Whispers

Whispers they believe that could not be heard by me

But all those low whispers echoing behind these white, glooming walls. I can hear them clearly

'hiroto gone insane' they say

'what do we doctor?' they say

They fell for my act

All of them did

They actually believe I have forgotten who I am

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it was him

Him.

Him who I have claimed to be. Him who no longer should be roaming this world. Him who I share the same face with but not the same life.

My face filled with terror and confusing as my legs jerked up, coming to the same level as my brother.

Although we are identical twins, he held many features I don't. Huge orbs, that can't compare to mine as they contain warmth that can spread to anyone who comes in contact with them. Blacks locks that rustle along with the cold breeze air. Nose quite bigger then mine but suites his face quite will. Let's not forget his height, although I'm about a couple inches shorter, I can't help but fell small around his present

Finally finishing my observation I came to realization that we are nothing a like. Our clothes having a drastic difference. His voice sounding quite huskier then mine but somewhat also soothing.

This boy right here is the one who taehyung feel in love with not me

" you finally know " he spoke, those big orbs of his focus on nothing but me

" you finally know you're not me "

Having lost all my energy to speak I slipped out a little 'how', hopping he would understand my confusion, my seeking question that must be answered.

Knowing exactly what I meant, he released a low sigh as he ready himself for the words he would speak

" I been within you all this time " he began
" all those feelings you felt, all those stinging pain, all those unexpected anger. All those emotions you had no clue of was me "

He paused for a moment, talking the time to a line his hair properly from the attacked it received from the gusty wind.

" you don't love taehyung " he continued, voice somewhat struggling to keep claim
" you don't love taehyung " he repeated, making me flinch at the statement and how he delivered it.

" you might think you do but you don't, you just wanted him because you knew you couldn't have him, you knew his heart didn't belong to you, you knew that he wanted me "

I kept quiet, teeth harshly digging down my already swollen lips. As all this information attack me with sharp like objects.

Pain, sadness, GUILT were already slumped on my shoulder, becoming heavier with each explanation.

" the day you claimed that you were me, the day you snatched the name jeon jungkook as yours, you knew. you knew that the name jungkook didn't belong to you, you knew it all along "

Tears trickled their way down my face, bringing me coldness as the breeze come in contact with them.

" w-why? " I gripped tight to my shirt, trying to bare the light sting that swells through my throat.

" w-why did I do t-that? A-and how come I-I can't remember a single d-damn thing? " my eyes pled for an answer, an answer for the reason for why I stole his name and my belief of being him

" you wanted what I had " he simply said

" you were jealous of me. You were jealous of all the compliments I was given every time I received a high grade. All those 'good jobs', mother's and father's friends would speak. Being older even if it were just for a couple a second. And lastly having someone to laugh with " he paused, patiently waiting for me to slowly take all this in all at once
" you knew you weren't me when you claimed you were, you know for about 2 weeks but then you were fooled by your own lie and came to believe you were jungkook. You were desperately hurt and your mind blocked out any memory of me or your past that hold your true name. Your mind protected you, it knew you were in so much pain so it painted your own happiness "

My legs collapse on me, coming crashing down as my hands endlessly try to grip to the hard, cold floor.

I can't believe I have fallen for my own lie. A lie that was supposedly to protect me but in the end it did the opposite.

" t-taehyung " I uncontrollably spilled

" how did he- how did he see you all this time? "

He position himself in front me, now at my level and legs crossed.

" I couldn't leave him " he said, voice clearly full of sadness in which anyone can spot

" so I stayed with him " he forced a smile, no teeth on display just a plain smile that had lost it's joy. The smile soon faded away, as he continued

" but I had to go. I couldn't stay with him anymore because you're release from the hospital neared. I was given a chance to stay with taehyung as long as no one from my past life comes upon me and since you claimed my name and once shared a life together. I had to leave my poor lion "

It's all my fault

All of this is

I'm the cause of everyone's pain. I'm the cause of all the gloom in my brothers and taehyung's life. I'm the cause of them separating.

It's all on me

My fist tighten as more tears streamed down. Eyes puffing up more, lips bleeding red, face flushed pink.

I felt a slit warmth on my cheek, I gazed up to see jungkook's finger gazing upon my pink like flesh

But I couldn't feel the flesh of skin back

I stuck my hand out, trying to tangle my fingers in his hair but they simple slipped through him. I couldn't touch him, I couldn't feel him, he doesn't have the ability to have a life of a human.

He sighed, trying to bring me into a hug but failed in the end.

" hiroto "

I hmm for him to continue, my eyes still watery

" you might of though I had everything but I didn't " his fingers ghost my hair, attempting to comb through it

" yoongi " he spilled which surprised me, for I have not thought he would mention the other at a time like this

" you had yoongi " he smiled

" b-but he thought I-i was you " I eagerly explained but he just smiled

" he thought you're name was jungkook but he knew the real you. The real you who whines when not given what you want. The real you who constantly pranks others. The real you who gets frustrated at every task you can't do right. The you who truly cares for others but has a hard time showing it "

He's hand flowed through my hair as he try to ruffle it

" you had yoongi, such a great friend who cared so much for you " his head tilted to the side as a smile painted his face with such care and appreciation

All this time I been so focused on wanting what I didn't have that didn't pause and see what I already had

I smile formed my face as I remember all the little adventures me and the blonde boy encountered. All the escape we made from the hospital once the clock hit 12. Those laughs we shared as we threw tomatoes at passengers from the top of the hospital. All those nights in were I had nightmares of all the lies I told but yoongi stayed with me.

