Was it really necessary?

For you to mention my failures

Does it do anything if you

If for once, you ignore my shortcomings

I get it

I'm incompetent

I'm worthless

You can keep on saying it, engraving it into my mind

Just accept it, Mother

I'll never be as hardworking

I'll never be as focused

Why do you care all of a sudden?

I'm useless anyways

I'm a dead girl walking, but at least he has some hope

Focus on him

He can be someone you're proud of

I'll fill the slot of disappointment for you

Mother, I can be the one that you bitch about to your friends

Don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about

Over the dinner parties that I'm not invited to

No one wants the disappointment anyone

She's too lazy

Wasted talent

Uncommitted

So what if I'm all of those things

So what if I'm not the star child you had hoped for me to be

Because all I am is what I am

I will not change for you, Mother

You've tried

I guess

But even that wasn't enough

Accept it

You failed

Cause so have I.

I'm just your incompetent daughter

What else do you want?

For me to try harder?

Honestly, no

Cause everytime I try, I end up failing

End up being a bigger disappointment

If that was even possible

I'm just the useless one

The inconsistency in your perfect family

Maybe if I didn't exist, everything would be better

If I die, I know you'll cry

But those tears won't be of grief or remorse

Those tears would be of relief

Relief that I was gone

Relief that now, your family can resume being perfect

Without that one impurity

Me.

Cause I'm just the incompetent daughter

That ruins everything

Even her own life