Here's a little compilation of a bunch of conversations my dad and I have had that I think are TOTALLY fucked up. I will be paraphrasing and summarizing theses conversations.

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Whenever I complain to my dad that he's not really doing enough as a fatherly/parental figure, he always complains that he did a bunch of shit when my siblings and I were little kids. He'll complain that when my mom divorced him that he decided to take us in and that he could've just left us on the streets and says we should be more grateful to him.

While it's true you did that, that's kinda your job as a parent. I don't owe you shit, gratitude or material items, for that. If you think me or either of my siblings owe you for it, we don't.

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My dad always tells me how he hates that my mom got me vaccinated behind his back. He wanted to give me no vaccines whatsoever and home school me, but my mom vaccinated me and enrolled me in public school. According to him it's part of a government control scheme and since I've been vaccinated and part of the public school system for so long I'm brainwashed.

I don't even know what to say about this other than my mom actually did one good thing in her pathetic life.

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Speaking of my mom, if I ever say she did ANYTHING good my dad starts yelling at me and telling me that I'm gonna end up killing someone just like she did just for saying she did ONE small good deed. Express the fact I'm happy about some random time she actually had food in the house and didn't just starve us all day? Gonna kill someone. Express the fact I'm happy she taught me that if I ever get in a situation where I need to defend myself that I should go for something important? Gonna kill someone.

But if I say anything bad about my brother, he goes on a whole rant about how I need to be more willing to forgive him and starts complaining that I need to get along with my brother more. He outright doesn't believe me when I tell him my brother raped me and has physically and mentally tormented me for years, or he says, "It was probably a poor attempt at humor."

My mom killed somebody, but she still did good things. Not many, but there are a few good things she did. My brother raped me. He has done a lot of bad things. Yes, he's also done some good things and ironically I'd probably be dead if he didn't exist, but he's also done a lot of bad things- he's done way more bad than good. And it's the same story for my mom.

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If I ever say I'm depressed my dad says the government is trying to brainwash me into thinking that there's 'something to be sad about.'

I'm literally bipolar, dumbass. No, there is NOTHING for me to be sad about, but bipolar {along with depression} doesn't care. Sometimes there's a reason someone is depressed, but there's not always a reason. There's no reason for you to climb up fucking trees and just about slice your hands off in accidents but you do it anyways all for the sake of your radio antenna.

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If I ever complain that I'm hallucinating, my dad just tells me it's a demon trying to 'trick me into doing something bad' and tells me to pray it away. He's literally threatened to send me to a priest to get an exorcism performed because I kept complaining that I was hallucinating.

...Pretty sure I'm not possessed if I can touch a cross and read the Bible LMAO, so I dunno why I'd need an exorcism performed on me.

As for the demon part, I literally sleep with all sorts of religious shit in my room so I'm pretty sure if I'm seeing stuff in there it's either an extremely powerful demon and you should've taken action years ago or it's, woah, shocker, NOT A DEMON. Plus I already tried the praying thing just to prove him wrong but he says it's because I "didn't put enough faith in God" that it didn't work. Um... what?

Again, I'm literally bipolar and I happen to have lovely psychotic features with it. Literally professionally diagnosed with it TWICE by two different professionals who were literally parts of different agencies and didn't even know the other person existed. Accept my diagnosis and move on.

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My dad almost didn't let me go back to school in person because they require everyone to wear a mask and practice social distancing. I'm anti mask and all that, but... trying to keep me locked up from my only opportunity at education because I'm unable to do any form of online education just because I have to wear a mask is fucked up. Only reason he let me go is BECAUSE that's my only opportunity at an education.

Well, at least he has the sense to side with me on a lot of the bullshit my school has thrown at me... but that's still fucked up to try to strongly discourage me from going to school. Last night he asked me, "Are you going to school again?" and when I said yes he gave me a disapproving, "Mhmmm..."

