I stood in the shower.

Water running on my shoulders, traveling down my spine to my sacrum. The heat was super hot, the way I like it. Making my blood boil and rush through my veins, turning my skin cherry red. Steam seeped through my pores, it felt amazing. I breathed in deeply as water fell on my lips. I rub the bar of soap on my arms and down my hips. But I wasn't alone in the shower.

Theo was behind me washing my back. He softly kisses my neck, rubbing up and down my nude body. I turn to face him as he slides down putting his face between my breast. He softly licks my right nipple, twirling his tongue on it then biting it. It hurt, but pleasurably. He does this with my other nipple but looking straight in my eyes. Wetness between my legs was not from the shower anymore. He reaches up kissing my lips. I close my eyes tightly, moving my mouth along with his rhythm. Rubbing his tongue against mine I let out a soft moan. I pull away opening my eyes and in front of me me was a blurry man. My eyes adjusted seeing Ansel standing in right in front of me of me naked.

My body springs up from my bed.

What the...

I exhaled. Thankfully, it was just a dream. I look down and see my hands are right in my panties. I snatch them away in shock, getting up to the bathroom to wash them. I splash water on my face looking in the mirror.

Why Ansel..

I go to my phone checking the time.
12:04 pm. It's Saturday. I go to text Theo.

[Can I came over ?]

I get up pacing around my room waiting for a response. I feel my phone vibrate almost immediately. I look at it.

[Yeah. Why? Is everything okay?]

I pop on a tank and jeans grabbing my keys.

[No everything is fine. I'll be there in 15.]

Getting outside I start my engine and drive to Theo's. I didn't want to think about Ansel. I don't care about him.

But that dream..

I remove it from my mind state. When I arrive to his apartment complex, I quickly get out of my car and run up the stairs. I finally reach his door number 82B and knock on it. I hear a bunch of noises in his apartment making me curious. He opens the door and gives me a smile. He looks so perfect. I run up to him pushing his back against the wall kissing him putting my whole weight on him. Theo wraps his arms on my waist.

"Xia.." He moans out.

I pull away from his lips kissing down his chin and neck. I wanted him. He softly groans making me grin. Knowing he likes it. I slowly trail up to his ear nibbling it, as his hand make it's way to my butt harshly groping it. A small whimper escapes from my mouth. I grin as I take his arm walking him to the couch. I haven't been in his apartment in months. I look around noticing his tiny kitchen, that follows to his small living room. We only go on dates on the weekend since I have work and school on the weekdays. I spend my nights just calling him for a bit, as he gets ready for his midnight shift at his job. Haven't been here since summer and it's already January. I inhale smelling the rich apple cider freshener. Once we get to the couch I look at him smiling. I really did miss him.

"Why are you smiling at me like that?" He grips my hand tightly

I move closer to him and kisses his nose. "I miss being here with you."

"I'm here now. You're probably starving. I'm gonna go make some lunch for us." He kisses the top of my head, even though were the exact same height. Theo can cook really well. He makes us vegetable stew since he's vegetarian. But its so delicious smelling. He's just so perfect.

After we were done eating we cuddled up together watching TV. I looked up at him as his arm is around my waist. I kiss his chin. I traced up to his ear softly nibbling it. "I want you." I whisper to him as he turns his head towards me.

Theo leans and connects his lips with mine. He lays on top of me kissing me deeper as the tips of my fingers run through his short soft hair. He groans, as I pull it slightly. As he humps my leg roughly. I notice a bulge rubbing against my thigh making me giggle. He breaks from our kiss and kisses down my neck to my chest. He looks up at me as he slowly pulls up my shirt. I blush remembering I didn't put a bra on. I softly moan as his mouth makes its way to my nipple, Making it hard. "Oh baby." I cried out. I want him to take me.

Then the memory of Ansel in the shower with me pops up. I get wet from the thought of him in there with me

What. No! You like Theo. I love Theo.

