Finally 19
But all I want to do is cry
No better than 18, not at all
I don't know what to do with the broken parts of my being, Of what is left of me
Before I learned to live I opened Pandora's Box
And now I'm no longer able to make it stop
Time flies by, so many moments lost
Memories forgotten that I hoped would stay forever
People disappointed that I once called my friends, that were important, where i didn't have to pretend
Now they are strangers in my little fantasy world 
Finally 19
But why celebrate?
Another year, another crack in my heart to not forget
that life is more than just happiness.
Finally 19 and yet -