*Zac*
I wake up early in the morning.. instantly knowing that I am about to get sick.. I am feeling warm and my throat and head hurts.. actually my whole body hurts.. a slow aching pain in my bones.

Pilar is rolled up on her side, looking so relaxed as she is sleeping.. and I slip out of bed not waking her.. I need some fresh air.. I need to breathe.. and honestly I had a bad dream and I feel a need to check up on LZ.

So I step into my crocs, Blue is instantly by my side and I reach down to scratch his head. "Morning boy.. Shh be quiet okay.. we don't want to wake up mommy".

He makes this small cute sound, like he is telling me that he knows and I open the door, letting him out first.. then casting one last glance at Pilar before following him.

I look out over the grounds, taking a deep breath which immediately sends me into a bad coughing fit.. holy shit.. it's like I have glass dust in my lungs and the pain is rather intense.

Normally I would try deep steady breaths to stop the coughing.. but well.. that is definitely not an option.. instead I force myself to stand up straight, giving my lungs space.. even if it hurts.

Blue os kinda pacing back and forth, probably wondering what I am doing.. he gives a small yap. "Relax boy.. daddy just needs to get the air back in his lungs".

It takes a moment before I am ready to move on. I don't really remember the details of my dream..  mostly the feeling.. I really hope that it was just a random dream and that it doesn't mean anything.. but I can't relax before I check.

Full of worry I make my way to the tent where LZ is currently staying, feeling dread and well a clear lack of oxygen.. after this I think I need to go to bed and stay there.

I stop at the entrance, taking a deep breath, or as deep as I can, before calling out. "Hey LZ .. you awake and decent ?"

*Emilia*
We are just setting up breakfast.. Matt and Nina are both coughing a bit, making all of us nervous to be honest.. but I guess we just have to see if it evolves.

"Have any of you seen Zac ?" Pilar looks worried as she shows up wearing one of Zac's t-shirts as a dress.

Nick shakes his head. "No, but Blue is gone too.. hasn't he just taken him for a morning walk ?"

"He usually wakes me..". She looks out over the grounds, her expression worried. "He wasn't good last night.. he should not be alone out there".

"I can go look..". Nick starts saying, but he is interrupted by a yapping Blue coming around the corner at full speed. "Hey relax there boy".

But then we hear the coughing.. not like a 'my throat is annoyed' but like someone is trying to cough up a cactus.. and Zac kinda stumbles around the corner. Sweat is pouring off his face and his breathing is rattling like a penny in a tin can.

"Zac !" Pilar runs to support him and Nick is also instantly on his feet.

Zac holds up one hand, using the other to hold himself upright, leaning on the wall.. his lips have a slight bluish tint to them. "Damn.. such bad cardio.. LZ.. bad,.. needs help".

"You need help mi amore". Pilar is fretting around him, looking scared. "We need to get you to bed".

"LZ needs help more than me.. much more.. Nick". He sounds like he loses his last breath and starts coughing badly, clutching his chest.

Nick nods. "I'll go check on LZ.. Marshall ?"

Marshall is on his feet and helping Pilar support Zac. "Go check on the little guy.. I got Zac".

"Let's get you into bed". Pilar sounds close to tears as she and Marshall are halfway carrying Zac inside.

Nick hurries off towards the tent, Nina on his heels. And I start pacing nervously. Zac had said LZ needed help more than him, and to me Zac looked pretty sick, pale, sweaty and his lips scarily bluish, like he had trouble getting enough oxygen.. How bad is LZ?

The more I pace and the more I think the more worried I get.. my heart is sinking with the heaviness.

Sherry has gone into the kitchen to make some warm tea with honey.. and I can feel that Matt is watching me.. but to be honest I can't worry about his feelings right now.. I worry too much about LZ.

It is like every atom in my body is pulling at me, wanting to go check on him, wanting to know if he is okay.. but I promised Matt to give us a real chance to fix us.. so I can't run to him.

"You worry a lot about him.. don't you ?" Matt suddenly asks, after having watched me pacing and fretting for about ten minutes.

I stop and look at him. "Zac said he was bad.. that he needed help more than him.. and you saw Zac.. he looked.. not good.. yeah I worry".

"You love him.. you are in love with him.. not me". He looks somewhat defeated. "Don't deny it.. I can see it in your eyes every time you look towards his tent now.. and every time you have looked at him these past weeks".

"I am sorry Matt.. but I love you too.. I do.. and I promised you to work on our relationship.. to not throw what we have away over a .. fling". I try to real in my emotions, feeling my eyes slide towards the tents.

I hear Matt push his chair back and his footsteps come closer. He gently takes my hands. "But you are not in love with me.. you are in love with him".

"I.. I am sure if we just work on it.. find each other again..". I don't know what else to say.

"My sweetest Emmy.. I love that you are trying.. really". He reaches out to gently touch my cheek. "But.. you and me.. we.. we are over.. I don't think we are meant to find each other again".

I just stare at him.. I know he is right.. but for some reason it still hurts. "You.. you are breaking up with me ?"

"Yeah.. because you won't do it even if you should.. you are too good to do that". He smiles softly at me. "And right now I think there is somewhere else you need to be".

I hug him, kissing his cheek. "Thank you Matt.. I promise, you will find the right woman for you".

"Go Emmy.. hurry to where you need to be". He steps back.. letting me go in every way.

I give him a last smile and jump down from the porch, sprinting towards the tents.