Yibo ran through the empty streets in the night, trying to control his anger, his sadness, and his longing for his grandpa.

He not only made his parents ashamed, he made Zhan think lowly of himself as well, just for today, but it was also for just one day why couldn't he keep it in?

Why did Zhan and his family have to show up today?

Just why today.

What he must be thinking? What his family must be? Thinking he really ruined everything. For everyone, all these years he was quiet, he hid his profession all these years, and then why did he burst out like that after quitting?

"AHHHH!!!" He screamed as he cannot handle this pain anymore, the pain of being a failure, the pain of losing his grandfather, the pain of losing Zhan without even getting the chance to have him.

The guilt of always, always messing up, ruining lives, not being able to control his emotions, of falling into a downward spiral was despair.

He was tired of not being perfect, of being fake, he was tired to of this unwanted life given by his parents and he hated them for it.

Yibo gradually started running but he bumped into someone and stumbled back, he ignored whoever it was and wanted to run away but his hand was grabbed again, "well, well look who it the feisty Yibo."

Joe said with a smirk as he grabbed Yibo's hand who struggled, "Let go!"

"Why are you in a hurry." he said and pulled Yibo towards himself, "enjoy some time with me as well..." he said, "I can make you forget everything," he said and kissed Yibo.

Yibo felt like a switch was turned off in his mind and rage, and utter rage consumed him as he pushed Joe and punched him and then kicked him on the stomach making him fall down and he sat on him brutally punching Joe over and over with the intention to kill.

"I AM DONE! I AM DONE DEALING WITH YOU, ALL JUST LEAVE ME ALONE STOP TELLING ME WHAT I WANT OR NOT, STOP BLAMING ME, STOP JUDGING ME STOP IT, STOP IT, STOP IT!" Yibo yelled he was so lost in his thoughts that he lost control of himself.

"Yibo!" he heard someone calling his name but that didn't stop him until his waist was grabbed and he was pulled back his back collided with a hard chest and he was enclosed in strong arms refusing to let go of him.

"LET GO" He yelled but he was only held tighter till he got tired of struggling and slumped, "It's okay...everything is okay..." He heard a gentle soothing voice that only made him remember his grandfather even more.

Just like he used to say.

"It's alright, you are fine," Zhan said before he stood up and helped Yibo stand up as well before Yibo was hugged by A-Xiang, Zhan went to Joe, and thankfully he was breathing but was all bloody, he sat down beside him and said, "Stay away from him unless you want your life to be ruined." he said and went beside Yibo gently grabbing his hand and walking away.

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"I am sorry," Yibo said, "I ruined this day." he apologized to both Zhan and A-Xiang, "I said so many things...I..."

A-Xiang smiled, "it's okay it had to be said someday or the other....they needed to hear that and you needed to say it...they had to know how we felt."

Yibo then looked at Zhan, "I am sorry I...revealed my profession."

Zhan smiled and hugged him, so gently and yet so lovingly as if Yibo was his world, "It's okay... I am not mad."

Yibo looked at him, "Why did you say sorry to me that day? I should be the one saying that."

Zhan held Yibo's hand, "I...shouldn't have slapped you, I went too far and I had no right, I said somethings I didn't mean and I went too far...I didn't hear your side. I am sorry for all of that..."

Zhan paused, "And that day I actually wanted to confess but...I am sorry."

Yibo looked down at their hands and smiled bitterly,"I always ruin everything."

Zhan shook his head, "No it was my fault."

"It's okay I have been called those names many times."

"No, it's not."

A-Xiang smiled and she felt like a third wheel so she left them to talk alone.

"I don't want to be just anyone or just another client for you Yibo." Zhan said as he looked into Yibo's eyes, "I want to be your lover,  I want to be special to you, love you, make you happy, make you smile... I want to be different because..." Zhan paused before he smiled as Yibo looked at him without blinking.

Zhan's every word touched his heart and made him want to hear more, "because?" Yibo asked.

"Because I love you."

Yibo smiled suddenly as he wiped his tears, he looked at Zhan, "Why?"

"There is no way...my brain just released a chemical, especially for you that made my heart race every time I see you, my lip would curl up for you, my eyes always look for and my ears always want to hear your voice it's a dangerous chemical reaction."

Zhan said before they both laughed.

They sat in silence for some time before Yibo spoke, "When I was two, my mom dumped me with grandpa because she had to travel with dad A-Xiang used to be sick all the time as well so my parents had to look after her themselves."

I lived with my grandfather for twelve years of my life, my granny had died ages ago," Yibo spoke, and once again his tears leaked from his eyes as he spoke about the most beautiful yet most painful part of life.

"It was always just me and my grandpa and our little farm, our little world. He taught me so many things he raised me and I was so happy forgetting that I actually have parents he was my mom and dad both for me." Yibo said before he pressed his lips and exhaled and wiped his tears.

 "The one day after ten long years my parents come back and say, 'Hey we are back we are going to take you with me, we don't care about your feeling or about how happy you are here.

we are just going to destroy your paradise and take you away and throw you in some other harsh place all alone with no support and even take that one angel in your life away from you.' " Yibo cried more, all while trying to control his feelings.

And Zhan heads everything attentively, sincerely, "I was very angry I was very sad and I threw a hige tantrum and I got heartbroken when my grandfather said that it will be good for me to be with my parents because a child needs his paretns

I was mad and angry, so I devised a plan...I thought that maybe if I get sick my parents won't take me...and so..." Yibo closed his eyes and collected himself, "so I jumped in the swimming pool, I know swimming so I stayed their for hours before my grandafther came to take me back.

I said no, I won't go, I said that I hate you for suppporting my paretns...and he came and joined me in the swimming pool and promised that no matter where I was he was just a phone call away that he would always be there for me."

Yibo stopped again and kept a hand on his chest, while Zhan hugged him, "And while I was happy I couldn't notice that my granpa was in pain too not just I but he was devastated too. I swam to the end but my granfather never came to the end.

When I looked back I saw him clutching his chest and floating on the water, groaning on the water before he..." Yibo broke down, "He before he drowned right in front of my eyes I was so tiny and helpless that I couldn't help him...that day because of all the stress and everything else he had a heart attack....and...because of me...he..."

Zhan hugged him tughter as if to hide him from the world, as if willing to take all his pain as if wanting to hide and protect Yibo for life. While he wiped his tears.

"I got sick...just like I wanted but no one took care of me...unlike my grandpa no one...no one was like him and on the funeral I met my twin my sick sister...who became my shield that day."

Yibo broke the hug and spoke, "I didn't mean to harm A-Ling I just...couldn't move that day."

Zhan nodded and higged him back as he wiped his own tears over and over again, "I am sorry...I didn't to harm him."

"I know...I know everything..." Zhan said and muttered sweet words in Yibo's ears.