~NAMJOON POV~

Every day I suffer.

It's my fault anyway for letting her work so close to me but I can't help it, just knowing she's right there is good enough for me. I can see her, smell her, I just can't have her too far away from me now that I found her.

The door between her and myself is a big help with masking her scent but sometimes it's not enough and it's very hard to control myself.

She's mine and I'll never let that go but I'm no good for her. I'll never be able to hold her in my arms and cherish her the way she deserves. I'm too dangerous for her innocence to be involved with me in anyway so I do what I do best, is push her away.

I try to talk to her as less as I can through the day. I act cold to her and even give her attitude but her smile at me every day makes it even more harder for me to resist.

Seeing her with Yoongi does not help either. Im very possessive over what's mine and Y/n is mine whether she know it or not. Yoongi knows it and he likes to tease me about it but he looks after her for me and I appreciate what he does for her.

My company was passed down to me by my dad and it's a very successful business and it keeps everyone busy.

But today I had to talk to my friends about something, something I'll need their help with.

They're all like me, a werewolf so they know just how difficult it can be out in the human world but keeping it a dark secret.

I'm an alpha among my pack which includes my friends since our families joined together many years ago.

So I called a secret meeting this evening and I was currently waiting for them to arrive. I left my office door purposely open earlier so I could get a better look at Y/n as she was unaware of me watching her at her desk, typing away at her computer. 

She is and always will be the most gorgeous being I have ever seen. Her scent is very alluring and I'd love nothing more to march over to her and make her mine right here, right now.

I know she's got a crush on me. Yoongi told me when he was trying to convince me to make a move on Y/n. In fact all my friends tell me to but I can't and they should understand that. They know my temper and they know the problems my family face with another certain pack.

They could find out about her, the fact I have a human mate and it could all go down hill from there. My own family don't even know about her and it's been nine years since I came of age to find my mate. I gave up years ago but when she stepped into my office it was like a light at the end of the tunnel, my angel is what she is.

She glows every time I look at her and her soft spoken voice that makes her seem so small and fragile doesn't help my need to be with her all the time. This job was the best I could come up with.

Just listening to her speak in the phone was all I needed to relax after a stressful day. I felt at peace listening to her speaking on the phone.

Leaning back in my chair I took the time to relax with my eyes closed just listening to her voice but my peace was cut short when I heard her mention someone's name.

My eyes flew open at hearing his name and stormed over to my office door. I didn't like the way she looked at him. He's too flirty even though he's got a mate. They're all flirty with her because they know it pisses me off.

"Hoseok! Come in."

When I spoke she flinched at my voice and I felt a little bad that I spoke louder than expected and she reacted in such a way.

"Yes sir!" Hoseok

He saluted to me and I rolled my eyes turning back around to walk into my office with him following close behind.

"Take a seat Hoseok."

I pointed to the long table to the side but still standing in view of the door. He did as I said and chose a seat around the table without a word.

"Hello babe, what are you still doing here?"

At the sound of Jimins voice I quickly turned around my head and glares at him. He noticed me and laughed walking past Y/n as she spoke about having a lot of work to do today. She did have a lot of tasks today, more than what was needed but she still managed.

"Calm down joon, don't get you knickers in a twist." Jimin

He adjusted my tie when he entered the room and I scoffed.

"Jiminie! Come sit with me!" Hoseok

Jimins eyes lit up at the sound of his mates voice and wondered over towards him.

"Excuse me sir?" Y/n

My eyes widen and I held my breath slowly turning towards Y/n as she knocks at the door with her jacket on and her bag over her shoulder.

"Yes Miss Wang?"

I tired to stay as professional as possible.

"I'm finished for the day. Is there anything else I can do for you before I go?" Y/n

Yes!
Kiss me!
Let me mark you and make you mine!

"No. That will be all for today."

She bats her long lashes at me before she nods with a light smile and bow.

"Goodnight Mr Kim." Y/n

She turned on her heels and i painfully watch her leave like I do every day. I want to take her home with me but I can't.

When she enters the elevator I watched how Yoongi stepped off to give her a quick side hug and I'm sure I heard him say he'll go to her place after this meeting and I lowly growl at the thought, gritting my teeth together.

The elevator door close and Yoongi comes walking over with his smirk on his face.

"Jealous much?" Yoongi

I scoff and look away from him.

"I'm not jealous."

"Oh please! You've been looking at her like a puppy Namjoon!" Hoseok

"A possessive puppy." Jimin

He smirked with his hand entwined with Hoseoks. That sight alone made me jealous, they can do that together but I have my reasons I can't do that with my mate.

