I don't know exactly what I want to achieve through this.

Yes, I want you to see and understand why I act the way I do. Why I'm so dry to you, why I get quiet when I see that he's on your account. It's not even jealousy, I just know that whatever I say will be spoken about or thought about by more than one person.

I like my privacy, to put it lightly.

But apart from being heard, I have no reason to make this; maybe to try and relieve myself?

It's not like you'll see this. I don't know if I'll send the link to you.

I think I'm too cowardly to do so.

But, hm. I wanted to ask; did you mean it? Even if you think it's childish, pointless now- did you mean all of what you said back then?

That feels childish even to write.

But it would relieve me in some way to know.