Zoe's POV: Laying on my back on Chris's couch I wondered what it would feel like to have Chris's arms around me for than a few seconds , or what it would feel like to wake up next to him with his arms wrapped around my waist and his hot breath fanning my neck.

when Chris first introduced me and Jordan it broke me cause I've always been in love with him...  4 months into Mine and Jordan's relationship everything was fine until things took a turn for the worst he would yell at me and mentally and physically abuse me and said that if I told anyone then he would kill me and anyone I told  and having no one apart from Chris I couldn't put his life at risk.

He meant and still does mean so much to me and I often wonder what it would be like to have Chris telling me that my self harm isn't for attention like Jordan says it is but it's actually a cry for help.

"Hey Chris." I look towards the end of the couch where he was with my legs draped over his lap.
"What's up" he asked looking from the tv to me and back.

"How do you feel about Jordan?"

"He's a lying bastard"

"But you introduced us.."

"I know I just didn't mean for it to go this far.
Why? what's up"

"Oh nothing I was just curious."

I wanted to ask what he meant but I didn't want to pry. Plus he's my best mate I highly doubt he likes me in that way, it's been 6 years he would have told me by now.

Going back to my thoughts they started to take a turn for the worst,they got so bad that I didn't realise I had been tugging at the sleeve of Chris's shirt so when I felt him intertwine his fingers with me it made me jump but also brought comfort because I was distracted by how soft his hands were and how it fits in mine like it's made just for me.