Pic made by me. okay so this chapter will contain at least some self harm. if this is a problem for you. you may want to skip. also i will put a row of ************* right before it is mentioned. thank you for reading.

after i got dressed (a light long sleeved blue shirt and worn blue denim jeans with her hair braided down her back) , I checked on Bones, Jim, and Spock, put pain killers by there bed/couch along with breakfast, then i have a banana for my breakfast, all before heading to barn to begin my chores.
************************************************************************************but as soon as i enter the barn i rush to the back of the hayloft and grab a small wooden book that had my favorite flower in graved on the top, and with a small sigh i open it to revival three different knives and some medical supplies,

so with another sigh i lift up my shirt showing multiple scars that i made over the years, after a long moment i grab a knife and start cutting and i don't stop till i have five new scars
after i patch myself up
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After that i start my barn chores (brushing the horses, feeding the animals, etc) after thats done i head inside to check on Bones, Jim, and Spock. When i get inside Bones is resting and i see he took the medicine, and ate breakfast, and i smile just a little "thank you" u say gesturing towards the food and pills "why wouldn't i eat and take the pills" i replies "let's just say I've met a few people who made it difficult to help" i say with a chuckle and he chuckles along "i know the type" is his reply i smile and start to check his wounds your healing very nicely a few more days and you can start walking a little" i say once I finished "now to check on the other two" and to that he chuckles "good luck" he calls out and with that i head up stairs to check on the Jim and Spock. when i walk into the spare room to see Jim had not taken his medicine, only ate part of his breakfast i glared at him till he looked at me, when he does he chuckles nervously "take the pills and eat" i say before tending to his injuries thankfully by the time i'm done he's finished his food and taken his medicine, so i smile, nod, "its healing very well but i donr want you to go walking around got it" i say with a light glare and he nods vigorously so i nod once again before i walk out, when the door is closed i practically fall to floor gasping for air as a horrid memory resurfaces from the darkest part of my past

flashback to when Jess was four years old

"DON'T YOU EVER GLARE OR EVEN LOOK AT ME AGAIN YOU FREAK" i hear before I'm submerged in icy cold water for what feels like the millions time "FREAK THAT'S ALL YOU ARE A FREAK, A WORTHLESS PIECE OF TRASH, AND NO ONE WITH EVER THINK OF YOU AS MORE" i hear when i emerge from the water, over and over and over again till he then grabs a bucket of burning hot water, boy was i mistaken when i thought that nearly being drowned in cold water was the worst, no the hot water is ten times worse. finally i stop breathing all together

end of flashback

I gasp loudly when the flashback is finally over and i stand on wobbly legs and after another moment my legs work normally and i head to the med bay. When i get inside Spock has eaten and taken his medicine so i smile a little before i say "good morning Spock i see you took your medication, thank you" he simply nods so i decide to check his wounds which as he said healed faster then i originally thought "your wounds are healing very well you should be able able to walk around no later the tomorrow." I say looking at his face for what feels like the first time. And it's now I notice the small details like his pointy ears that are almost completely covered up by his dark black hair, a small scar right under his jaw that lookes to be made when he was but a child, and then his eyes, the way they screamed that even though he does not show it he feels scared and vonrable and it was like everything disappeared. the world, my past, all mt problems, everything just vanished into thin air and for once in my life i wasn't scared, i was safe, like nothing could hurt me ever again, like all my scares mental, emotionally, and physical faded till they were no more, and i felt i could gaze into his eyes forever. but then i remembered, i remembered the scars, the pain, i remembered the fear. and i tore my ugly green eyes away from those beautiful brown eyes and emeditly fled the room. when i reached my room i barged inside and collapsed on my bed and for once since i was five years old i allowed myself to cry freely.

