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The noises from the party seemed to fade and grow silent. I was here for a meeting with my mother. She did tell me it would be after this party. But she has been avoiding me ever since I got here. Like she's not telling me something. Though she doesn't tell me a lot of things, so I don't find it much of a surprise, I just end up finding it out on my own. When I saw Alexia I had no idea what she was doing here or how my mother knew her. The room fell faint with Jules's revolting guests, clueless to our conversation. No one else said a word but Xia's expression tells it all. Xia's once rosy pink skin face, turned pale. Her lips are parted into an "o" out of what looks like shock. I stare at her in confusion. Her eyes lock on to mine, I couldn't read her disturb look. I notice now what she's wearing. Looking down at her body slowly, she looks absolutely stunning in that gold dress. She looked so beautiful, it shaped her wide hips and her curves from her breast perfectly. She looked so much more amazing than the people wearing red and pink here. But something inside me is eating me alive. How does she know Jules? I let out a breath of air prepared to say something, anything to break the silence. Then Xia beats me at it.

"Your son?" Xia questions very loudly making a few people stare.

"Jeez Xia, they're guest here. Come with me to somewhere exclusive." She glares at me giving me permission to follow as well. I walk behind Xia who doesn't turn to acknowledge me. I don't think much of it. She walks straight following Jules who leads us out of the dining room and kitchen that people were in. We walk upstairs to the second floor. Turning right into a dark room that resembled a bedroom. It had a huge window for anyone to see through, only if they were on the second floor of course. Xia turns the lights on and closes the door as mother closes the curtains. I run my hands through my hair as an nervous impulse.

"Now, what do you mean by "my son"?" Xia starts still not looking at me.

"Ansel, this is Alexia, my daughter." I look at Jules shockingly. Then it all hits me now. The same last names, the wicked terrible mother problems Xia would tell me, rich as shit, lives out of town. Going to her mother's Valentine's party. It all makes sense. Makes perfect sense, but why haven't I ever made these connections? My heart stops and I look at Xia. Her big brown eyes vehement into mine and the pain creeps up into my chest spreading across my body. What, wait that can't be true. She's half black.

"This-That can't be true. What?" I question.

Jules sighs in frustration. "Alexia, when I cheated on your father back when we were just boyfriend and girlfriend. The first time it was with this man that lived in New York. I was young and foolish and I got pregnant. I tried to have an abortion but the procedure didn't work. After the baby was born I gave it to his father and told him I would pay for his college if he couldn't take care of him since at the time his father was diagnosed with cancer. The baby was Ansel." Xia looks at me with her watered eyes. Her stare is painfully upset. She looks so scared, shocked.

"So you are saying we are.." Alexia pauses, not going to finish her sentence.

"Half brother and sister?" I continue for her. She looks at me then back at Jules.

"Precisely." Mother says without hesitance. Xia puts her hands over her mouth gasping. Her eyes tear up more. She doesn't let the tears come so she closes them shut. Looking at her makes me feel her pain too. I feel as if my lungs ran out of oxygen and that I'm choking on every toxic gas in the ozone layer. Everything hurts, everything is aching so badly. "Now, not to interrupt this shocking reveal but I have a few questions of my own. Tell me how you two know each other?" She asks Xia. Xia's eyes shoot up right to Jules and walks, nearly runs up to her furiously.

"You do not deserve any fucking explanation. You never told me, in my whole 21 years of living that I had a blood sibling, A BROTHER! You never told me this shit. You don't get to ask the questions mother. I do, Why didn't you tell me?!" Xia shouts. She's only a few inches taller than Jules but still makes her stumble back some.

"You didn't need to know, HE'S IRRELEVANT!" She shouts back.

"I should be able to know. No matter what you think I should've been told this." Xia paces back and forth in front of Mother. "You've lied to me all these years." Xia's glossed eyes end up into tears. They drop multiple times, streaming down her cheeks now. But all I can see on her face is pure rage. "What kind of mother are you?" She asks but it comes out as a painful statement.

"The mother who doesn't want him in your life, bothering you, making you do things just like his pathetic father." How can she talk like that about him when he's already in his grave. She has already told me of how much of a nussicance I am but she does not to get to talk about him when he's dead.

"Don't talk about him like he was nothing. You had sex with him. Yes you and only YOU did. Do not blame this on him you gave consent, you had your fun then you broke his heart when you knew he was sick. You left and didn't look back from it." I walk to her hunching over her small frame.

"You think I would stay with that rat? I had a family, him and me were a mistake. You were a mistake." I open my mouth to say something then Xia interrupts again.

"And I'm not?" Xia's eyes are bloodshot, she's crying even more now. But she's not showing her pain. I never realized how tough she is until now. She is crying so hard but not giving in to whimper, to reminisce. She's fighting through the hurt. Which I've never mastered doing. Even now, after Faye is out of my life.

"Of course not Alexia. You're my daughter." She doesn't give a shit.