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Whenever I tell my dad anything I wanna do in life, he tells me it's probably not gonna happen or that I'll regret it. Wanna go to college? I'll probably change majors or drop out. Wanna get a roommate? They'll probably be a total asshole who never pays their half of the rent and I'll end up moving out anyways. Planning to most likely stay single? I won't have a family so I won't be a stable member of society. Wanna adopt kids if I DO end up getting married? They won't have my DNA so I'll hate them and they'll be shitty drug addicts.

Like... what is he even trying to do? Get me to conform to some bullshit traditional way of thinking?

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Talking more on that, whenever I tell him I'm trans he totally ignores it and says I'll change my mind in my 20s at the very latest.

He also tells me that I was 'much prettier with longer hair' and that he 'made sure to always get expensive shampoo so my hair was healthier.'

Not only does that just sound creepy as hell, but I literally don't care. Is you telling me that supposed to make me feel bad and say I'm actually a girl and was just mistaken? I've never once regretted cutting my hair short- it's MUCH easier to keep, looks MUCH more visually appealing, doesn't get in my face, and it uses WAY less shampoo. It's a little bit of a downside that I need to get it cut much more frequently, but it's not that bad of a drawback. Even if for some reason I ended up detransitioning, I'd still keep the short hair.

He also likes telling me, "Some guys would really be into a small, petite girl. If you'd kept your hair long you'd be a really beautiful girl and you could marry any guy you wanted."

Excuse me, what??? That's literally assuming all guys only marry girls based on looks which is really shallow... and again it sounds REALLY fucking creepy. Then again, my dad married a killer so I guess I shouldn't be surprised he tells me I could get someone to marry me based off of looks.

Also, would like to mention the fact I absolutely hate being small and petite and that if I could, I'd rather look really big and muscular. I totally want a six pack {flushed emoji}.

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If I ever support ANYTHING in ANY capacity that the media is supporting, I'm instantly told that the government is brainwashing me.

I rarely ever support mainstream media at all, but if I even imply that I support it or simply remain NEUTRAL on the subject my dad starts lecturing me about how I need to stop being controlled by the government and that kids my generation are just stupid and can't think for themselves and they just believe everything they're told.

If I ever say, "Ever thought those kinda ideas were made by the government so they can manipulate people into thinking they're going against the government but they're still under the government's control?" he gets really pissed at me LOL.

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If I tell my dad he's homophobic he says, "No, I'm not homophobic. I think there are gay people but the media has made the subject so widespread that it's brainwashing normal people into thinking they're gay."

First of all, saying 'normal' in place of 'straight' shows right there that you think being gay is somehow less acceptable than being straight. Second of all, saying gay people exist doesn't make you not homophobic. If you say the Nazis existed does that mean you didn't hate or at least strongly disliked them for what they did? Third of all, you ever thought that heterosexuality being such a norm in the media has brainwashed lovely gays into thinking they're straight?

I purposefully made being straight kinda sound like a crime in my example... but I don't actually think that being gay makes you better than being straight or something. Just exaggerating my point.

Also, his argument totally throws out the concept of anyone who's bi, pan, etc.

It's always fun to piss off my dad and tell him I have a crush on a girl and then tell him I also have a crush on a guy even if I don't and I'm just making it up to piss him off.

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And finally, some things my dad believes:

-5G towers, phones, and other electronics cause cancer.
-COVID was invented by the government as a means of mass control {and 9/11 was done by the government for the same reason}.
-There are Nazis still living in Antarctica and Hitler is still alive living among them
-There's aliens living underground with a hole to their civilization in Antarctica and that's why nobody's allowed there
-Bigfoot may actually be said alien species and therefore isn't one creature but a species {or may be an additional alien species}
-We had already been to the moon before the moon landing and it was staged to LOOK like the first landing ever
-The government is the anti Christ and masks are the first step to controlling the public to be more willing to get the mark of the beast
-The government is pretty much run by machines now and they've taken over the rich, powerful people in charge and will eventually dominate the entire world

I have to live with this man...

Well, the good news is I turn 17 in a few months so in a little over a year I can get the hell out of here.