~Y/N POV~

"So since my brother died its only just been me and my dad. Just the two of us. In fact I think I should get going, its about time we usually have dinner together." Anna

She stood up from the couch checking her watch on her wrist. I nodded and stood up also just to follow her towards the door but we both stopped in our tracks when the bedroom door was suddenly swung open so hard that it banged against the wall beside it. In came Namjoon charging towards me looking extremely distressed by something and it didn't look good.

Ignoring Anna's presence he just stomped towards me just to grab me by the shoulders and pull me into his chest, swarming my body with his large form. I couldn't even see Anna anymore until she popped her head around him just to see my face squashed against his chest, nuzzling his nose to my neck which he only does when he's upset about something.

"I'll get going now Y/n." Anna

I nodded and waved a little under Namjoon's arm and she smiled just to walk away and soon I heard the door close behind her leaving Namjoon and I alone in this bedroom. Reaching my arms around to meet his back did I sooth my hands up and down his spine worried about his sudden behaviour.

"Joonie what happened?"

I know there's something wrong, he's barely like this and yet here he is holding me close to him like his life depended on it and taking soft inhales of my scent from my neck as if trying to calm himself down.

" Just give me a second." Namjoon

He mumbled against my skin and I just stayed quiet allowing him to have the time he needs to gather his thoughts. I do wish at this moment I could read his thoughts if I were like him but it's the sad part of being human, I cant even if I am his mate. Stupid differences.

The two of us standing in the middle of the room, holding one another in silence for who knows how long because I don't. Only did we move when Namjoon suddenly surprised me by picking me up off my feet just to sit down on the edge of the bed and have me sit on his lap while he takes my hands in his and begins to play with my small fingers compared to his. All I could do was stare to the side of his face that was frowning in deep thought about something.

"Mr Park wants me to kill him." Namjoon

He spoke in his deep voice still watching our hands together. My eyes widen and I leaned back a little just to get a better look at him. At first I thought he was joking but when he didn't even flinch or make any sudden movements I knew he wasn't joking.

"Are you serious? He asked you that?"

Sighing heavily he nodded and finally look up at me, meeting my eyes.

"Yeah he did. I don't know what to do, I've never killed anyone without reason." Namjoon

"Well why did he ask you do that?"

He licked is lips and torn his sights from mine to look back down to my lap that had out joined hands.

"To bring my pack and his together. The alpha from the midnight pack has been trying to mate with Anna to gain power and he's threatening to take her by force. If I kill him that means I take on his power over his pack and no one else." Namjoon

"So it's to protect his daughter?"

He nodded and rested his head to my shoulder.

"Yes and his people. He's already lost his son to them and his mate died a few years back and he kept mentioning he's old now. Y/n he's dead serious about this, I don't know what to do." Namjoon

Meeting my eyes again he looked up at me with pleading eyes for the first time ever. As if desperately wanting to give him some sort of solution where as I don't actually know if this would be a good idea or not. This is about ending someone's life whether they asked for it or not.

"How are you feeling about it though?"

I managed to ask him and he just again looked away to the corner of the room and sighed softly.

"Scared." Namjoon

He whispered so very quietly that if I wasn't paying attention close enough I wouldn't of heard him but I did and to hear he's scared made me feel all the more bad about this in general.

"Can you tell me why?"

Brushing back some of his hair from his ears and forehead.

"Because someone like me can loose their mind killing someone innocent. I could develop a thirst for it and no one in the right frame of mind wants that Y/n." Namjoon

"Could that really happen if you have me though? I mean I'm your mate, doesn't that count for anything or doe it not matter?"

He lifted up his head from my shoulder just to shift his body more under mine to face my upper half and cup my cheeks in his hands.

"Of course it matters, it matters a lot. It just means that if I do, do this and kill Mr Park I could fall in to a deep thirst for blood Y/n and that means I would rely on you for a lot. More than you would think until I managed to sort myself out." Namjoon

"Tell me again the reason Mr Park gave you for such a decision."

Staring into his eyes, that didn't dare look away from mine he nodded and began to speak again.

"To save Anna from being forced into mating another wolf. To save his people from the midnight pack and to hopefully take down the alpha that is thirsty for power." Namjoon

"This is the same alpha that has my brother isn't it?"

His eyes widen and he let out a sharp gasp letting go of my cheeks.

"How did you know?" Namjoon

I just chuckled and pushed Namjoon down to lay on his back as I straddled him, pressing my hands to his chest.

"I'm not stupid. I know my brother wouldn't just allow himself to be taken by just anyone and it seems this midnight pack is causing a lot of problems around here, even so much as to follow me and try and kill me a few times."

His eyes never leaving mine I leaned down so my chest was flushed against his, our faces so close that our noses were touching.

"Would you doing this help but a stop to all our problems, my brother, your pack and crystal falls pack?"

"Yes." Namjoon

He whispered to me without hesitation.

"In order to control your urges if you get any, would I be more required to help you out sexually?"

A dark look spread across his eyes as I grinded against his clothed crotch but let out a slow exhale.

"Yes, it would help." Namjoon

"Could you kill the man that took my brother?"

"Yes." Namjoon

Smoothing my hands down his chest to his belt, I moved my lips ever so closely to his, almost touching but not quite yet.

"Then I think you should do it for everyone's sake and I will be right by your side every step of the way."

Pushing my hand down his trousers did he gasp as my hand made contact with his manhood but I cut him off my pressing my lips to his hard, desperate for his taste. He moaned loudly between our sloppy yet desperate kiss between us. I don't know why I acted this way but it was like a switch inside me that flickered, knowing deep down he did need to do this and what we're doing now will help him ease his thoughts.

No matter what he finally decides then I will be there no matter what.