Hello everyone! Wow, can you believe it's over? I'm sorry that it was so rushed but that was for obvious reasons- which I explained before!

Time to explain the morals of Impulse!

Are you ready? Well this is what it was really about.... Play the song while you read if you wish. I explain the song at the end of the authors note!

I have revolutionized a new world with Impulse.

Marley was relatable. Aryiana/ Sage/ Violet were all relatable for one reason.

They were teenagers. Relatable.

They were everything you are are once were. I'm not saying you all had eating disorders or were raped but I have read multiple comments stating that you could relate to feelings.

Marley is a typical teenager girl looking for something beyond her and aren't we all? Looking for love in a boy ( or female, depending on your preference) who knows nothing of commitment but the tattoos on his/her arms and the addiction to the tar and tobacco that he/she smokes.

And yet we as humans feel as though we can change or even strive to be with that person.

Everyone wishes that their first love interest would work out- it's true whether you want to believe it or not but who doesn't?

My first love-true love. That I genuinely feel is actual love...is right now and I'm willing to fight for it.

Just as Marley is, but it comes in the form of lust for her, which is common.

We love in fear and in a way that's not love at all. It's uncertainty. The reason why I didn't make Ian and Marley fall in love was for a reason. A point that some of you may or may not understand.

For one, it was what you expected once you began reading the book. I've noticed that all of my books end up in the same way.

She always gets the guy. The main character starts off lost and ends up with someone and is found.

Marley started off as any other teenager...then lost herself. Without the guy.

I wrote about a subject that is so common and cliche- I wanted to change that. Despite the fact, it was rushed. It would have ended the same.

At first I killed Violet, then changed my mind.

Then I was going to keep Marley killed as well. But then changed my mind again, this is how I feel as though one of the most cliche subjects should end.

This is how I want my last book on Wattpad (for a long time) to end. I want you to realize, you don't need a Prince Charming to be saved. Some of you may realize that but some of you may still get the idea that you're dependent...and you don't have to be.

It's a choice. The choice to wake up from your dream.

High School and Life in general is no fairytale. There are ways that we subconsciously are creating a world that simply does not exist. You didn't have to read Marleys book to understand that because you're reading mine.

This book is telling you to Wake Up. Wake up to yourself and wake up to your pain.

Wake up to reality and don't be afraid to face it because in one way or another, you're either going to need a nightmare or receive rude awakening.

I didn't want my books to be like any other High School story. I didn't want to carve a cliche world around the typical student-teacher Romance because as you all know I don't just write a few sex scenes and they eventually fall in love and call it a book.

I put the things we deal with as people in hoping that you guys can reach an erotic moment with your lover.

Sex isn't a bad thing. There's nothing wrong with writing about it and people see it as the same.

Either you write teen fiction or adult fiction.

But why not both? Why not teach people what their feeling? Help analyze?

Which brings me to another subject about this book.

Aryiana was raped. Sage had an eating disorder. Violet had cancer and Marley nothing.

As a child, I was miserable at times and sometimes it felt as though it were for no reason once I saw other people going through things that were worse.

I hated and still do hate hearing "People have it worse."

Complaining about other peoples problems doesn't bring closure to your own. It puts you in denial and makes it seem like there are no issues at all.

Ultimately I just want to get the point across that your pain is valid.

Your emotional pain tolerance will not be like your best friends or even your cousins. You're different but what you're going through does matter. Whether you are going through a divorce, a break up or even had bad grades. If it hurts you, it matters and I don't care what people say otherwise.

They say this wont matter years from now, but it's in the moment and it sucks and I want to help people deal with their sucky moments.

That's why I post some of what I go through. I want to be relatable. I don't want to be some random author that you guys know nothing about.

But I don't put my whole life story out there. I felt as though I had to be silenced so I began writing instead.

I want you guys to know that I'm no queen...or a goddess. Sometimes in my mind I am but most of the time, I can be just as miserable as Sage or as Aryiana.

Sometimes I feel as though I'm Marley...because I relate to her the most out of any character but still her pain was valid.

She was showing empathy and not sympathy and there is a difference.

I want things to change in this world. I want it to be different for people. For gays, for minorities, for the misunderstood.

The different brand of human I reach out to because I'm so much like them... the so-called 'misfits.' There is nothing wrong with you. Friends will come and go and the lessons they leave behind are the things that should remain. Pain is unfriendly reminder but it's a matter of changing your wounds from cutting into battle scars.

That image in the mirror of being model skinny when it's being You. No matter if you're a size 3 or 30. Work every curve, whether it's your tum, ass, or smile. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Your pain is valid.

The reason why I killed Ian was for many many reasons. The first reason is I killed him in a metaphorical sense. I killed the childlike dream for Marley. I killed it for us all because when you first begin reading this book, you automatically assume that all books and all tales about love have a happy ending (Unless you're Shakespere)

But I was writing about truth. Not neccesarily all of this happening but stil.. Sometimes love doesn't work out. Sometimes life doesn't work out but that's because it happens all for a reason.