I closed my eyes as I push his head down. I feel him kissing my stomach. I moan from his soft lips grazing against my bare skin. He then sits up and slowly takes off his shirt. His chest is buff, but not too much. He was tone. He is so perfect. Perfect unlike me.zz

"Come here." I whisper to him. He does immediately kissing my lips passionately then pulling away. I didn't want to think about those things. I just want him to fuck me. He touches my ankle and rubs his hands up to my knees. He grabs underneath my thighs and pulls me close to him. He smiles with his face is just above the top hem of my panties. He inhales and moves his head in the direction of my inner thigh. He kisses, soft painful delicious kisses on me and licks around my panties. My wetness seeps through them hoping he doesn't notice. But he does. He puts his nose against my clit and rubs it through my underwear. I whimper softly under my breath. He inhales and rubs his hand against my womanhood.

"Can I?." He asks gesturing to take off my panties. I nod. He roughly takes them off and pulls me even closer to him. He takes me in his mouth and I can't help but let a loud squeal from my mouthvescape from the feeling. He licks with slowly enticing licks making me shake, from the pleasure he is already giving me. He plunges a finger inside me and moves it slow but deep. He sits up and puts in two fingers and thrust them up. I feel my climax come but I want it to last. He thrust his fingers faster inside. I push my head down in the sofa causing my back to arch. He puts his head down and licks my clitoris slowly in circles.

Fuck.

"I'm going to..." I say quietly. My voice is shaky and I don't even know if he hears me.

"Come for me Xia." He says. His voice is so cute. I let my body go as he pulls out his fingers. I gasped, gripping the couch. Theo leans on top of me, making me kiss him again still panting from my orgasm. I softly kiss him back. I pull back staring into his eyes almost out of breath. He fingered me, but I lusted more, still wanting more. I wrap my hands around his waist, tugging on his jeans. He looks at me. He sits me up and takes off my shirt fully. I unzip and unbuckle his pants. I notice that my hands are shaking. We haven't had sex since last spring. That was are first time we did it together. But, I still feel a bit nervous. He noticed my hesitation and kisses me on the lips again. After pulling away, he stands up and takes it off himself with him only in his boxers. He sits down, beside me pulling me on his lap. My legs were straddled on him. I was completely naked. His hands brushed against my bare skin. I rubbed against his throbbing bulge. A groan came deep from his chest. "Jesus Xia you're so hot." He picks me up and puts me under him. He yanks his boxers off revealing his erection. I suddenly get even nervous than before. He strokes my cheek before leaning to kiss me. He takes out a condom from the table desk and rips it open it and puts it on. He then pulls my hips closer to him. He puts his cock slowly inside me, and stars thrusting forward with full energy. I yelp in pleasure. His thrust are so soft like the first time he made love with me. He kisses my lips then softly down my chest, filling me up more of him. I wrap my legs around his waist making him closer than he already is.

"Theo.." I cry out to him. He goes faster and I can't handle it. His love shows so much by the way he makes love to me.

But does mine show?

I'm so close.

Before we could finish a loud knock came from the door, making us both jerk apart from another. I quickly put on my shirt as Theo pulls his pants on. I slip on my panties, even though they are completely soaked. I groan and slide them on along with my pants. I run to the door opening it.

"Ahhh so you are here." Unannounced, my Mother stands in front of me with a crooked smile. My mother lives 2 hours away from this town. She has black hair and brown eyes. But I get most of my features from my dad.

"Mom? I didn't know you'd be in town? How did you know I was here?"

"Well you didn't answer my call, so I went on my way, to the cafe to see if you're working there and I saw your car parked in this apartment complex, I remember coming here once." She takes a peep in the apartment noticing Theo standing with his shirt off. "Oh yes, Theo lives here."

"Yeah.." I say blushing. "Mom why were you looking for me?"

Theo suddenly puts his arms around my waist looking at my mother. Not realizing he was coming towards me. "Oh Hi Ms. Montgomery, been a while."

My mother smiles with her teeth "It has, I came to find my daughter so we could go out to eat for an early dinner." She looks at me with her eyebrows raised.

