Am seventeen am black am a Nigerian...... Am an only child

My life is a mess am born by mistake

You might wonder why I say so ? I'll tell you

I was born in the month of July 2003 I lived in Lagos all my life ......I grew without my mom and I was told when I was just six months old when she left , this is what happened

My mom who's a selfish bitch never cared about me and I got sick from lack of nutrition...... A sickness called kwashiorkor so she left me thinking I was going to die and she said she isn't ready to give birth just yet .......my grandmother took care of me and I grew up well if you see me you won't believe I was once sick .

My life was still great even without my mom and when I was twelve my dad died how painful because I was there . I still lived with my grandma and my other cousins but she died when I was fifteen how painful because I wasn't there I was in school . and now I live with my uncle who pays my fees and takes good care of me as his own daughter and finally something I can call a life .

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My school is really nice ......I love it tho am in the boarding school but it's the best for me because if I'm  home I get distracted by TV and phones

“ you're buying me today's lunch ” Ella said putting her hands over my shoulder

“ wow yeah keep dreaming ” I said laughing

“ pleaseeeee I left my money in the hostel  ”

“ and I left mine too ” I said sarcastically walking towards the food cafe

“ Liz .......please ” she beg

“ I'll like two hotdogs and two big fanta ” I said

“ thank you ”

“ it's not for you .....it's for Daisy ” I said smirking

“ oh God ” she said looking around. I know she's trying not to feel embarrassed

“ here !” I hand her the hotdog and fanta

“ thank you ” she smile

I'm not the type to keep best friends I just role with every body am a crazy bitch

I walk toward my class

“ hey Lize ” Smith shout

I turn to him “ it's Liz not lize if you can't call me that then don't bother calling or  talking to me ”

“ geez abeg chill ” meaning ‘ geez please calm down ’

“ what do you want idiot ”

“ just give me 2h I nor get money ” meaning ‘ I just need 200 naira I don't have money ’

“ don't be scared I don't have also ” I smile sarcastically

“ why you dey lie ?....you're never broke ” meaning ‘ why are you lying?....... You're never broke ”

“ exactly I don't want to give you or can your brain not tell you ...or I forgot you've got no brain ”

“ sorry oooo I just asked for 200 naira you wan just curse the life commot for my body ” meaning ‘ sorry I asked for just 200 naira and you just want to insult the life out of me ’ he says and walk away

I really hate most guys in my school they are just too low  in brain work sometimes........ I'm an average student

Am fair in complexion, my hair not so long but it's the type Nigerians call virgin hair and its curly

I'd have given Smith the money if only he called my name properly...... I hate when they spoil my name . Boys in my grade  seems to have this particular respect for me and I don't know why but I like it

The rest of they day in school was nice , I slept in chemistry class and they made fun of the government teacher it was really fun , but I'm not the type to disrespect teachers even if I insult them behind but I don't do it right in front of them.And to let you know that I'm an art student

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I walk to my dormitory alone smiling and thinking of me and BTS or being the only girl in the group

“ hey Liz! ” I turn to see Monalisa she's one friend I really like tho .......she's really crazy just like me “ I did not see you during lunch ” she said

“ I was just in my class ”

“ you nor just they finish for your class ” meaning ‘ you're always in your class ’

“ what to do na ?..... I go, get what I want and back to class ” I said and we saw a boy falls “ just see this idiot....... He nor fall well God ” meaning ‘ just take a look at that idiot........ He didn't fall well ’ I said and we walk toward our dormitory

“ oh God Liz you're too wicked ”

“ I'm not am very nice ”

“ but you're too Savage ”

“ my heart ........ I'm  very nice ”

“ keep lying to your self ” she said then there's a car at the front of our dormitory “ he be like say they done come for person... When tomorrow is visiting day ” meaning ‘ it looks like they've come for someone ’

“ I pray the person is in ss2 so I can eat ” I said dreamingly walking towards the gate . I'm almost in when the gatekeeper stop me

“ see Liz ” she said to the lady standing beside her ....her skin shinning, her hair long she's dark and I can't lie beautiful

Monalisa and I stop “ good day ma'am is there a reason I'm being stopped ?” I asked

“ she said she wants to see you ” the gatekeeper said  “ don't worry the teacher is aware ”

“ excuse me ......I don't know who she is ”

“ you're Liz ?” they Lady asked coming closer and I move back holding Monalisa's hand

“ yeah you heard her how may I help you ?”

“ you don't remember me ?”

“ ahhhh am I suppose to know you I've never meant you all my life..... Monalisa see me see this woman oo ” meaning ‘ Monalisa take a look at this lady ’

“ Liz she be like you oo ” meaning ‘  she looks like you ’ Monalisa said

“ they tell me I look like a lot of people Monalisa ”

“ it's me ......” she said tears dropping from her eyes .....God this is getting weird

Oh my God I hope it's not that

“ it's me your mom ”

I smile and turn to Lisa “ she said she's my mom .........isn't that funny...... My mom ...” I turn to her “ I don't have a mom lady ”

“ Liz I'm serious ”

“ and I'm motherfucking serious I don't have a mom okay I don't know where you kept your daughter but it isn't me okay ”

“ Liz am sorry ”

“ hold it .........I don't want that okay the Liz you left is gone ....wait isn't that why you ..........”

“ mommy..... Can we go now ” I look at the little girl she's a mixture of black and white skin , she's brown skin

“ wow ......then why come looking for me when you've got another child? ” I shout hitting the gate angrily. Yeah people don't like the angry me

“ Liz calm down ” Lisa and the gatekeeper said students turn to our direction.... Yeah Nigerians like a place where there is fight

“ I should calm down? This lady left me for seventeen years just because I was sick .....and now she's back telling me she's sorry so I'll come back to her and what's more funny is I don't know why she's here because she has a daughter...... Isn't she just a slut ?” I shout

“ hey you my mom is not a slut ” the little girl shout

I raise my hand threateningly “ shut up before I slap your little voice out of you ....... I bet you're next this one she's going to leave you on the street ” I said and she hide behind her mom

“ what's going on why is she talking to mom that way ?” another girl said coming she's also brown skin and they are both with American accent , walking with her is a guy obviously older than me he's completely white ....with brown hair ....his eyes blue and his pink lips

“ wow ....well done you gave birth to beautiful children... Why do you need me huh ! Huh ..........you left my dad do you even know he's dead ? Huh !”

“ yeah I know ”

“ wow ...... I hate you bitch ......I hate you ” I shut

“ that's enough that's my mom you're talking to ” the guy finally shout

“ I tell you say I nor know ?” meaning ‘ did I tell you I'm not aware ?’

“ what......”

“ shut up ......you're here shouting that's my mom ......you guys don't worry you're next to be dumped or wait you're old enough ” I turn to her “ you really do hate me right..... You ......nice one lady ”

I turn and walk inside angrily holding Lisa