"What?" I lowered my glare. Castiel has an unbreakable bond with me? When I looked back at Castiel, he just nodded. His face finally softened.

               "It happened when I pulled you from hell. I had no choice. I would had to have left your soul behind if I didn't." Ouch. That stung a little. He had no choice so it's not like he wanted to. 

               "Oh...what does that mean?" I was hoping he was going to say that meant he couldn't ever leave my side.

               "You are a top priority to me. When you need something, I will be there. I'm what humans call a guardian angel. I am always there when you call me. Like your fiasco earlier. What was that about anyway, Dean?" Cas and Sam both looked at me with concerned expressions.

                "What is he talking about?" Sam shifted in his bed, checking the clock again. It was 3:47 in the morning.

                 "He was-" I cut Castiel off before he could say anything else.

                "Having a weird dream. That's all it was. A very, very bad dream." What was that in Cas' eyes? Was that hurt?

                "Okay, jeez, you guys act like you hate each other. What's that about?" I shook my head.

                 "I'll tell you later, Sammy." Castiel sat down on the end of my bed. He stared at Sam and frowned.

                "Castiel, what's wrong?" I shot Sam a look. He looked back at me and shrugged.

                "Dean is keeping secrets. I don't know what they are, but whatever it is, he should have told you a while ago. He should have told you as soon as he found out. Goodbye, Sam. Dean." With that and a gush of air, he was gone. I was hot faced. Castiel just pretty much forced me to tell Sam I was gay.

                 "Dean, what was he talking about?" I looked at everything but Sam. This was so awkward.

                 "You better swear on your life you won't tell anyone. Especially not Cas."

                 "Dean, if it's that important, I won't tell anyone." I nodded and continued.

                 "I am not who I thought I was. I am...uh... I'm gay, Sammy." Sam just started blinking like he couldn't believe it. Yeah, me either.

                "You're what?" I shook my head.

                "And I have a crush on Castiel." I whispered it, hoping Sam wouldn't hear, but of course, the little bitch did.

                "Dean!" I sighed heavily and rubbed my face.

                 "I know, Sammy. It's fucked up. He can't know. I don't know if it's this bond shit or what. It surprised me as much as it did you." He just kinda stared at me.

                "Dean! That's great. I can't belie-" I cut him off with a wave of my hand.

               "No chick flick moments." He grinned and nodded. I can't believe he didn't totally flip out on me.

               "Wait..." Great. Here it comes.

               "What, Sammy?"

               "What about all those girls. The flirting, the strippers, the hook ups. If you were gay, why'd you do it?" Not what I was expecting, but still.

               "I guess was just trying to fill a void that I didn't know was there. Sure, I have loved a few women, but why do you think they never lasted? I always thought I was the problem. I just never guessed that my sexuality was the reason." I let out a deep breath. Having a heart to heart with my brother wasn't something I did very often and it was uncomfortable. Talking this way with him, I didn't even sound the same. Meeting Castiel made me a different person...and I didn't know if I liked it.

              "This is just...wow Dean. I never would have expected this. Especially from you. Did you say you had a 'crush'?" He smirked and I groaned. That was exactly why I didn't want to tell him.

              "Would you just give it a rest? Maybe I'm wrong. Cas is the only guy I've ever found attractive. Maybe it's this bond thing. Maybe this is just some sort of...midlife crisis." That sounded more like it. I couldn't be gay. I was going out.

               "Dean, don't be embarrassed." I laughed. I wasn't embarrassed. I was confused!

               "I'm not embarrassed. I'm going out, Sammy. Time to get my mojo back!" I grabbed a shirt from the pile on then end of Sam's bed and threw it on along with my jacket. I walked out into the cool, early morning air. I needed to go for a drive to clear my head. I climbed in Baby and turned up the radio. Led Zeppelin's 'Ramble On' was just ending.
              "Dammit..." I muttered. 'Highway to Hell' was on now and I guessed I could settle. I drummed my thumbs along the steering wheel and glanced out of the window. I felt the longing need to see Castiel but pushed it away. I didn't need him. I needed an early morning drink, maybe get a morning hook-up. The last thing I needed was Cas. I turned the radio off and just listened to the hum of the car. I kept fighting the thoughts of Castiel, but they were stronger than my will, so I let them come freely.
              "Castiel..." I breathed. I checked the rearview mirror. What...the fuck?
               "Dean?" I swerved, scared out of my mind. Why did he just pop up out of nowhere? All the time?
               "DAMMIT CAS! You can't just keep doing that!" He just shrugged.
                "You were driving. I found this convenient. I'm sorry that the way I do things bothers you." I didn't mean it like that. I was startled. On a normal day, people don't just appear in your backseat.
                 "Cas...you know I didn't mean it like that. What did you need?"
                 "I don't need anything. You are the one who called me." Oh yeah, I forgot. This angel didn't exactly feel the same way about me as I did him. I had to tell him. Especially because if I was wrong, Cas would be able to let me know if it was just the bond and I could go on with my normal life. Well...my definition of normal.
                  "Castiel... I have a serious question." I pulled off into a vacant house's driveway and turned in my seat to face him.
                 "Yes, Dean?"
                "Can a human and an angel...you know...be together? As in...together together?" Cas cocked his head to the side and furrowed his brows.
                "I have never heard of any laws about it...why do you ask?" God I couldn't tell him. I've only known him for a week.
   
                But I had to.

               "What if I liked you. As more than a friend. What if I wanted us to be...together together?" Castiel shook his head.
               "I have to go."
               I had just made the biggest mistake of my life.

Leandra!!! I love you! No worthless guy needs to take up your time! Let the Destiel be with you!