I eventually stopped crying and let Ansel drive me home.

Though when he held me at the cafe I didnt think he could ever stop. His soft skin made me feel better the instant he touched me. When we arrived I fell asleep almost instantly on my bed. I'm pretty sure he carried me to my room.

I wake up the next morning. Looking over to him on my bed he's reading a book. I look at it, reads "Moby Dick" I like that he reads, most people don't and I find that adorable. I chuckle to myself under my breath. He still doesnt notice that I'm awake. I touch his leg, softly letting my fingers trail against his thigh. He looks at me now with a soft smile forming on his lips. I smile too. I realize my hair is still in a bun. I crawl over to him slightly still gazing into those gorgeous eyes. I kiss his lips once, then get up walking towards the bathroom. I take my hair out of my bun. Fluffy, disgusting mess. I decide to take a shower. I hope in and wash my body and hair throughly. It gets super curly. I get out of the shower wrapping myself with a towel. I towel dry my hair going back into my room. Ansel still reading his book looks at me and smiles with his beaming pearls.

"Your hair." He points out.

"I know, its gross." I state looking for some clothes.

"I like it." I feel him walk over to me, still naked with just a towel on. "It looks cute on you."

I blush not saying anything to him. He watches me. I nervously sigh not wanting to look at him.

He's still watching me...

I awkwardly try to put on clean black panties with my towel still on me. Though I fail. I turn around with him looking at my body.

"Do you mind?" I question him.

"No, not at all." He says licking his lips. My face burns of embarassment.

"GET OUT!" I shout to him attempting to push him out the room. But my attempt is weak. He still stands there looking at me. I meet his eyes. I stop trying to push him and gaze in his intense stare towards me. Suddenly he lifts me up and puts me on the bed pinning my arms up. I gasp, while his head is on my chest. I feel him taking off the towel slowly with his teeth.

"Ansel..." I cry out for him. He'll see me completely naked if he takes it off. He looks at me. I can't read his hedonistic expression this time. He spits out the towel from his mouth, lifting me up and siting me on his lap. He moves his head closer to me. I bite my lips as his press against my forhead. Putting his palm on my cheek he lifts my head up. Looking into my eyes. Not daring to look away.

I need to take another shower..

Ansel parts his lips. "Your really cute when I tease you." He only says, running his hands through my curly untamed hair.

"Fuck you." I say to him.

"My pleasure." He leans in for another kiss. Red-faced, I get up grabbing clothes from my dresser walking into the bathroom. I hear him chuckle before I close the door. I put my hand on my heart

Slow down. I say to myself.

After while, my hair is straightened and I'm fully dressed. I come out of the bathroom seeing he's no longer in there. I peep into the other room seeing him drink coffee and reading. I smile, turning around in my room. I hear my phone ring, startling me. I walk towards my phone picking it up. It's Theo... I look around making sure Ansel isnt around. I answer it.

"Xia what the hell?! It's tuesday ! Where the shit have you been?" I turn down the volume. What am I suppose to say to him? How can I even talk to him? FUCK.

"I'm sorry Theo.." I look behind me making sure I'm alone.

"Xia.... If you were working the weekends you should've told me."

What a great excuse to use.

"I'm sorry, I didnt want you to worry, or stop me for working more." I lie. I didnt feel quite bad for it.

"It's fine X. But,cancel todays shift." He states.

"What, why?" I ask confused.

"Your mother called me on Sunday, just to see if we both were going to the Valetine day party next month that you havent told me about."

"Sorry.." I say quietly. Of course he would want to go.

"It's fine, but I can't go on that the 14th I'm working a long shift that weekend. I told your mother that, so she told me that she wants to have lunch with both of us then since I'm not goong to make the party and I said Tuesday." I stay in silence. I can't be with my mother right now, or see Theo right now, Especially not Theo. I don't think I can handle him touching me... "Xia ?" He questions. I look towards the window contemplating biting my lips.

"Sorry..." I sigh softly. "I'll cancel my shift then." I feel him smile on the call.

"Perfect I'll pick you up at..?"

"5:30 pm." I say softly.

"Okay cool, I gotta go cya there love you." Shit.

"I will see you there." I ignore that he said I love you and hanged up. I sighed running my fingers through my hair. I can't tell Ansel this.

"Your seeing him after school." I jump a little, turning around seeing Ansel standing behind me.

How could I not hear him come in..

He looks at my lips, I bite them tenderly studying his eyes. They look dark, full of worry. He looks uneasy. But understanding too.

"Yeah, my mother wants to have lunch with me and him, he wants me to cancel my shift at work.." My voice trails off not wanting to mention the party. His eyes stare into mine.

"Your going?" He asks with his eyebrows raised. I nod. His lips align in a straight line, so precise. So upsetting. " I see." He only says, pacing back and forth. He runs his fingers through his hair. His soft luscious coarse hair, growling underneath his breath. Though I can hear it clearly.

"Ansel..." I say standing up. I touch his arm with my thumb. He jerks himself away, avoiding my eyes. My chest is hit with a sharp pain.

