"He's absolutely crazy." I scoffed as I paced around an empty classroom as the boys stared at me in shock. "I can't believe he ran off to that stupid gang! Who fucking does that? I understand his home life isn't the best but he's going to literally get himself killed! He's so stupid! And I tried to keep him here but he didn't listen!"

Seungmin, Jeongin, Felix, Chan, Changbin, Minho, and Jisung were sitting on the chairs near me as I spewed out my anger towards Hyunjin.

"Uh, she hasn't ever been this mad or open before... What did Hyunjin do?" Felix spoke up to the boys with a nervous chuckle.

"He went to the stupid Stray Kids gang to try to get in! He's leaving us to get in! What the fuck!" I shouted as I slammed a hand on the table.

Chan walked towards me and pat my shoulder softly. "It'll be okay, I know how strong he is and maybe he won't even find them!"

I glared at him before taking a step away, he was getting too comfortable with me and I needed to shut this down now.

"We need to go look for him—" I started.

"We need to wait for him, he will come on his own." Minho spoke up with his arms crossed and stood up. "I know he cares about us, he wouldn't just leave and never come back."

"Well this stupid Stray Kids gang has gotten way out of hand, he's been obsessed since day one and what if they kill him for trying to get in?" I panicked.

The boys shared a small chuckle in amusement to my reaction as if they knew something I didn't know.

Those freaks.

"I'm done, if you guys don't want to help I'll go myself." I stormed out of the classroom as tears formed in my eyes.

I missed Hyunjin so much and even if I'm mad I just want him back. He was my brother and never once did I think I would lose him like this.

I need to follow him.

• • •

It's been weeks, maybe around a month and I still haven't seen Hyunjin. And to be completely honest I'm a fucking wreck.

I haven't gone to school all this week because I've broke into hyunjin's room to wait till he gets back.

He hasn't come back.

So i studied his room, he left his important items here for sure so he would be coming back... Right?

Nothing indicated where he went, the exact location of that damn mafia building wasn't here.

I don't care at this point, i don't care if he joins I just want to know that he's safe.

Suddenly I heard the sound of the window opening to my left, no fucking way.

"Ow!" Hyunjin fell into the room as he held his wrist in pain.

That stupid boy.

"You're back." My eyes watered as the boy stood up from the floor in the darkness, the only light source being the moon.

He turned to me with widened eyes before face palming and sitting in the chair at his desk.

"You're here." He spoke in a deeper voice as he took off his shoes.

"I'm here? Fuck you, I've been staying here since you left. I thought you weren't coming back." I said as I gave him a hug which crushed his bones.

"Ah! Ulani calm down—"

"Don't you tell me to calm down! I was worried that you just disappeared! What happened? Are you okay? Did you find them?" I questioned as I checked his face and body.

"Im— Jesus! Okay! Okay! I'm fine, I just didn't know the training time would take up to a month and then there would be a test." Hyunjin explained as he dropped his body on his bed in exhaustion.

"Your parents didn't even know you were gone, they didn't even check and you're lucky they didn't find out." I scolded.

"I don't care if they do find out, I'm leaving this house anyways." He spat.

"Leaving? Hyunjin." I sat on the bed and held his hand. "Please don't leave me."

I felt the tears fall down my cheeks as  my nose became runny. He can't leave, I need him.

He's my brother and I can't lose him.

"You're like a brother to me Hyunjin, please don't disappear forever." I whimpered.

"Ulani— Are you crying? No, no, no, hey I'm not going to disappear forever." Hyunjin held me close to his him in a hug as I began to let out my emotions.

Never would I have thought he'd join a gang, I know he wants this and he'll be happier but I don't want our friendship to die.

"I sent Chan to take care of you for when I'm not around, in fact all of the boys will take care of you. But you getting comfortable with them is your choice, if you don't need them then just say the word and they won't speak to you anymore." Hyunjin smiled as he pat my hair down. "It's your choice."

"I don't give a fuck, Hyunjin. I just want you to stay, I'll ask my mom if you can stay—"

"No." Hyunjin interrupted with a frown. "I'll be okay on my own and you need to learn to open up to more people, step out of your comfort zone and realize that you already have a good friendship with the boys. Trust them."

Trust them? I couldn't possibly trust them the way that I trusted Hyunjin. Why was he making me go through all of this pain? Why is he leaving me alone.

I don't care about his guy friends, why would he do this?