I need to change
I kept telling myself
I need to become better
Permit me to say
It was failure in disguise
Life wasn't as expected
Not even as I had planned it
Life isn't always a bed of roses
Yes,I heard that a lot
But still,I trusted change
Was it easier as I had thought?
Well, No!
I tried to make changes
I really did tried
Life is a scam
I thought so hard
Before taking this great decision
I wanted to end my life
That was the only solution
As I had thought
But is it?
As I tried breaking into my skin
Like a thief trying to steal from a poor woman's stall
Droplets of tears rolled down my eyes to my lips
Tasting the saltiness
I cried harder
Then, memories of my childhood filmed in
I remembered my mum's everyday advise
You can overcome life
Only if you keep on trying
My dad's voice echoed
My daughter,You live only once
Live life to your fullest
Is this the height of my life?
As I deepened the knife in my belly
Blood splattered all over the floor
Then,I remembered the promise I wrote in my diary as a little child
When I was bullied,
Stella Never give up!
Stella Don't you ever give up!
Was it too late?
I fell onto the cold tiles
On my own blood
As I tried to dial the ambulance
I needed redemption
Was I ever going to get it?
Life gave me a choice,live or die
I should have thought harder
I should have chosen life
That's the only revenge I could give
To keep on living
But it was too late
As the phone slipped away
I drifted away into the unknown land