he was sitting at the edge of the cliff
i was not the only one who was
flabbergasted by the text i received from jimin
jungkook was too
of course the move got me off guard
for all I know, he hated me for giving disparaging remarks
towards seunyang
i chuckled
old days
that awoke jimin from his daydream and was about to get off his seat
to meet me
i just patted his left shoulder and sat with him
and the familiar beat of my heart then thumped
constant move that i felt whenever he was around
a mere but not awkward silence engulfed us
"so."
prolonging the "o" sound

"i'm sorry."
he said, not looking at me

i carefully studied him
his eyes looking at the terrifying height that welcomed us
his hair being blown by the wind
raven hair
it was my favorite
it suited him more
his small pointed nose
edged jawline, as if it was carved by a woodsman
i then ripped my eyes off him
"what for?"

he then looked up at the sky
opposite to the gloomy boy next to me, the sky was bright

"i, treated you like shit."

i smirked at the reply
i looked at him and then our gazes met
it was really astonishing on how his eyes glowed
"it's alright, well technically speaking, I really got hurt."
i chuckled, he smiled, a sad one
forced actually

"but, you're in love that time, and you still are right now
so it's not your fault. i can't teach you to love me when you're already caught up to someone."

i smiled while picking up the grass one by one
my gaze directed at the ground
jimin and i were sitting facing each other
he was watching my movements, it made me anxious but i shrugged it off

"thank you."
he paused

"i just realized that what you said was true and i regret-"

"no, jimin, what i've said and done in the past were wrong, i even spied over you and seunyang, a couple of times."

i smirked with my actions
his eyes doubled in size and i laughed
"i was also the one who barged in her apartment when you two were making out and it was an awkward experience."

"that was the day i found you at the bar?"

"yes. i'm an idiot."
i laughed and shook my head a couple of times
i considered that as idiocy at its finest

"i didn't know that seunyang was suffering."
i sighed, the atmosphere dropped again

"but her cheating was out of the line, i, i really loved her."
i winced
his eyes were becoming glossy

"it came to the point when i thought that, she was using me for mere pleasure."

"she loved you jimin, i bet she still does."

"if she did, she would've told me earlier and went to therapist so that we can have a healthy relationship! she also kept things from me! if it wasn't for you, i would not found out that she had that past."

"we could've sorted things out if she had not kept things from me."

he was shaking

anger
rage

i didn't know

"i love her, mina, but i can't take it. i, i regret everything."

"jimin."
that's when he cried
i don't know what to do
his shoulders were vibrating with the sobs that he were holding

"it hurts mina."

"i really regret the things i've done. she was also my first."

"i love her, i still love choi fucking seunyang."
i patted his head
and he looked at me
i removed my hand placed at the top of his head

and
oh god
he smiled
carefully whispering

"i wish."
the a short lull followed

"you were the one that i fell for."