i should accept all of it right?
that you won't ever want me the way
i want you
i feel miserable as always
i hated losing so freaking much
i abhor this feeling
i can't fucking believe him
he would still stay by that slut's side
i pushed jungkook because he hugged me while i was facing the door
taking the bottle of liquor from the fridge
i opened it and drank with all my might
and slumped at the floor, he heaved a sigh
"you really love him."
i chuckled
"how i hate it, jungkook."
i glanced at the boy who's head is now thrown back
he too was leaning against the wall
sitting across me
"why?"
his eyes met with mine
"i've suffered enough and he still loves her, mission failed."
laughing once again
i took a drink
my lone hiccups filled the air
he was just lost with his thoughts
staring at the wooden floor
while i drank myself with liquor
"jungkook"
he looked at me
i searched his eyes and smirked
"help me get over him."
"you're drunk."
he, too laughed
"i thought you firmly believe your love for him and that i had no chance of winning you."
i frowned
he was hurt
any moment now
any days from now
he'll think of moving on
i'm unconsciously letting him slip from my fingers
i won't have someone now
i can't
i might get insane
"i'm not jimin, i'm not merciless."
his name slipped from my mouth
effortlessly
i drank once again

cheer up
pour up
get up
for yourself and jungkook

i should get over him
but i'm starting to feel empty

without him