as soon as i heard footsteps that were nearing
my room
i tried to wipe my tears away
i tried to calm myself
but as i took a glimpse
of what the screen at my dslr
portrays
i can't stop the feeling
of being hurt
you didn't reciprocated my love
park jimin
but i'm sure we both hate each other right now
at least you are returning something right?
i laughed at myself
i hate you for making me love you
and it's becoming illegal
and you hate me because i'm the antagonist in your
sweet love affair with seunyang
he then barged into the room
he was holding a tray with some food on it
how thoughtful of you
jeon
if it was jimin that was holding that tray right now
i should've kissed him
but no
he put the tray down
and sat beside me
feeling the weight of him
as the mattress adjust
" didn't i tell you not to cry just because of jimin hyung? "
he said
without looking at me
i looked at his hands
they were trembling
"don't hate your hyung just because of your feelings for me jungkook."
i said as i walked towards the window
admiring the scenery
"what do you want me to fucking feel? mina? to love hyung more? because you are suffering so much pain right now? ever since that day you came to our first fan meet, i became interested in you, and -"
he can't speak his heart out
hmm, it's ok
he's so vulnerable
right now
and i'm fighting the urge to not to rush
to his side and hug him
he looked at me
and i can see that his tears are threatening to fall
oh how beautiful, you truly are
jeon jungkook
but i'm sorry

"nothing. because once you start on having your feelings involved, you should be ready to die, emotionally, because every time you risk,when it comes to love, you need to be aware that there are only two outcomes. to be loved or to not be loved back."