*Pilar*
When Zac breaks the kiss I notice Emilia has walked away.. I am a bit worried for her.. she seems so torn and unsure what to do.. she hasn't really said much.. but I know she is trying to choose between going back to Matt or giving LZ a chance.

If you ask me she should dumb Matt.. seriously I still feel nauseated every time I see him, thinking about what he has done looking at those pictures of me.. nope he needs to go.. but of course it's not up to me.

"What are you thinking about my most cherished spring flower". Zac say, trying to catch my eyes.

I slap him softly on the chest.. to be honest.. I love when he speaks all sobby to me and shit, but damn I am not gonna tell him. "Yikes.. you just gave me three cavities with that sentence.. but I was thinking about Emilia.. she should give LZ a chance".

"He really have you charmed.. should I worry ?" I can see the mirth in his eyes, he is not the least worried.

"Yeah sorry babes.. I am gonna run away with LZ.. so sorry". I grin up at him.

He makes the most teatrical face and clutch his heart with both hands. "Please.. my love, mi amore, ma bien-aimée.. you are crushing my heart.. but how could I ever compare to the perfection he holds".

"Not possible.. it's the .. unbeatable cuteness.. you simply can't help wanting to cuddle him". I try not to giggle too loud.

He falls to his knees and grab my legs. "Don't leave me.. I'll do anything.. you are my sun and moon.. if you leave me my world will plummet into darkness".

I can't help giggling this time and I am not sure what happens, but I try to step away and the next I know we are in a heap on the grass.. Luckily me on top of him, both laughing.

"Whoops". I actually don't mind this one bit.. even less when he rolls me over bringing him on top of me.

"And you just knocked me of me feet.. blew me away". He say softly, fluttering kisses along my jaw between words.

My breath catch in my throat and I really have to focus. "Yeah.. I might have done that.. but you like it".

"Oh I love it". He breathes in slowly and I can feel that he is looking at me, making me look up at him. "And I love you.. please Pilar.. let me love you".

I can't breathe and I feel this weird burning in my eyes.. my throat suddenly feel all dry. "Zac.. I..".

"No worries.. I .. you don't have to say.. anything.. I didn't mean to scare you.. I am so sorry.. it was to fast right.. please don't..". He starts rambling as he sit up on his knees.

"Could you like.. shut up for a moment ?" I say sitting up and he nod biting his lip. "Thanks.. what I tried to say.. and it isn't easy for me.. I.. love you too.. please don't make me regret it".

He pull me into him, kissing me so passionately we end up sprawled in a heap on the grass again.. making me giggle. It's a big thing for me to say those words.. but it honestly just feel so right.

"Hey you two.. go to your room". Nick's voice call out and Nina giggles as the come walking up on the grass.

"Shut up Nick". Zac say looking at me with the biggest smile as he help me to my feet.. I can't help notice that his eyes are misty. "She loves me.. so .. damn she loves me".

I can't help chuckling and Nina makes an aww sound. "I am so happy for you two".

"Thanks". Zac say taking my hand as he bounce slightly on his feet. "I am happy too.. so happy".

*Emilia*
About an hour later I find myself looking for LZ and find him at his laptop sorting through some video clips. He looks up when he hears me approach. "Oh hi Emmy".

"Hi.. chiquito". I am wringing my hands.. this is probably the hardest thing I have ever had to do.

"Can I help you with something ?" There are worry in his green eyes and the way he says it makes me sure that he knows something is coming up.

I swallow.. this whole thing.. it has me rattled and I know it.. and to be honest I do not have the guts to let go of every dream and aspiration to take a chance on something brand new.. I feel like I need the security of something well known. "We need to talk".

"Okay.. I guess we have to". He pushes back his office chair and fold his hands in his lap. "Give it to me then".

"I am so sorry .. Zach.. I really do like you". I suddenly feel like a nervous teenager, stuttering and sweating. "I just.. I think I owe Matt too.."..

He huffs softly. "You owe Matt ? Seriously.. that's what you are going with ?"

Pain shot through my chest at his words. "I am sorry.. it's just.. I am..".

"No Emilia". He hold up his hand, shaking his head. "Please do not give me the 'it's me not you' speech.. you have no idea how many times I have heard that song.. just no.. you have chosen Matt.. good luck with that".

"Oh..". I feel my lip quiver.. it makes me feel torn all over.. he doesn't deserve this.. I should never have let me.. what ? Seduced by the newness.. the sparkle.. I wish I could just take all the pain on me.. no matter what I do or chose someone else will suffer.. it's not fair.

He is staring at his screen. "If you are done .. I am kinda busy here".

"Oh !" I say again, backing towards the door. "Sorry.. I won't disturb you anymore".

I swallow again and again, not wanting to cry as I halfway run to Matt's tent.. I chose this.. I have no right to be upset.. but then why does it feel like every beat of my heart hammers of another little piece of it ? If it continues like this my heart will soon be a pile of rubble. How can this hurt more than Matt's betrayal did ?

Matt looks up from the book he is reading when I come in.. he looks slightly worried. "Are you okay Emilia ? You look kinda pale".

"I'm okay". I breathe in slowly, trying to smile at him. "I have decided to.. give us a chance.. to forgive you".

"You have ?" He looks like he hardly believe me as he almost jump to his feet and comes to hug me. "Thank you darling.. Thank you so much.. I promise.. I won't let you down".

I lean against his chest.. for some reason I just want to cry. "Just.. give me some time.. okay ?"

"Sure.. no problem". He say, kissing my hair. "We can take all the time you need".