"But he's not really your son?" Mother clears her throat trying to push aside the guilt she has towards leaving us for years. 27 years and now she feels remorse.

"It's different Alexia you wouldn't understand."

"How so? What you're saying here mother, is that if I was the daughter of his Dad you wouldn't give a shit about me. That's what I've been hearing, is that you never gave a shit about Ansel. You were never gonna pay for his college in the first place." Jules mouth grins into a wide smile and begins laughing. We stare at her appalled. How can somebody be so veil?

"Ha, wait don't tell me you two are in love." Silence filled the room. I looked at Alexia through the corner of my eyes, her face cries with shame. She turns away from me and Jules while putting her hands on her face. "So it's true? What about Theo, how do you think he's going to react Alexia, react that your a slut."

"You're not going to tell him." Xia keeps her back away from us. I get a bit angry on how she just called her a slut but I calm myself down.

"I'm not? Ha, he deserves to know about your revolting sin." That makes her turn around and walks towards her, she lifts her hand to smack Jules but before she does I rush to her and grab her arm. She still remains eye contact with her. "Try to hit me honey. That wont make much of a difference with what you've been doing. It's an abonation."

"Sin? SIN? You want to talk about sin now? You have cheated on my father, not just once, or twice but three times!"
Xia's voice cracks a little bit from the crying but she does not care one bit.

"I've made my mistakes, there alll in the past now." God what is wrong with this women.

"Yes and I have made a mistake too, so you will keep this in the past too Mother or Dad will find out about 2 and 3." She threatens harshly. Mistake?

"Are you threatening me? Your mother?" Jules looks at Xia shockingly.

"No, I'm promising you, I won't hesitate to tell him." Xia snatches her arm away from my grip.

"You know I might've cheated but at least I didn't cheat with my brother, that's the worst type of cheating. A sin that will haunt you." Xia stops crying only in total hatred towards mother. "Stay away from him Xia, and all this can be gone from our conscience." Xia's eyes pierce our mother's and she doesn't say anything to her. Jules puts her hand on her cheek now "Alexia darling don't look at me like that. I do love you I just want what is best for you. Ansel is not it." Xia spits in her mother's face as she walks to the door opening it keeping eye contact with her until she walks out. Jules wipes off the spit that Xia planted on her forehead. I try following Xia until she grabs my forearm.

"Stay away from her boy. Let her live her life." She jerks me away from the door.

"Her life? She can't live her life with you always screwing it up. You should've told her who I was, you did this-."

"No I stopped it, before someone gets pregnant." She's talking about my father.

"No mother, Xia isn't like you. She will never be like you." I snatch my grip from her taking two steps until I turn back at her to say something. "How does it feel to have your own daughter hate you." Her venomous stares through me as I break the contact and walk out the door. I go back downstairs looking for Xia. Walking through rooms where people are. That's where I assume she'll be. Several minutes later I see her walking towards the doors. I run to her to make sure she doesn't go through them. I end up grabbing her wrist making her turn around. Her face is soaked with tears that smeared her makeup under her eyes. I wiped her tears away. She still looked beautiful, so beautiful. I didn't care what our mother said about us. I still love her more than anything. I'm not letting Jules ruin my life again. "Alexia." I slur out her name so she would look at me.

"We can't do this here Ansel, there is people.." I look to my right where Jules's guest are oblivious to us but still very close. "Come." Xia takes me to a room on the left side which looks like another dining room. After entering she turns around facing me but her eyes remained on my chest. Her tears began again. It hurt me to see her like this. I lift her chin up making her gaze up at me. Her brown eyes are red and glossy.

"Everything will be okay." I say hopeful.

"How do you know Ansel.. This.."

"It will be okay." I interrupt her. I cup her face with my hands. "We have about 6 more months until your graduation, then you can live with me. Away from this. Away from her. The longing pain will go away Alexia, I promise. " Xia jerks my hands away from her face. She looks up at me in confusion then it turns into what looks like upsetness . She begins walking around in circles with her hands on her face. "What is it?" I ask scared.

"What is it?!" She explodes. "Do.." She laughs nervously. "Do you really think after finding out you're my brother I'd still move with you to New York?" Reality hits me and I stay still. Her eyes water more. "You did? Didn't you?"

"Half brother." I correct her.

" 'Cause that makes it better." She scoffs.

"Alexia it can still work, moving away. No one will know, or find out." I move to her but she rejects pushing me away angrily.

"How will it still work? You- You're my brother." She pauses while her eyes grow wide. "Oh my god, we did things together, I did.." She puts her hand over her mouth. "We almost had sex. Something told me- Something told me to fucking wait. Wait until after the party, I'm so glad I waited. I wanted to make love with you.." She runs her hands through her shiny black hair. Xia eyes travel to the ground, while her tears stream on her lips. " I-I love you." She looks at me now petrified. "I love you." I walk over to her slowly.