I rolled my eyes, to roll up my sleeves and walk to the head of the meeting table and wait for the others to arrive.

Jin showed up next, eager to get this over with since he has his mate and two kids at home waiting for him. Another thing that makes me jealous. Growing up that's all I ever wanted with my mate but no, it can't happen, especially knowing my mate is a human. She's too innocent to be part of my life, she wouldn't even know my kind of exists.

Another few minutes the other two pair of mates show up, Taehyung and Jungkook.

"Where's Y/n?" Jungkook

He pointed towards her desk with his free hand that isn't holding Taehyungs own hand. I shrugged but Yoongi answers for me from the seat next to me.

"She's gone home." Yoongi

"Can we hurry this up? Yuri told me that Yeonjun took his first steps today and I missed it! So hurry up!" Jin

I nod with understanding and collected myself. Taehyungs and Jungkook took up seats next to one another and I began with the topic.

"Well straight to the point then, my father has decided to visit the company next week and he wants to all have a chat with everyone, like this about the pack problems too."

"Why the sudden visit?" Jimin

I shrugged my shoulders and sat back against my chair.

"To be honest I don't know. He won't tel me anything until he gets here. Something tells me he knows something that we don't, so we'll have to be careful."

Everyone nods.

"So you think he's talking directly to the crystal falls pack?" Jin

Again I don't know. I mean they are our allies but they're very good at hiding information from us and since I became alpha they haven't been communicating with us as much as they use to. They had some changes to their family members but again I don't know much about that. The alpha from that pack was close with my dad.

"I hope he is. He can tell us what they know about the midnight pack and we'll know then where we stand with them. I really need to reach out to the crystal falls alpha. We need some sort of relationship, my dad won't be around forever."

My father is a good man but we're extremely alike, so I have his temper, his attitude, just everything. He had trouble meeting my mom but they worked through it.

Everyone tells me that I'll work through it with Y/n but the difference is Y/n is human, my mom is not.

"Another thing id like to say is DO NOT tell my dad about Y/n. He can't know yet."

"But Namjoon you'll make it obvious. He'll know by just watching you." Taehyung

He chuckled and I knew he was right but I could at least try and have very little time spent with Y/n in that one day my dad shows up.

"If it comes to it I'll tell him she's yoongis girlfriend."

I snarled at the word, scraping my nails along the hard wooden table that I surprisingly didn't leave marks on.

"I'd love to tell him that." Yoongi

He smirked at me but I glared at him, staring intensely into his eyes. I'm sure my eyes were red at this point, warning him to not push it.

I know he doesn't think of Y/n in that way but he loves to get under my skin. All of them do and it pisses me off.

"Okay, sorry." Yoongi

He held his hands up in surrender after my stare and lowered his gaze to the floor. I chuckled at him and he tapped his fist to my shoulder playfully but I shrugged it off.

"So that's the plan then. We'll listen to my fathers words, tell him what he wants to hear and no one mentions what Y/n is to me, okay?"

I looked at them all individually and they all nod in agreement.

"Good. Now Jin you can go back home to your family."

He throws his arms into the the air and lets out an exaggerated gasp.

"Finally I go!" Jin

"You should of gone earlier if yeonjun walked for the first time, I wouldn't of minded you had one day off Jin."

Honestly I wouldn't of cared if Jin told me that happened earlier instead of being at work all day to not witness the scene himself. Family is very important.

"Thanks I'll remember that next time! See you tomorrow!" Jin

He shot up off his seat, grabbing his bag and running out my office.

"Aw! Namjoon that's as sweet!" Taehyung

"Huh?"

I was confused to what he was referring to.

"There's you saying you're no good for Y/n when you have such a soft spot for family." Jungkook

I rolled my eyes and stood up from my seat.

"And you see Namjoon, since Y/n is you're mate, that counts her as family, human or not." Yoongi

He stood up and stared me right in my eyes which I took as a challenge and stared back down at him. You only ever stare into an alphas eyes if you're challenging them.

"I never said she wasn't family. She's just better off without me. I'll put her in more danger than anything else until his word."

I groaned frustrated out of my mind of this topic and aggressively ran my hands though my hair.

"I'm tired and I don't want to talk about this anymore. All of you just leave!"

I turned around to face the wall away from all of them, listening to them all gather their things and walk out.

The last lingering scent to leave my office was a Yoongi, he probably had more to say to me about this but I didn't care. I'm not changing my mind about this, I can't and it's better for her to stay away from my secret life.

But I question myself sometimes.

Is it best to have her work with me?
I know I can't let her go, my heart wouldn't bare the thought.
Can I get close to her without letting find out what I truly am?