Spocks POV (this is taking place before Jess came in)

when i woke up i was slightly suprised to see i was in an all white room that looked to be some sort of med bay that is until i remember Mrs. Jessica or as she preferred Jess. and it is only then that i noticed the plate of food and medication of witch i quickly ate then took a nap. about a halve hour (according to the sun) Jessica came in to tende to my wounds after she was done she started observing me, first my ears, then the scar on my jaw, but then she stoped at my eyes and i became traped in them, and just as im sure mine eyes are screaming emotions so are hers and see so much pain, hurt, and fear. and its then i realize that how she acted was a mask, a shield, a weapon , just like me but then it was like she stared to forget the pain, the hurt, and fear. but the moment was soon over as she suddenly remembered and tore her gaze from mine and huredly ran outof the room, and not even a minute later i can faintly hear her sobs, then the truth hits me like a bus i believe is how humans say it...

                                                             I am bonder with her!

THE END

Just kidding (coment and tell me if you fell for it or not)

Bones's POV

after she checked on me she went to Jim's room, im going to guess he only ate some of the food and did not take the pills as i heard her say and i quote "take the pills and eat" boy was i glad i took my pills and ate the food that tone she used sounded deadly. after that she went to Spock who took his pills and ate just as i expected him to what i did not expect was for Jess to run out of spocks room and into her's then hear her crying all in the next six minutes and i emidently felt sorry for her. little did she know that even thought she waited i could still barely see her collapse on the floor earlier and go into something like faze and she finaly came out of it she still sat there gasping, even when she stood i could tell she was still scared. and just now when she ran to room i felt like she  needed to help so despite my injures I got up and headed to her room. When i (finally) got there i could hear her sobbing. luckily her door is not locked and i walk in and observe her room there's a big bed right by a window, i can see the door to the master bathroom, and the closest, i could see a reading area though it looked like it didn't get used very often, then i saw a balcony with a single chair and a small end table that also looked like it didnt get used often, but other then that i didnt see much no decor, no pictures, or anything involving memories, which puzzled me but i left it alone for now and turned to the sobbing girl that still had not realized i had entered. so deciding that i wanted to scare her as little as possible i just sat on the edge of the bed that she was lying down on. as soon as i sat down she shot straight up and aside from the tear strikes and red eyes she didn't look like she had been crying not even a minute ago "Bones! what on earth are you doing? You should be resting not walking and especially not going up stairs, lay down NOW!" she practically screamed at me. which scared me out of my mind! so I deciding i did NOT want to get in  a fight with her especially with my injures i complied and let her check my wound practically shove pills down my thought and give me something that made me drowsy mere minutes after it was injected. "I'm fine dear right now I'm concerned about you. are you alright?" she simply gave me a confused look "why would i not be okay" she said and even though i was halve asleep and her face clearly read confusion her eyes held fear, but before i could say anything the injection took full affect. damn it what did that girl give me. Was my last thought

Jim's POV

After Jess left i started thinking about her, about how she seemed so timid but when she's around him she's confident and outspoken but it all seemed fake like she's wearing a mask like what Spock does then i thought back to when she was checking up on me and how i could've sworn i could see just a little, barely visible blood on her shirt but i didn't get a good look at it since she moved, but something just didn't seem right, and i don't know what to do suddenly my thoughts are interrupted by "Bones what on earth are you doing? You should be resting not waking and especially not going up stairs lay down NOW!" Well it looks or rather sounds like she's fine maybe I was just imagining it i think to myself before closing my eyes to sleep suddenly feeling very tired.

Back to Jessica's POV

After Bones was out i walk down stairs and once I'm out of the house i run towards the barn after i get inside i rush to the hayloft
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And grab the box cutting again and again and again till i have 10 cuts on my side that are flowing freely i then start cutting on my thighs desperate to calm myself down to get those brown eyes out of my head, after 6 more cuts i stop and i grab the first aid kit to patch myself up, when I'm done there is no evidence of what happens here exept the scars on my legs and stomach
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Once I'm inside i start lunch. Which is just grilled cheese but it's still a lunch so i take it to bones, Jim, and finally Spock and i leave without a word before going outside and finishing my chores.
Yaaa i went above 2000 words yaaaaa.
Im sorry it took so long, what happened is i got a bunch of new ideas and i wanted to get them down before i forgot so I've been trying to get all my ideas (and by that i mean a cover a title and a brief description) done, and a lot is going on in my life so it's probably going to be a little spuratic however i still want to do the whole deadline thing but i still need help with it so if you have ANY suggestions please comment. And again sorry it took so long!!! :(