"I love you too, Alexia." She pushes me away again.

"No! Do you not get it? I love you. I love you, my brother. That's disgusting." Everytime she says that word my heart aches. Xia sees my changed expression as her face softens.

"Alexia.." Then it goes back to hard, stern, someone else I haven't seen before.

"Stop calling me that. You can't call me that anymore. I-I can't Ansel. I'm sorry but no. I-It's over." She pauses. "Were over."

No it can't be, I love her. I clasp her arm pulling her closer to me. She looks at me sharply warning me not to but I ignore it, crushing my lips into hers. Her lips kiss mine back softly. Tasting her saltness from her tears until I can't taste anymore. She jerks backwards from the heat we created. I suddenly feel a fast motion hitting across my face. I put my hand on my cheek now realizing she slapped me. I stumble a little to the ground. It doesn't hurt just it was a surprise. She caught me off guard. "You said that you wouldnt touch me again and you broke it mutiple times but it will not be like that with me." She squats down so my face is an inch from hers. "Listen to me closely Ansel. You will never touch me again, ever." She says harshly. I see her tears not stopping at all and mine might began.

"Alexia, don't do this. Don't fight your emotions again." I slowly try standing up but fail miserably. The slap somehow made me wobbly.

"It's not about emotions anymore Ansel. This is wrong. We are wrong. I can't." She walks to the door as I watch her.

"Alexia, please..." I cry out for her. She grips the door handle as I'm only able to see the side of her face. She whispers something that I wish I didn't hear.

"Goodbye Ansel." Xia's tears drip to the floor as she runs out the door, I hear her heels tapping against the hard wood floor until I can't hear it anymore. My eyes water. I wipe my face making them stop. No I can't, this can't be happening. I can't lose anyone else. The slap doesn't bother me anymore so I stand up. I walk out the door in my attempt to go after her. But I cannot see her. I lure through the rooms surrounded around guest, family, empty bodies that wore expensive clothing and I still couldn't find her. Was I looking for my heart or what could never be mine anymore? What felt like hours was several minutes I stopped looking. I took a glass of champagne to stop the tears from streaming. I chug it fast feeling the after stung as it rolls down my throat giving me satsfication. Reaching for another glass, I stand against a wall while the music and chatter become louder drowning me. I take another glass and drink half of it. I shouldn't be drinking this alcohol, it ruins me when I'm hurt. My father was an extreme alcoholic it got worst after Jules left, it's how he got his cancer. I guess that gene sadly passed to me. I would usually have a drink once in a while so I wouldn't trigger it. I swore to myself to not drink like this. But I don't care now. That promise is bullshit. I'm so scared I lost the one person that made me happy. I wasn't going to let the pain creep inside me like it did with Faye. I have hope, I'll find her. I love her, I love you Xia.

On my 6th glass and that's when I see Jules again laughing with her guest. This alcohol makes me not have any self-control so I walk up to her without a thought to stop. "What are you still doing here haven't you done enough." I angrily drunk shout.

"This is my house. Ugh you reek." Her friends look at me with disgust in there eyes. But I do not care.

"You are a bitch, you ruined my life."

"You think Xia was your life? You two were bound to find out." She laughs between her sentence.

"Fuck you. FUCK ALL OF YOU'RE FUCKED UP GUESTS AND FAMILY MEMBERS!" I push down a tray of champagne glasses from a waiter, and throw a plate of horderves across the wall. I didn't care. People gasps and step back from me. The music continued, I found that kinda funny.

"Get him out of here!" I hear my mother shout as two; what looked like bodyguards grabbed me under my arms. I wasn't going to be carried like a fucking bitch. Without hesitatance I punch one of them in the eye. The guard stumbles to the ground with his hand on it as it bleeds. The other one still grabs me and draggs me out of the room. He directs me to the front of the house and throws me down the stairs of the front entrance.

"Everyone stay calm. I am so sorry for the disturbance." I hear my mother say before the doors are slammed in my face. I Groan in pain from how I was thrown out. I still get up unsteadily. With the pride I had left I stuck my middle finger up towards the house.

Turning around I see a pair of fervent big brown eyes staring through me. Alexia. She bites her sweet lips. I take a few steps towards her until I stop, seeing her mouthed an "no" through her car mirror. We stay in eye contact. Her eyes showed a sight of her I've never met. She must've been crying in her car the whole time I was looking for her. Was this going to be the last time I see her. If not why did my heart say otherwise. It ached and the pain was coming through. Xia starts her car and no longer looks at me as she goes to the gate of the house. When it opens she drives out in the night. Xia was gone. She was literally gone from my life. The searing pain came to me once she left. The alcohol got to my heart, and that's when I couldn't hold it in anymore. The hot wet drops came drowning my cold cheeks. I sobbed in my palms and let the pain seap all inside me. The pain I thought I was never going to feel again since I divorced Faye...

Heartbreak.

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