Morning sun hits shiva waking him up with a heavy head and a heavy heart. 'Can't you make me sleep for entire life?' thinks shiva remembering the god. What is his life without his chipkali? Just a lifeless body living for the sake of living. He knows he was wrong, his way of showing his anger was wrong. But did he deserve this? 'seperation from his love in such a way that he even can't listen her, can't even see her'.This was painful, very painful. So painful that the pain in his hands because of wounds he gave to himself was nothing, absolutely nothing.

7days ago

Shiva was sitting in jail. Cursing himself for loving his mami ki behn ki beti, for believing that she is good; shouting that she was his biggest mistake, that he hates her. And when younger raavi came to him, he remembered why raavi became maami ki behn ki beti, why he vowed to not be her friend. He sighed thinking how she supported her maasi maa years ago and doing the same today. he remembered that how she started of reciting dev-dev. His mind chuckled remembering dhara's words 'dekhna bade hoke raavi shiva se hi shaadi karegi.' What a metaphor, wasn't it?

Wall around him covered with covered with just one line 'main tujhse nafrat karta hu raavi' were trying to make him believe that he hates her. But he really do? May be not. May be he never. He didn't have any answer to this but yes, he was hurt, really really hurt. And why not.... after all- dushman ki chot se ghahra dard apno ke dhokeka hota hai. He sat there with his past memories which were of his chipkali only.

He thought and thought but didn't reached any conclusion. Suman came police station to get him bailed butno use. A proof was needed for the bail. Suman pleaded but the inspector didn'tpay any heeds. Shiva was furious seeing this condition of his mother. His confusion was taken over by anger. The next three shiva spent in jail with all his anger.

4 days ago

Finally, shiva was bailed when anita took back the complaint. As shiva came out, raavi was the first person he wanted to meet. This was not because she was his love, but because she was one who betrayed him, who broke him, atleast according him. he saw maami and anita standing in front of him. the raze in his eyes grew. Only god knew what he would have done to them if it was not police station. Suman and rishita somehow handled him and brought him home without any chaos. Dhara and gautum were happy at his return but were still in grief. No happiness can make any parents cope up with grief of losing their child for second time. Already dhara couldn't tolerate the pain and the mental stress, that's why suman decided to keep her away from any kind family problem.

When shiva came back, whole family met him but raavi didn't. he only knew how badly he wanted to confront her, wanted the answers. He eyes searched for her, not lovingly but with rage. After everyone depatured, rishita came to him and said 'vo abhi ghr pe nhi hai....hospital se sayad maaami ke hi chali gyi bin batye...(keeping hand on his shoulder)shiva main jaanti hu ki tu raavi se naraaj hai....maanti hu ki uski galti hai....par tu abhi gusse me hai....aur tu ek baar apne gusse me bahut kuch galt kar chuka hai....main bas itna kahungi ki apni galti repeat mat karna.....'. saying this rishita left. Shiva, alone, stood in the hall thinking about rishita's words. May be yes, his anger was so incontrollable that it everytime spoiled things. But how could he even controlled himself after learning anita's truth.And though his anger was wrong but it didn't give raavi permission to betray him, does it? but still he decded to calmly confront her once she was back.

As he headed towards his room, he hears his maami's voice. Rishita too came out listening her voice. Shewas sure that shiva would explode, so she took maami out of the house but notbefore asking shiva to calm atleast for his maa and dhara Bhabhi. Shivaoblidged as he didn't want to make anyone upset because of some people. Hesighed and silently went to terrace to find some peace but nothing came.

Rishita took maami out ofthe house.

Ri: ab kya chahiye maami?....humare ghar ka sukh chain cheen ke ab kya karne aaye ho?.....

Pr: aee bhai.....main yahan apni bachi ko lene aayi hu.....vo ab iss jungli ke saath nhi rahi gi....

Ri: *shocked to listen that raavi was not at maami's place too*

Pr: main jaa rahi hu......(moves towards house)

Ri: (stopping her) rukiye maami.....raavi iss time bahut gusse me hai....usn bhale hi shiva ko jail bheja hai lekin use aapki aur anita di ki sachai pata hai.....toh sochiye ki abhi agr aapne abhi use le jaane ki baat aroge toh vo kitna bharke gi.......

Pr: aee tu-

Ra: maami dekhiye....raavi-shiva ka jhagda unke beech ka maamala hai..toh aap unse durr rahiya....un dono ko unke haal pe chod dijiye......aur humse humaare ghar se durri bana ke rakhiye.....

Saying this rishita goes inside and closed the door in front of maami's face making her furious.

Rishita immediately went to shiva and told him that raavi was missing. Both tried her phone but it was switched off. Last time shiva and rishita saw raavi was in hospital. As they found raavi's phone switched off, shiva rushed out, picked his bike and went off in search of raavi. No matter how much he says that he hates her, but a mere thought of losing her drives him crazy, just a mere thought. Every possible negative thought came into his mind haunting him to the core. He drove around the city showing her picture to different people but no result.

There, in pandya house,rishita told everything to maa and dev. They decided to keep raavi's missing secret from everyone specially from prafulla otherwise a huge drama could takeplace. A missing complaint was filed by dev but police being police didn't takethe matter seriously.

It was dark and shiva was still searching fo rraavi like a mad. He didn't know what to do, where to go. His senses were almost blocked. Only his chipkali and her thoughts were all around his mind. Hesat on the sea shore and screamed as loud as he can, throwing out his anger, frustation and pain. 'kyuuu....kyu hota hai mere saath......phele use paas bheja...phir durr kar diya.....10 saal baad jab vo paas aayi tab mere diamg me bhusa daal diya aur usse durr kara diya.....lekin phir usse paas bheja....laga tha iss baar koi beech me nhi aa payega toh ye....ye khel khela aapne....aur ab usse mujhe itna durr karna chahte ho ki main uss dekh bhi saku....kyunnnnn...' screamed shiva looking towards the dark sky covered with dark cloud just like his life.

TO BE CONTINUED........

hey everyone.....this idea came to my mind so wrote it down....but I don't know how it is going to end...I mean I'm not sure that ending will be sad or happy😅😅......give idea and suggestion for this.....

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