I look at my phone seeing that its 3:32."Ugh.. Yeah sure, let me go home and change and I'll meet you at Panera Bread at 5:00" I say fake smiling. I kiss Theo on the cheek. "I'll call you!"

Me and my mother walk down the apartment stairs.

"So you and Theo, got closer over the summer?" My mother questions.

I feel my whole face turning red. "Yeah I guess."

"Well I'm glad, Haven't seen you with a man since Highschool." My mother laughs. I roll my eyes. Once we get to the parking lot I walk to my car.

"I'll see you in a little bit." I shout out to her. I sigh in relief once I get inside. It's been awhile since I've seen her.

My family is rich, Filthy rich. I should not be working to pay for the small house I have right now, but I didn't want to rely on my parents money and success. Unless I really need it. My mother insists on me moving in with her until I settle down and get married, but I said no. This was the town I was raised in before my parents moved, and I don't want to leave until I'm ready. I'm 21 and believe it or not I'm not ready to leave. Nor live with my parents again. I'm mutual with them, but not on a personal level. They- well my mom always lets me down with everything. It's gotten to the point her showing up without a call scares me. Preparing myself to get disappointed once again.

Once I arrive to my house I go inside and slam the door.

Din with mother, great.

I strip off my clothes and run to the bathroom turning on the water. I look at myself in the mirror. Theo left marks on me. I touch them noticing how cold my hands are. I proceed in studying my body. I've very pale for being half black. My skin is pasty white. I look away stepping into the shower. I like my showers hot. Hot enough that would give you blisters. I stand under the shower head letting my body soak in the hot water. My hair starts to curl from it. I wash and rinse my hair. I proceed in washing myself. While touching my body I remember Theo's hands rubbing down my back and up to my breast. I moan to myself from the memory. I get out the shower drying myself. I blow dry my hair, afterwards I straighten it because I hate my natural hair. I apply a bit of powder and lip gloss. My mother is very formal, and probably felt embarrassed seeing me wearing a tank and my hair a mess. I pick out a turtleneck dress and pop on my army green jacket getting my keys and purse.

I arrive at Panera's. I look inside and see my mother.

Calm down. Just act like what she says doesn't bother you.

I walk to my mother, plastering a fake smile on my face. She sees me coming and stands up making her way to me for a hug. The hug was awkwardly long.

"My My, you look great. Better than what you looked like at Theo's apartment." My mother laughed as I forcefully laughed with her. I sit down in front of her.

"Funny.. Um is dad meeting us here?" I questioned.

"No No, you know your father is always working. But there was an Emergency at the hospital anyways so." My mother takes a sip of her drink, like no big deal. I fake smile at her again. I look around and see that it's packed with many people. I haven't been here since last year, gladly. Lots of women always come here, to talk about how they cheated on their husbands, or how they had too many calories already in the day. It's disgusting and revolting. It's why my mother fits perfectly here.

"So mom, what brings you here in Birmingham?" I honestly don't know. Despite insulting me, about how I live my life.

"Shouldn't I want to just see my daughter? I do miss you nowadays." My mother puts her hand on mine.

"Well if you missed me enough you would've came over for Christmas, or at least Thanksgiving." I say, my voice sounds a bit rude, I cough trying to hide it.

"You know I had plans , Plus I would think Theo would give you company."

Excuses, of course.

"Theo can be a bit busy some days Mom."

"See exactly my point, me and your Father are busy most of the time." She looks at me with her eyebrows raised. Giving me her sincere fake signature look.

"Busy enough to forget my birthday."
She didn't even apologize about it.

"God Xia, your grudge habit is absurd, thought you'd grow out of that long ago." She says in a comedic tone. We haven't even started eating and I already am done with this Dinner.

"Well mother.." I snatch my hand from hers standing up from my chair "If that's all you have to say to me then I should be going-"

"Now calm down Alexia."

