The warmth of covers persuaded me to sleep more. The pain in my thighs same as yesterday. I ran out my hand through my sweat pants and touched my thigh, the way I felt them are bigger than yesterday. I moved my legs in the same position my foot hit on  something hard and it fell down with a loud thud. I didn't care at all. But at once the thought came "the salt from last night".  His eyes were the last thing I remembered. "What is the time now? " suddenly I wanted to know the time. I searched my phone on my bed but failed to find it. The Sun was not peeping from my bedroom door as usual. I wokeup suddenly, even my body hurt. Slowly I kept my legs on the floor and I felt that salt  bottle was broken. I walked to downstairs. House was too quiet. And a blood smell caught my mind. The digital clock on the living room wall displayed 13.00 and evening had come already. I had slept for a long time. Blood smell got stronger as i was close to parent's bedroom.
 I was freezen from the sudden image on my eyes. Blood drops all over the floor.

"Mom ,Dad, Luka "

I called them but no answer. I ran back to my room.

"Kota kota"

I murmured.
The only person that comes to my mind when I'm in a trouble. The phone was on my studying table.  I dialled kota.

"Zoey"

Kota replied over the phone.

"Kota can you come to me I'm afraid "

I told him while sobbing.

"Listen don't get out from the room I'll come soon"

Dakota replied me in a kind voice.

Tears streamed down. And I was shivering. Thousands of bad thoughts dug my sadness Garve.  I plugged my earbuds and turned the song in to high volume.

*

I miss her beautiful eyes. They are tighten than before. Her whole body is numb. The continous  beep sound made me hopeless. Hitting my head on the glass wall is the only thing helps me out to console my self. Lukas' continuous cries never gonna end. Consoling words of dad better than other days but Luka don't need to console himself. I blamed myself. This all happend becuse of me. It's been 2 days since she was like this.  Lukas' cries getting worst. He screaming a lot while hitting fathers shoulder.

"Dad I'll take care of him"

Dad placed Luka on my hands, his cries so louder. I walked to the roof top of the hospital.

"Hey love , your little mommy is here"

I hugged him tightly while placed a kiss on his forehead. He missed the warmth of mom. He didn't stop crying. He hold my      t- shirt tightly and cried on my chest. Tears streamed like a river. I did my best to console him.

*

"Zoey is everything fine? You look so pale since morning and you don't have much strength while dancing today. "

"Yeh nothing wrong at all " I replied Keva with a wide smile while showing my braces.

"You are good at lying and your smile can fade away someone's sadness"

I smiled at her again.

"Keva I need to go home early today, I know I'm not cheerleading well but for today let me go home "

" Yeh sure Zoey,  rest well I wish you'll be fine soon. We have 3 more days , don't worry "

I rested my head on my knees. Luka may be crying on dad's shoulder. Innocent kid! he did nothing wrong .

*

"hey metal mouth"
 
Someone called behind me. I didn't turn around because no one calls me "metal mouth " .

"Hey I'm calling you, Zoey"

I turned around . It was simon. A big plaster on his forhead. And some scars all over his face. I replied him with a wide smile showing my braces.

"You look so cute when you smile while showing your braces"

My cheeks turned into red. It's been days since I last saw him.
I wanted to ask him what is wrong with him but I didn't. May be something, private.
Today he even too has a big mouth. I wanted to ask him if he is ok or not, but I'm not sure he'll open up for me or not.

"Simon what about your face"
 
 I asked him without looking at him.

"Something happend yesterday Zoey "
 
He replied in his usual tone while giving me his short smile.

"By the way I didn't see you around these days "
 
Simon asked me before I replied, same thing i asked from him. We walked to the bus halt chatting about football encounter. We forgot our real world for some time.

*

Three days befor the football encounter was the most tired days.
Tu,Keva, Usha, Ute became very important beings in my life during those days. They helped me a lot to do my part best. Keva is a beauty queen , most of the time boys gather around cheerleading room and at the end of each and every day corner of the cheerleading room filled with snacks. So we didn't have to buy food for dinner at all.
I didn't saw Dakota since the day he message my foot.

*

Everyone told me I was so cute with the cheerleading outfit. I was blushed more than I expected. Before the match, I went to the area where football team wait, to see Dakota.
When I went there, all the members stared at me except Dakota with a smirk on the side of his face.

"Zoey you look really pretty"
 
They shouted at once while making a huge noise. I blushed with shyness.

"Kota do your best"
 
I told him from distance. His hazel eyes attached to the screen of the phone.  He didn't mind me even he didn't made a move. I waited few minutes till he replied me. I wanted to hug him like we did in good old days. Like he did without letting me breath for minutes. Murmuring of team members filled in my eyes. I waited patiently for his reply but he didn't. So I talked to him again.

"Kota ..........."

"When did you let me live happily on my own without being nuisance to me telling same thing each and every day "

He shouted to me in front of everyone. They didn't say a word. They console Dakota. My eyes filled with tears. I hold them and ran away.

*

I made many mistake while Cheerleading. I was out of mind.

*
 Dakota's team won this time too. He was very happy. They took so many photos and he shared hugs with each and everyone, I watched him from distance. I avoided his parents becuse I don't know how to face them. I put my earbuds inside my ears and increased the volume. I rested and closed my eyes. " kota kota " the only word ran on my mind.

"Idiot"

I heard someone call me idiot with the higher sound of music. I opened my eyes, Dakota was standing in front of me. He hugged me suddenly. The warmth I missed for years, the bad smell of sweat wich was familiar for me, the pats to my back which console my cries, tears ran down of my cheeks. I don't have an idea why  I was crying.  He made the hug tight. Flash lights around us.

"Listen ...................."
 
He loosened the hug and murmured to my ears. I tighten my hug and grabbed his t-shirt tightly. I sobbed loudly . Dakota patted my head many times........

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