"It's fine. You should go, you don't want to be late for class." He looks right ahead of me. Trying not to make eye contact with me whatsoever. The pain in my chest hits again, but even harder. I move his chin towards me and try kissing him. I peck his lips. He doesnt kiss back. He doesnt even touch me. A sadden look waves on his face. I could tell he didnt close his eyes too. I walk by him. I grab my bag putting my phone in. I see him getting his bag and puting his book in it. I walk out the door, he follows me out. I open my door and pop behind the wheel. He walks up to my window.

"I can drive you back to your place." I say. He looks at me now. I want to kiss him again, but I'm scared he wont kiss back.

"I can just walk to the bus stop." He smiles polietly. I get angry a bit.

"Let me drive you there." He looks at me. "Let me." I state firmly. He hesitates but then walks around to the passenger door and sits in the seat.

I start the engine backing out the drive through. "Put your seatbelt on, you don't want an incident." I smile at him.

He laughs buckling it on. 10 minutes has past in silence. I want badly to just look at him, but I don't know how he actually feels. He's not telling me anything. I mean, I can't blame it but for some reason...

It's eating me inside badly.

I stop at a stoplight.
"27." He says suddenly. I look over at him confused. "My age, you asked a bit ago." 27. He's so old and at some times he acts like an oversexual horny 16 year old boy. I giggle. "What?" He questions. I look at him, still laughing.

"You sure don't act like it." The light turns green. I feel him smile back at me. His smile makes me have an ease at mind.

"I'll always be a child at heart." He admits. I smile softly. I pull up next to the bus stop. I park looking over to him. Badly wanting to straddle my legs on him and kiss him so hard like the other night. His expression turns blank once he looks at me again.

Ansel..

"Thanks for the ride..." He began softly. Like a small innocent whisper."Have fun on your date." He coldly spurts out breaking eye contact. I look at him upset.

"Ansel.." He gets out slamming the door, sitting on the bench. Looking at him my heart starts to hurt all over again. He was smiling at me a minute ago. How can it go away so easily. Did I really hurt him...

Fucking tears, don't come right now..

I'm at school and so far it is really hard to pay attention in my classes. I'm not completing any of my work. Or homework, since I was kinda busy last night. I think about Ansel. How peturb he must feel towards me. I hate when he's sad. Those eyes look terrible upset... I don't blame him though. I'm too cowardly to say no to Theo. To even tell him.. But really what am I suppose to say to him? "Well I like someone else so it's over." I feel like everyone in town will know how much of a cheater I am. This town's gossip is everywhere. Eventually my mother would find out, and she doesn't even live in this town. Though I do really hate that word, Cheater.

When its near 2:30 I leave class early. I go walking on campus to the nearest Starbucks to get some tea. I get to it waiting in line.

Well maybe Ansel shouldn't be so mad. I'm not ready to tell Theo. He should understand. At least a little bit. But if he touches me, I don't know what I would do. Or how to tell Ansel.

UGHH why do I have to tell Ansel? I'm not with him..

I feel my phone buzz in my bag once entering.

"Hello." I say.

"Hey X, I'm kinda sick, can you cover my shift?" Quinn answers sounding congested.

"I can't be at work today, I have a date with my mother.. and Theo." I say quietly standing in line.

"Ooh Damn Xia, I thought it was over between you and him?" She says, crunching on something that sounds like a crisp.

"I kinda want it to be... Maybe I should just cancel the Lunch arrangement, I rather stay away from both of them as much as possible." I begin rethinking.

"No, No its fine, I'll get up. I'm just kinda sad. I found out who A was, it's so fucking stup-"

"I'd love to hear you rabble about a vapid show, but I rather just die." I say harshly playing with her. "Green tea refresher grande." I tell the cashier. I hand her the money.

"Lol fuck you. But anyways I'll be able to cover your shift. Just come tomorrow alright ?" I nod, forgetting that she cant see me.

"I'll be there tomorrow, and shouldnt you be in school?" I ask her.

"My break starts a week earlier remember." I moan out of jealously.

"Byeee" I say making kissing noises. I hang up.

I'm home.

I try on various dresses. A bright yellow sundress, or a tigh fitting pencil dress. I finally decide with a long nude pink dress with a big floppy hat. My job might suck but I do have a good fashion sense. I put the dress on. I hear a honk at 4:51 outside as I grab my phone and walk towards Theo's truck. I open the door sitting next to him, greeting him with a smile. He comes close to me surprising me with a kiss on the cheek. I bite my lips trying not to seem distant.

"You look great." He looks at me. I roll my eyes at him trying to hide it.

"Well we are spending the afternoon with my mother." I say jokingly but not joking.

"So? Your mother is so nice." He starts the car driving straight.  Theo is actually oblivious. When we first started dating, I really couldnt tell him my feelings towards my family. He would brush it off like a big deal. He once caught me crying about it and he really didnt do much. He likes my family, not because they are rich but because they treat him like he's family. I still like Theo. He makes me feel good. He is sweet and very loyal. Just that, I never felt... complete with him. It makes me sick that he thinks I love him. I hope he doesnt say it again, I'll choke right in front of him. "But I am very excited for this." He continues grabbing my hand, interlocking his fingers with mine.

He's super clammy...

I smile at him not saying anything.