There is a wall of glass betwenn us. Just some layers of heated sand. But never has a wall been this thick. I think of crying but there is no point. I think of screaming but there is just this numbniss inside of me. I feel nothing and everything at all. Maybe maybe this is just life? Being broken and breaking someone else. But if that is life then I don't want it. If this is life then I... I don't know what. This is the part of my life I didn't plan. This is offroad. This is love. Or is it? I don't know. I have never been in love.
I can see my friends sitting there. Laughing, enjoying themself. And yet here I am. Behind a wall of glas. Oh dear, I don't wanna be a burden.