~Y/N POV~

"Are you okay Namjoon?"

I asked him after noticing him standing by the window staring out to the beyond the woods that surrounds us.

But yet despite myself asking him he doesn't move nor respond.

"Namjoon?!"

Still nothing.

With a sigh I stomped over to him just to stand behind him, scowling at to the back of his head.

"Namjoon I'm leaving you for a woman. She can satisfy my sexual needs since you can't with your little wiener."

There was still nothing and he kept staring out the window.

"KIM NAMJOON!!!"

I bellowed at the top of my lungs and finally he turned around to face me, half shocked and half confused.

"Huh?" Namjoon

"Finally I have your attention. What's wrong with you? Since we've come back you've been on edge ever since. Are you okay?"

As I gently brush his arm he just nods and walks by me and to the bed just to sink into the covers but sit up against the head board.

"I'm fine, just come to bed. You look exhausted." Namjoon

Patting them spot beside him I then headed over to the bed to join him and get under the covers. As soon as I laid down Namjoon curled up behind me. Wrapping up his arms around me as I sunk into him.

"Goodnight y/n." Namjoon

"Goodnight Namjoonie."

I closed my eyes ready for sleep and slowly started to drift off.

"Hey. Did you say you're leaving me for a woman?" Namjoon

I snorted back a laugh and turned around to face him cupping his cheeks.

"That's all you heard?"

His eyes darkened but pressed his lips together.

"No but it's the only possibility. My dick is not small." Namjoon

I laughed before pressing a kiss to his lips and snuggled into his chest.

" I know I was just teasing you."

Closing my eyes again and listening to Namjoons heart beat I fell asleep in no time.

(Hours later)

As I jolt awake I quickly scrambled off the bed and ran to the bathroom without even so much as turning on the light.

Throwing myself to the floor I landed just at my target in front of the toilet, opening the lid and spewing my guts up.

This has been the third time now.

I must be allergic to something I've been eating lately.

Despite the thought I threw up everything I could muster until I couldn't do it anymore.

Throwing up is horrible no matter the time of day it is. For some reason I'm always through the night.

Once I was done I stood back up and washed my face and brushed my teeth all while still in the dark but mid brushing my teeth after finally waking up fully I heard the shower running.

Confused I finished up brushing my teeth and then turned on the light.

The room lit up and to my surprise Namjoon was sitting under the shower, knees curled up but head buried in his arms that rest on his knees. He was shivering so I ran to him and got into the shower with him just to sit beside him under the shower.

"Namjoon? What happened?"

Lightly shaking him by the arm he doesn't budge and instead keeps his head low that I can't even see his face.

"Baby please look at me? Are you hurt?"

He shook his head and finally lifted so I could see his face. I gasped when I saw the spots of blood on his cheeks that were beginning to run down his skin.

"My god!! Namjoon what happened to you?! You're bleeding!"

Taking his face into my hands I inspected every part of his face but he just choked a sob and shook his head removing my hands from his face. Instead he entwined out fingers and tugged on my hands as if to pull me closer.

"It's not mine." Namjoon

"What?"

I whispered and yet he expressed a pained look and glanced at something behind me. That's when I turned and to my fright I finally took notice of the bathroom and it's current state.

Blood trails of Namjoons bare feet and a large smear of blood against the wall from the door to the shower just opposite the toilet and sink. Even looking up at the shower glass door on the outside there was smears of blood.

There was so much red and yet I didn't notice before until now.

"Tell me what happened Namjoon. Who does the blood belong too?"

He gulped and looked up after leaning his head against the wall allowing the water to splash on his face.

"I don't know. I don't remember. I fell asleep next to you and the next thing I know I'm standing over a dead deer in the woods." Namjoon

"Then it has to be animal blood. That's what it'll be."

He only looks back at me as if skeptical but then shrugs his shoulders.

"I doubt it but I can't help but think what if I hurt someone? Someone from our pack? A human?" Namjoon

I remained silent as he voiced his thoughts but then his eyes widen and he grabs my upper arms digging his nails into my arms and pulls me further towards him.

"What if it's because I became alpha of two packs? My wolf is stronger now so what if it felt like it needed to eat something or to kill?! Y/n it's dangerous for me to be here. I can't be here!" Namjoon

His eyes then wondered up and down my body and he growled just before pushing me out the shower. Thankfully I caught myself using my hands before falling on my back but I just got up to my knees.

"I can't be near you! I could hurt you! Get out and leave me!" Namjoon

Shaking my head o rushed at him and grabbed his wrists. He was breathing heavily and his eyes were wide but sparkled between ruby red and brown.

"Listen to me. You are not going to hurt me and I'm not going to leave you, do you understand?"

"But y/n I cou-" Namjoon

Cutting him off mid sentence I smashed my lips to his. It took him a moment before actually kissing me back but when he did he melted to my touch.

Pulling away from him I cupped his cheeks again between my hands and forced him to look me in the eyes.

"Whatever happened we'll keep this between us until we figure out what's happening okay? It could be nothing but what ever happens I'm staying right by your side. You can't get rid of me that easily."

I chuckled to ease the tense atmosphere but Namjoon was still on edge and it was clear he was scared but like I told him, I'm not going anywhere.

What ever his problems are, they're mine too.