It's still just March and I'm still wanting him back, I'm not paranoid or something am I? No totally not, I started to draw since AK said it relaxes sometimes, I'm just drawing him there are maybe 100 drawings of him on my book, I really need him back to me, but how? He is dead for years and I think he would still hate me, I broke our promise of never fighting each other, I made his daughter an orphan again, I'm a terrible person, I still want forgiveness from her but she doesn't want to talk about that topic, I started to go outside and hear music I'm always jogging with AK cause of this, I feel a little bit better now, but I still want hugs from him, Buddhist monkey told me that he can bring him back but that would cost half of his memories but he said just the "bad memories that haunt him" I smile and thank him for it, I just need to wait for it to happen while I wait I hear music's he sended me before all of this happened

Now that I think about it this song was a hint he wanted to date me, I'm a moron for not noticing it was so obvious! I may need to be the one to do that when he comes back, I feel quite better by listening to this while I hug the necklace or a plush of him AK gave me, I feel safe now....