it's a good thing that i already
vented out my feelings last night
hangover and shit's real but
jeon gave me painkillers this morning
yes, he slept in my apartment last night
but that's it
with puffy eyes i searched the school grounds for you know who
that was my habit ok
i muttered to get over him when jungkook stopped to greet the other members
they also greeted me and they were joking stuff about yoongi
"jungkook, i think you've got a rival here."
hoseok joked and yoongi
i think?
glared at him
"hyung?"
jeon then suspiciously looked at him
"nah, she's not my type."
i fumed
"well, who the fuck told you that you're my type either?"
i sassed at him real damn hard
"now you are now."
he smirked at me
i flushed
well that would shut me up
"jungkook, chill dongsaeng."
namjoon massaged his shoulders
i knew jungkook was so damn mad right now
but why was yoongi hitting on me
what am i
a playtoy?
fuck him then
jeon grabbed my arm and we headed
to the rooftop
where the whole campus was seen completely
"what is it?"
he was pissed
he kept ruffling his hair and walking
back and forth
"i still have class in 30 minutes."
"i'm jealous."
"i won't stick with yoongi, plus it's just a petty joke."
i rolled my eyes at him
"he seemed like a threat."
"he's not, he was just testing your temper."
"i just-"
"the fuck jeon! why meddle on that kind of issue? and besides it's not like i would go with him, instead of you."
i screamed, why does he think like that?
"he is also your hyung! he won't be a threat. if you're scared and all, plus i'm not a slut to whore around with yoongi if i'm already giving you a chance."
i'm not like her
"jimin is also my hyung but he managed to steal your attention right away, why do you think that all of these is just easy for you?"
he was angry
i can see his veins that are about to pop from his neck
"oh because you're not the one who'll hope until the end right? i'm the one. if i'll get left behind, you'll be okay, because i'm just a substitute for him."
he was clenching his hands for a long time now
he turned away
i can't bring myself to speak because
all of the words from him mouth was

true

so i watched him leaving me like that
i just stood there
and for the first time

i felt this way

these tears weren't because of him

it was because of jungkook