For some reason I was scared to publish this chapter it took me a good 7 minutes of staring at the publish button lmao

Sooooooooo. I was thinking about turning this into a series. I've actually had this idea for a long while lol. (Since I started reading fanfics..) Ive just been time scared to write it .. I was trying to think about a schedule I would do for Suga. Since I would like to do more requests for him, but also do this at the same time. What I was thinking, is close his requests until I finish this series.. how do you feel about that? I have done some research on this topic and I hope not to upset anyone. So if you think that the topic OCD will offend you, or trigger you I advise you not to read.

I want this series to raise awareness for this topic, I hope that people know OCD isn't just wanting things to be organized. Saying you have OCD because you think 'it's cool' or 'trendy' isn't funny, nor tolerated here. It's a serious condition that can cause people to fall depressed. Please keep that in mind before you say you have it, when in reality you don't.

Please forgive any of my mistakes, gladly point them out. In a nice way please.

Now let's begin the first part in this series..

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Yoongi's Pov

It's more than just I need to arrange my pens in a neat line. It's, if I don't put my pens in a certain order something will happen. What if Hoseok comes in and the green one isn't in line properly and it rolls of the table. Then Hoseok slips on the pen, it's all going to be my fault. I don't want to hurt him. I need to protect him, because as soon as I lose him something will happen. I can't let that happen. He's my best friend and, I-I just can't see him suffer. I know for a fact that if I leave his side someone will hurt him. So I need to stay by him at all costs. I will actually dedicate my life to keeping him safe if I have to.

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3rd Pov

Yoongi is overwhelmed. The build up of sweat on his forehead drips down into his eyes, each droplet leaving a stinging sensation that won't go away even if he pleaded. Carefully walking to his position on the stage making sure to count each and every step he took. Left, Right. Left, Right. Left, Right. Every Step he took brought more fear into his brain, his negative thoughts took over him. Is Hoseok safe? I need to find him. Picking up his head looking left, he's not there. Panicked, he looked to his right. Walking along right beside him was Hoseok. He's in danger, the older thought. By who, he didn't know. Hoseok was walking confidently clearly not counting each dangerous step he took, the younger rapper picked up his walking pace. Leaving the older steps behind. He got further away from Yoongi with each step.

Go save Hoseok. The farther away he is from you the more danger he is in, you don't want him in danger do you? He walked faster, just fast enough to catch up to him without loosing count of his steps. One foot after another. Hoseok gripped onto Taehyung's hand, Tae's clammy sweaty hand gripping onto the rappers like it was the last chocolate bar him and Jungkook were fighting over the previous night. Hoseok's grip isn't as tight or passionate. Hoseok's face is plastered with a solid smile, looking as happy as ever. His heart smile reveals his perfect teeth, the color so white you could see it from miles away. His smile was blinding. Beautiful. Protect that smile at all costs Yoongi. Protect it. 1,2,1,2,1,2,1. They have arrived at their destination of the center of the stage. The seven members formed their way into the line, Yoongi hanging out at the back. Jin in the center with Namjoon just to the left. Jimin and Jungkook were on the right while Hoseok and Tae are on the left. Hoseok stood on the inside of Tae, next to Namjoon.

Get by Hoseok. He needs you to keep him safe. Counting his steps once more, he squeezed his way right beside Hoseok now standing in-between him and Tae. Doing this broke the hand holding session between the two. Taehyung looked up at the older frowning. Whispering, 'what was that?' Yoongi was not paying attention, instead focusing on the thoughts running through his mind. An instant replay of his last step. It landed on one. One. One is an odd number, not an even number. Take another step. Or else Hoseok will get hurt. It has to land on an even number. Taehyung and Hoseok's feet were angled in front of his, preventing him from taking a step without tripping on one of them. But he had to do it. Or else someone would hurt Hoseok. He can't step backwards, no way. Backwards would mean he would have to step forward twice to get back in line. And it has to be in a straight line. Or Hoseok might die. Hoseok cannot die. His palms were sweaty and his stomach turned again. He felt nauseous and sick. His head pounded with the sound screams of the fans as Namjoon spoke to them. What Namjoon was saying was inaudible to him, he was too focused on protecting Hoseok. Take the darn step already. He moved his right foot slightly forward, tripping over the younger vocalist. He stumbled, clearly visible to his members and Army. The attention turned to him, for once he could focus on something other than Hoseok;

The fact that all the attention was on him.