You'll learn it in years to come. I personally thank all of my past shitty relationships.

I was searching for something I thought I wanted: Male Attention. Because I didn't have it from my father and then I realized (even at a young age) I didn't need Male attention. I wanted it because it's what I thought was normal. I forced myself into a lifestyle and tricked my own mind.

Around last year, I did things. Really bad things just to discover who I was. I wanted to be lusted for. By men. I said things to attract them. To want me and once they did....I didn't want it.

I didn't sleep around for one, but some females think it's bad to want guys to want them and it's not. Because I did too....and then I realized..I didn't want guys at all. I didn't want my last boyfriend- just the thoughts that came with him about having a gorgeous boyfriend.

I didn't want sex. I wanted the attitude that came with it of being known for having bomb ass sex. When all I did was exaggerate.

Then when I met my girlfriend.......sweet God almighty. I just knew. That's how I knew and I found myself.

I finally found flower.

Now I want you guys....to find your inner flower.

Flowers dont pay attention to the people growing beside them...grow at your own speed. You just need your bit of sunshine. Channel Flower! Your inner flower.

Here are some Q & As for you guys as well.

Why was Zachary angry?

For many reasons, if you reread. He wanted to be taken care of and intially saved in his own special way. He just wanted someone to care and that led him thinking no one cared at all. That's how it is for most, but of course people don't lash out the way he did.

Why did you let Aryiana get an abortion?

I touched the issue of abortion because as a feminist, I support abortion. People say "There are other ways. You're killing the baby." Etc and I find that really really ignorant to say. We don't know what the mother goes through. Especially a product of rape. Even saying. "It's a baby. Not a choice." When in reality, we are all choices. Your life is a choice. Everything is simply a choice. And it's the womans' choice. They carry the baby for 9 months. Not you. They go through the actual birth. Not you. And no one should have a say in it because you know nothing of their life or their trauma. Why be the cause of more? Worry about your own body and your own life. If your head is so far up somebody else's ass, you won't pay attention to what's going on in your life. A womans body- a womans' choice. Point blank period.

Why did you allow Marley to get pregnant?

Because, I also sort of wanted to raise awareness for the single mothers. My mother was one and moved Hell over for my brother and I. Plus, I wanted her to have some memory of Ian. He died, but something of him lives on. And she won't ever forget that.

Are Aryiana and Marley now together?

I don't know, are they? That's up for you to decide.

Are they based off of people in real life?

Yes. Sage- is my friend Grace. She doesn't have an eating disorder but she's very silly and funny like Sage. Our conversations are just like I wrote it.

Violet- my friend Nyasia. She never had cancer but she's very snarky like Vi. Always has a comeback for anything and everything.

Aryiana- my girlfriend. She wasn't raped/ pregnant or thrown out of her house for being gay. But she's always there for someone like Aryiana. Reliable. Down to Earth.

Just as they all are.

Marley- Is a writer like I am. But we think the same way. And we try to be there for people.

So it was weird when people shipped Ary and Marley because I was like....oops. I didn't mean to make them seem attracted to each other but it just happened.

Ian- does not exist. Maybe in some aspect but nothing that relates to me. Everyone else I just created.

Did you base Marley off of yourself?

Yes and no. The more I continued to write about her, the more I related to each other. I found myself in Marley. Sometimes it felt as though I wasn't even writing the book but it was something else inside me writing. Maybe my inner flower- I dont know.

Will there be a sequel?

No.

Will you come back to Wattpad and if so when?

Hell yeah! And probably 6 months to a year. It depends. But when I come back...you'll know. So please dont unfollow me or anything! My page will remain up! So you can read some of my other works!

Will you publish Impulse?

On smashwords.

Will you come back on Wattpad to check in?

Occasionally, to reply to comments perhaps. But the only time I will post anything will be if I publish one of my books and you can go buy it. That's all.

How can we contact you?

Instagram: fl0wersniffinx

twitter: fl0wersniffinx

I'm always there to say hey! I post a lot of selfies, pictures of me and my girlfriend and I give out advice on videos. I reply back as soon as I can.

Will you give us Christmas chapters like with She and Possession?

Nope.

But anyways guys....that's it....Just remember...

Allow yourself to wake up and step outside of your comfort zone. Stand up for what you believe in. Be your princess or your prince. Save yourself from the dragon. Ground yourself.

Be your own happy ending...because in the end. That's what it's about.

I'm going to post ONE MORE AUTHORS NOTE! And that will be my Farewell Wattpad & Teachers Pet.

Well...that's the end of the #ImpulseEra.

Thank you again for reading.

I love you bunches.

xo flower.

Last A/N coming tomorrow

xx

P.S My song for this book and to all of my readers is Truce by Twenty One Pilots...listen to it. From me to you all <3