I took that 16personalities quiz to find out what type of personality I am, and found out I'm an INFJ. Apparently, it's the rarest out of the personalities. Do I feel honoured?

Alright, buckle up (again), grab some popcorn. If you know me personally, get a soda and more popcorn. These are points about me that I wanna talk about, because it's really rare that I can relate to something so strongly. And do me a favour and go to the website to take that personality quiz, then tell me what kind of personality you are so I can understand you better and not hurt you in any way in our relationships.

I read up more about the personality and actually related to nearly all of those things. There was one point about INFJs asking questions like "Why are we here?" and philosophical, "deep" things, and is that not me! I ask that to myself every day, then proceed to have an existential crisis. The feeling is really, really weird - you have a sudden jolt of realisation that it's all temporary and you feel somewhat afloat. It's not a very pleasant feeling.

(To achieve that feeling, ask yourself: If the universe is infinite, is it a loop? Who is controlling me? Why am I experiencing the things through this body, and how? How do I know that this isn't a computer simulation? And if it is, are these beings controlling us definite? Will the universe ever end? What exactly is the mass of matter before the Big Bang? Was it suspended in something? What is that something? How can there be a container holding the universe?)

(Shit I just got that feeling again.)

It gets even more relatable for me when it comes to being an introvert who likes giving advice to people, and staying alone to recharge but eventually having to go to good friends that they can connect with.

I usually stand aside and think. I look immature, young and wild, but inside my head, I'm calculating so, so many things. If you're the subject I'm thinking about, I'll usually analyse your actions, emotions, what you truly feel, and possibly come up with your destiny or purpose in life. It's scary, yes, but I've done that for my closest group of friends (@ koen: if you want, I can tell you what I think.)

Plus, it states that INFJs think very deeply about the situation in a conversation and dole out advice much later because they want to think through and consolidate their train of thought before speaking. That's why, if you know me personally, I don't talk much during discussions and advice-giving because I can only begin to give my own opinions way after the conversation's over.

That's probably also why I suck at interviews. They fire questions at me, I can't answer them immediately because I've got so many thoughts to think through before I can give them a solid answer. And because I have so many thoughts running through my mind, I talk really excitedly and quickly through a jumble of ideas and things. Aaaand because of this, I look extroverted. I'm not. I hate social events. They tire me.

And yeah, INFJs are generally really sensitive. They can't take criticism well, and look who's exactly that! I really, really can't take criticism, especially if it's pointing to my mistakes and faults. I think that's probably because I put in lots of effort into doing things (INFJs have a "stick-to-it" mindset and put in lots of work into thing they're passionate about), and when someone starts pointing out flaws, I feel offended because I feel like they don't appreciate the effort.

(sooooo, actually, i'll be more accepting of the criticism if you give me a solution to the problem you pointed out. my general opinion about criticism: if you don't know how to fix it, then don't give out the criticism blindly. i'll thank you very, very much for the criticism.)

If you've ever given me criticism, I'm really sorry if I started becoming defensive and angry. It's just that I really can't take too much at once and my skin's not that tough. Ain't your fault at all. And most importantly, thank you.

Also, if I look murderous, especially with my eyebrows, please don't hesitate to snap me out of whatever I'm thinking. Usually, my resting face would look as if I'm planning to slit the throats of whoever I hate. Just tap my hand or something. I'm usually way too into things when I start thinking.

"Underneath all of that marshmallowy niceness is a razor edge," someone said about INFJs. Whoops. I look funny and nice, right? Well, don't get too comfortable. I'm blunt, hateful and harsh if you offend me, even if it's on accident. So sorry about that.

(I'm beginning to sound sarcastic please note that I'M NOT BEING SARCASTIC I'M GENUINELY SORRY. UNLESS I HATE YOU. IN WHICH CASE, LMAO SUCKS BEING YOU)

Another thing bad about INFJs is that we persist on our own ideologies and shut off any other alternative or opinions, even if they're better. Like, you're telling me that there's an alternative to improving this CCA's bonding opportunities? My excuse: Nah, I've already thought through this, and it's just too much hassle to change it. What I really think: My way seems better. Of course, if you show me that it's better, then I'll consider changing methods.

A Thing: I really feel that you have to really earn it for me to respect you. I don't look at age to determine who I respect. If you're my grandparent or uncle or aunt or whatever "长辈", and you come across as insensitive and unreasonable, I don't see why I shouldn't respect you. Doesn't matter how you're related to me and how many years older you are. I don't find you worthy of my respect.

However, if you're a kid five years younger than me and you're polite and hardworking, why shouldn't I respect you? It really irks me how sensitive, sensible and understanding children are being pushed away from "adult conversations" just because they're "too young to understand". Stop it. No one is ever too young if they have the right mindset to absorb and process information properly. I will gladly respect those who are truly deserving, no matter how young or "junior" they are.

Ah, yes, also. I'm a doormat. I let you trample all over me. Take advantage of me. Bully me, drag me to wherever you want even if I don't like it, order me around, because I'm too kind to disappoint you.  But then the other thing is, even though I take these kinds of shit well, I snap unexpectedly. Without warning. Before you know it, I'll take the mud you threw at me a moment ago and hurl it into your mouth. So. You're practically walking on eggshells around me. And that's something I need to change.

Alright, enough about me. IF YOU'RE READING THIS AND WE KNOW EACH OTHER PERSONALLY PLEASE DO TAKE THE SURVEY AND TELL ME SO I UNDERSTAND YOU BETTER OKAY

MUCH THANK FOR READING

HAVE A NICE DAY

BYE