Jin laughed, Jimin and Jungkook stared at each other smirking before turning their attention the the clumsy rapper. Hoseok nudged his side, Taehyung attempted to pulled the rapper up by his arm all while laughing at him. Yoongi rejected his help, instead reaching his arm out feeling around for Hoseok's. He found it eventually, knowing exactly how his hands feel. He gripped his forearm pulling himself up to his feet. He looked the younger in the eye, seeing the smile fade into a concerned frown. He mouthed, 'are you okay?' Yoongi nods. His eyes gloss over guilt filling him. Yoongi searches the younger rappers eye's for reassurance of him being okay. 'Are you okay okay?' Dang it Yoongi. Stop repeating yourself. 'Okay?'
"yea I'm okay Yoongs."
"are you okay?"

Yoongi resists the urge to hit himself. He really tries to, but once again he falls into the trap. He begins to lightly slap his right leg repeatedly. Until Hoseok uses his own to guide Yoongi's hand to his pocket.
"Don't do that okay?"

"Are, are you you okay?"
"Yes I'm okay. Don't hit yourself okay?"
"Okay okay okay."

Hoseok grips the older's hand tighter, looking him directly in the eye. He's really having a bad day today. Today is definitely not one of his best days, but Hoseok can only think that this is the beginning to a long week. A microphone is shoved into the older rapper's face, in which he takes his hand out of his pant pockets grabbing the mic with his now free hand. Not letting go of Hoseok's. Hoseok doesn't argue with this, letting him feel the comfort of knowing that he is safe. Yoongi begins to shake a little his hands twitching. 'Fight it Yoongi.' 'Don't start hitting yourself.' He needs to. Or, or else Hoseok will be in danger. It will all be his fault. The grip he feels on his hand is getting tighter, he looks slightly upward. Picking up his head to look at the beautiful boy standing right next to him. The dancer gives him a nod and a smile.

"Hi everyone... It's it's Suga!" Dang it Yoongi. His hands shake more and it becomes more and more noticable. Hoseok is in danger, you need to save him. He hands the mic over to Taehyung who gladly takes it, immediately beginning to talk after shooting the older a concerned look. Yoongi's hand glides across his pants until it reaches his thigh. He smacks it, hard. It stings him, But it's worth it, Hoseok is safe now. 'Keep going Yoongi, the danger is getting farther.' He slaps his leg again, gaining the younger's attention.

It's one of his obsessive behaviors. He needs to do it or else something bad will happen. Both the hitting himself, and repeating words. It's common for people with OCD, everyone's behaviors being different. It can be annoying to those who don't know he has this disorder, but to the members; it's normal. He can't help it.

"Hey, stop that." Using his now spare hand which was previously behind his back, he grabs the olders hand as it continues to smack his leg. Each slap is harder and harder, the patch of red skin underneath his pants aren't visible at the moment. Yoongi doesn't listen, instead fighting him and gently swiping it away.

"Hyung your OCD is acting up again-hey. Don't do that." Hoseok says as calmly and quietly as he can. The cameras thankfully don't zoom in on their conversation, therefore not projecting onto the big screen. "I'm okay, see? I'm safe."

"Not yet, not yet not yet. Unless I hit hit myself."
"No honey. Don't hit yourself it will hurt."
"No, no it will save save you. You." Hoseok pulls harder on Yoongi's hand this time, ripping the grip away from his hand on his leg before he can hit it again.

"Meds. Please."
"Didn't you already have some?" Hoseok whispers quietly, quieter than before to Yoongi.
"More. I want to know know that you're safe."
"But I am safe. Look at me baby." Yoongi for some reason thinks the floor is the most interesting thing to look at, turning his attention to it.

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"Thank you for coming Army! Thank you Seoul" That wraps up their world tour. It was a very fun experience for the members, each having their personal favorite moments.

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"I loved Dallas!" The second Maknae chirped up on the car ride home from the dorm.
"Tokyo was cool too!" The real Maknae also said.

"Hoseok did you have fun fun?"
"Yes baby, yes I did!" Yoongi smiles, hand in hand with Hoseok.

"Glad to see you smiling Yoongi!" The eldest Hyung looks over to him, smiling as well. Yoongi nods. Putting his head down once more. That was only one nod Yoongi, do it again. Picking his head up again, he nods. Good, Hoseok is safe now. This relief doesn't last long though, Tae is asking him want they want for dinner.