"My name is Xia!!" I scowl at her. I hate it when she calls me by my full name. I notice some people looking in our direction. Interrupting their low calorie meals.

"I'm your mother Alexia, now sit down and let me talk."

This is why I don't answer her calls.
I give in and sit in my chair. The waiter comes and ask us for something to drink.

"Ice water." My mother makes eye contact with me.

"Ice water with lemon, thank you." I say keeping eye contact with my mother. The man walks away.

"Your arrogant scenes always end up barbaric.Wish you were more like Lena" Comparing me to my sister, great. My sister is adopted but I know she's the daughter my mother always wanted. Mother looks at the people around us, smiling at them with her teeth. I continue looking at her. "Listen, me and your father are having a party on Valentine's day we're hoping you'd come and bring Theo along."

"What if I'm busy?" I respond instantly. My mother looks directly in my eyes. Her smile is gone. I frown, feeling a bit afraid of the look she's giving me.

"Don't be.. Some of the people from my office are coming, family members and friends are hoping to see you. I promised you'd be here and I just knew you'd say yes to me."

"What if I say no?" I test her. Before she could answer, the waiter comes back with my lemon water. He then ask me and my mother what we wanted to eat. Of course my mother ordered a salad. I ordered a BLT, cold cut sandwich with cheddar soup. The man then walks away.

"The party is in a month on Valentine's day on a Saturday. You probably have work but I will pay you $1000 just to miss one day." My mother insists. I rather inhale disgusting coffee grounds, than be at a party with my mother and her stupid friends, eating stupid expensive food. But I do need that money. Her eyes remain on mine.

"Fine." I utter.

After lunch I kiss my mother goodbye. Luckily she only came to invite me to her party. My phone rings and I see that it's Quinn. I answer while I get inside my car.

"Hey chica, didn't you get my text?" Quinn says, I look at my phone pressing recent messages. 5 new messages popped up.

"Oh I'm sorry .. I was with my mother.." I mutter under my breath.

"Ooh, I'm sorry about that X." Quinn knows how my mother is towards me. Though since my family is rich she would love to be me. I would trade my family with hers in a heartbeat.

"I was at Theo's this morning, then she came over and-"

"You were at Theo's?!" Quinn shrieks making me jump a little. "Details Xia! You haven't been to his house in centuries!! Tell me the deets!" She squeals loudly.

I start the engine. I drive slowly out of the parking lot. I look at my rear view mirror. "There is nothing I'm going to tell you about what happened with me and The-"

Suddenly I see a man walk in front of my car. Only to see it's not a random person. I immediately stop. My chest hits the wheel of my car, realizing I forgot to put on my seat belt.

"Fucking hell!" I shout out angrily. Ansel looks in my direction realizing that he walked in front of my car, AGAIN. "Quinn lemme call you back." I hang up on the phone watching him. He smirks and walks to my window. I roll it down. "Do you have some sort of secret fetish of walking in front of cars unknowingly?" I questioned him. His grey eyes gaze into mine.

" It's just your car that I have a fetish of." He says but I'm not amused. "I'm sorry. I was on my way meeting a friend and they bailed on me." He runs his hands through his hair out of irritation.

I looked at him confused.

Am I supposed to feel sorry for him or something?

"Do you want to join me for some coffee then?" He smiles, showing his pearly white teeth.

"I'm sorry..." I look down at my lap. "I don't particularly like coffee."

He frowns. He looks at my lips and back at my eyes again. "Are you just saying that cause you don't want to." He raises his eyebrows. "This isn't grade school Xia."

"No-No.. I.." I stumble over my words blushing. "I do I mean.. I don't mind getting something.. J-Just not coffee.. I hate coffee." My lips close in a straight line looking into his eyes. He looks almost apologetic, like he didn't mean to ask that to me. Then he smiles again. He intimidates me so much, and I don't know why.

"Is tea okay?" He asks.
This is not a date. Well I hope its not to him.

I rubbed my chest. It'll be one hell of a bruise tomorrow. I sigh.

"Sure."