"I wish I was an immortal so I could live forever"

I closed my eyes as I remembered what he said. A strong gust of wind passed by, making my hair fly along with it. Tears flowing from my eyes as I stared at his grave.

How I wish...

I wasn't immortal

So that I woudn't be left behind again.

Mortals think that being an immortal is a blessing

But we, immortals, think its a curse

Unlike mortals, no matter what we do, we can't die

That is, unless we are killed by fellow immortals or by the person we love the most. That is the only way for us to die

But that is very hard, since there are only a few beings like me. Royal faes, unlike high faes and normal faes who eventually die after hundreds of years, we are immortals. We... don't die. No matter how many thousands of years passes, we don't die.

At first, I never understood why we were still forbidden from loving mortals since many faes already broke that rule. But now, I understand. It was for our own good.

Because... humans die in the end.

And we don't.

Lucky for high faes and normal faes, they still die after hudreds of years. They just need to wait for the time they can rest.

But we royal faes stay alive forever.

We are always left behind.

Everybody around us eventually dies and leaves us

But we can't

We have to endure the pain and live.

Its cruel.

Seeing all those you love dying in front of you and yet you can't do anything. You can just watch them die and cry. Because they... have an end. They eventually experience death

Even though you're tired of lossing your loved ones

Even if you want to rest

Even if you want to give up and die...

You can't

I feel envy for those who have an end

Because they just need to wait for the time when they can finally rest and be with their loved ones.

I never understood that before.

I never understood why people want to end their lives.

Why they give up

But now, after I lost him, I understand why

Because they're tired of everything

Because they can't take it anymore

I have nothing left now

I have no reason to keep living

But what can I do?

I have to live

I have to endure this

And wait for the time I can meet him again

The time when I can rest

But until then, I'll live

Even if it hurts, I'll live

Even if I want to give up, I'll stay alive... For him

Until we meet again, I'll be waiting