"kimchi!"
"Hoseok we always have that, how about Japchae."
"No! How about Yoongi chooses then." Yoongi perks up at the mention of his name, slowly but surely gliding his hand to his thigh patting it to a smooth rhythm.

"I-I don't know. I kind of just want to go home, take my meds and go go to sleep. My head hurts and I'm dizzy." Jin looks concerned for the rapper looking at Hoseok who nods.

"His OCD has been acting up." He whispers to him. Jin nods, opens his mouth like he's going to say something. Then he doesn't and his mouth shuts and his head drops. The car goes silent for a couple minutes until Jin regains the urge to break the silence.

"Didn't you already take your meds today?"
"I-I-I need more. I don't think think they are working working.."
"No hun, that's not how it works. If you meds don't work you get new ones. Don't take more it's unhealthy."

Yoongi clenches his fists, and his face is turning red. He is sweating a lot, he slaps his leg harder than he ever has before. His hand fist relaxes, completely unraveling itself. He runs his fingers through his hair, starting to calm a bit.
"That's it Yoongi calm down, you're okay." The little Mochi says while snuggling in closer to JungKook.

"Don't tell me to calm down! I don't need to calm down!" He shouts, shocking the driver a bit. His hand is no longer gently running through his hair, but tugging at it. He pulls as hard as he can before letting go strands start to fall out from the presser.

"Hey- shhhhh. Don't do that." Hoseok says while rubbing his back. They haven't let each other's hand go yet.

"I don't need to freaking calm down. I need- need to save you.."
"Baby, you're doing so good. Now, can I see your hand?"
"Yes-yes." Yoongi puts his hand in Hoseok's free one.

"Wait. Wait." The strands he picked out earlier lie on his lap, he counts them one by one. 7. Seven is not an even number. Hoseok cant get hurt, I need to take out another strand of hair. He yanks his hand away from the younger, Jin coming in to try and help Hoseok who is still in shock. Yoongi successfully gets out more hair, this time picking out more than needed. 3. Phew, we are safe. Hoseok is safe. 10. Ten is an even number. You can stop now Yoongi. A sigh of relief exits Yoongi's mouth proud that he's now kept Hoseok safe.

"Yoongi, how many pills do you take a day?"
"As as, as many as I I want.."
"What do you mean?"
"When I know know you're safe safe.." Hoseok sighs, looking at Jin for help. Jin doesn't say anything, only focusing his attention to softly brush his thumb against Yoongi's hand.

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As soon as the band arrives home Yoongi collapsed onto the couch.

"So.. dizzy."
"How about you nap until dinner?"
"Hoseok!" Yoongi pops up from his calm state in the couch into a one of panic and worry.

"Hoseok is in his room, he's okay." Yoongi doesn't acknowledge this, still concerned for the younger.
"Hoseokie! Yoongi is is coming!" Yoongi bangs his fish against his forehead, Jin reacting immediately pulling his arm away and attempting to sit him on the couch.

"No!" Yoongi swats at Jin, in which Jin smoothly dodges them. Yoongi takes off running down the hall, and to be honest; that's the fastest Jin has ever seen Yoongi run. And then he hears a thud. Man down.

"Owwwww! Watch were- Yoongi?"
"Hoseok! Are you okay okay?" He says starting up hitting his forehead again.
"Jin Hyung!" JungKook shouts from on the group, getting back up from walking into Yoongi in a panicky state.

"Oh gosh, I'm coming!" He yells back, continuing to run towards the duo. Meanwhile, Yoongi is yelling, the sounds traveling through the soundproof walls.

"Yoongi?"
"Hoseokie? Are are you okay?"
"Just fine baby."
"Did someone hurt you?"
"Nope."

Yoongi smiles, his Hoseok is safe. His smile drops as he realizes he needs to protect him better next time. Yoongi takes Hoseok by the arm dragging him back to the living room where the TV is still on playing the same channel as before.

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"We need to get him to a doctor. He is taking too many of those pills, Hyung."
"I know, and now he's pulling out his hair and hitting other people. I'll make an appointment for as soon as we can get in."
"Okay.."

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So, how did you like it? This is the first chapter to a new series I would want to start! I'm really excited for it, again sorry if I got facts wrong or offended you. I'm truly sorry.

I did some research on this topic, but then again you can't always trust the internet. Please forgive my mistakes.

Have a wonderful day.

<3

~Namjoon requests closed~

~Jimin Requests Open~