Have you ever imagined waking up to your past?
Thinking everything is bygone but you are currently still going 360° in shit.
Starting from the second a pedophile destroyed you
Or to the minutes you were beaten to a pulp by your step dad.
From the endless emotional pain that has engulfed your heart
To the threshold of anguish you're surrounded by.
Losing the trust of your mom due to lies told by your step dad
Or from all heartbreaks received from people you truly loved.

This is the story I awaken to every day,
This is the life I'm trying to break free from.
It really hurts so much
My heart's bleeding,
I just wish to awake from this torture,
My soul I wish could come alive.
Every day I go on my knees and pray,
I pray that i avenge not the ills that were done to me.
I pray to be free from those days,
Days where I learnt how to hide whenever someone knocks on the door,
Days when my heart was filled with scorn for my mother
for not once believing in me.
Days when i awarded death blames for taking the one person who made feel so special and loved- my dad.
I hate these days,
So much it's killing me on the inside.

My soul live on from this
And take me to a better place,
Where I will learn to love again
And live as i never had before.