reception, I arrive fairly early

"Drink" he says, eyes not meeting mine. There are some hungover medicines aside from my coffee

He's wearing a striped turtle neck, it's in the middle of July, no matter how much I stare, he isn't staring back

It's such a shame, I can't see the marks I made

Wait, does that mean it's not a dream?

Oh no, OHHH NOO

I remember everything vividly, the way the soft cherry lips felt in-between mine and the strawberry scent in them. The way those lips kisses my finger begging me to forget everything. I wish I could

"Jungkook" I call

"Yes, ma'am" he responds

I swallow the lump in my throat, I only wanted his attention. I don't have anything to say to him, what do I do?

"The coffee- it's fine cold." I say

"Because it's an iced Americano?" He stares at me with a displeasure, as if it's annoying to even look at me

Yeah, it must be. I took advantage of his emotions

"Oh, um- my schedule for today" I ask

"Are sure you can work today?" He asks

"I have to, and it's fine really "

"A meeting with that woman i scheduled for tomorrow, today you only have a few files and projects to look at. " He says handing me a pile

Actually he doesn't hand me them, he just leaves them at my desk and goes back to his.

I try to pay attention to my work but I keep steeling glances at him, he's working on the computer. He is sitting on that tiny stool, his legs bulging with quads. He is wearing leather pants, why in the world would he thinks they're comfortable and on top of the month of July? With the kind of muscular guy he is, it must be suffocating for him...

He always stares at me while I work, so why isn't he doing that right now? I didn't give him any work, I mostly do my work myself so he's the secretary with the least amount of work in this office. Why is he so busy?

He's not feeling comfortable around me, that's why he isn't looking around.

I know he lost interest in me, that's a good thing.

I just hope he doesn't hate me for what I did, always did

"Can you bring me an espresso, Jungkook"

"Sure"

He leaves again and then brings me a cup of coffee

"Thanks, " I try to say but he leaves before I can

This won't do, he needs a breather

"Jungkook" I call to get his attention once again,

He diverts his eyes towards mine, was his gaze always this sharp? His hair grew quiet a bit since he joined

I can't think of anything but I can't let him know I remember, that's going to make things worse; more awkward than they already are

I can't tell him to take a day off, I can't just shoo him away too...

"Jungkook, I had a ticket of the Haute Couture, could you attend than on my behalf?" I ask

"Hm" he hums leaving with his belongings

As soon as he leaves the room, I call the Haute Couture management

"I'd like to arrange a fashion show, it needs to take place tonight, in 5 hours"

"Yes, Gucci, chanel, Ysl, Fendi, Versace I'll pay extra. Make it look like a real Haute Couture fashion show"

And that's my salary for the month gone....

When he's gone, I keep staring at the seat he left empty.

I just finished The After Series and I need therapy, not like I didn't need already-