Having relapse all the amazing times I had spent, all those time I was happy, I made a bold decision in which I can't take back once done

" how can you stay? " I asked, voice full of nothing more then determination

He eyed me in confusion
" I need to transfer my position with someone else. Why do you ask? "

I roused to my feet " I'll do it "

" what!!?? " he rapidly stood on his feet, eyeing me like I was a madman

" I'll do it " I repeated, having made my mind and determine to go through it

" you're crazy! " he yelled
" you do realize you'll lose your life! Not only that, no one will remember you, you'll become a pure blur! " he tried to knock the scene out me, hoping I would rethink my decision but I made up my mind and there's nothing that can change it.

I released a frustrated sigh
" jungkook. I won't ever be happy if you don't go along with this. Please do it for me " I took a quick pause, locking my eyes with him

" do it for taehyung "

" hiroto I-

" watch over yoongi for me, he can be stubborn and won't admit he likes that short munchkin but his all I have left and his such an amazing person. I was so focus on being you that I didn't realize I was truly in love yoongi all this time "

His fingers trickled it's way up my face, lightly hovering over the tears that corner my eye

" hit-

I quickly whipped my remain tears
" we don't have time, taehyung needs you "

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taehyung pov

Lies

That's practically what I've been living in. That's practically what the past years people have been telling me.

I'm no better though

Asking jin to be my boyfriend when I knew I had no feelings towards him. I knew even if I've tired to gain feeling for the loving friend of mine, I will just fail in the end because in the end I will still love jungkook.

jungkook not jin

jungkook not his twin brother, who fooled me, fooled me to believe he was him, fooled me to believe my kookie was alive and just lost.

How could I be fooled?

How could I believe he was my precious kookie, who would walk up early just so he could make me pokemon pancakes, who would tickle me when I refused to wake up, and who would cuddle me to sleep every night.

I hid my face deeper into my arms, hugging myself tight as I sat on the light green grass that slowly shifts to the side as the breeze come softly tackling it.

The sound of birds chirping was flowing through the air, being also accompanied by the croaking frogs that sat securely on their own lily pad as the river seems to be at its calm state

This is the spot

The spot I encountered a 6 year old boy who claimed to be my older brother but in the end turn out to be so much more. The spot I were I was saved and the spot were I dead the same time. This spot brought me joy and sadness but I still love this spot because this spot

Is our spot

Having so many memories gushing back to me, I began to cry. I cried harder then I have the past weeks. My tears no longer felt so affected. No, they instead brought a familiar pain, a pain I have gotten use to. I could feel how my eyes began to puff up, checks blooming pink, body uncontrollably shaking.

I held myself tighter trying to spread as much warmth as I can but I felt nothing but coldness, nothing but the cold breeze attacking my sensitive skin.

" why are you crying? "

My eyes widen, still hidden from my arms. My head slowly lifted itself, eyes examining my whole surrounding, searching for the owner who spoke those words, searching and hoping it was him

And it was

Once my eyes caught a glimpse of him, it locked itself on him and only him. He gifted me with a his bunny tooth smile.

" stop crying, I command you to stop " he spoke, as he neared himself towards me and pulling me into a hug.

Once his hand circled around me I instantly buried myself deep into his chest, feeling his warmth radiate throughout my body, his heart slowly pounding like a beautiful melody and hands glazing upon my hair. In that moment I knew he was real, I knew he was not just a figment of my imagination. I knew.

I knew he was the real jungkook

" JUNGKOOK!! " I cried as I clenched onto him, fearing I would lose him once again if I ever just a slight bit loosen my grip.

" JUNGKOOK! MY JUNGKOOK! " his shirt began to become soaked as my tears splash upon it.

His warm fingers then began to draw circles on my back, attempting to calm and it slowly began to work.

He softly laid his chin on my head, giving it a quick kiss before doing so.
" it's me " he assured, nuzzling his nose in my hair

My grip tighten even more, painting my knuckles white.

" p-please. Oh p-please never leave m-me again. I-i can't live with out y-you "

He brought my face up, face cuffed by his warm, soft hands as his thumb gazed upon my checks, rubbing soothing circles. His eyes locked with mine, feeling the love it carries which I have thought I would never see again.

" I love you too much to ever do that to you again "

He then connected our lips together, moving them in a slow motion against mine.

Being shocked by his action I froze but once he gave another rub against my already pink checks with his soft thumb I respond back.

Considering this was my third kiss, first being a simple peck, second being with jin's but being to shock to respond. I didn't quite know what to do so I simple followed jungkook's lead.

The kiss felt so different

Different from the kiss I had with jin

I felt as if our lips were like puzzle pieces, fitting perfectly together. I felt nothing but love, love that I once thought I would never gain back. I felt how he laid all his feelings in the kiss and I did the same thing.

I looped my arms around his neck, trying to bring him closer into the kiss, our lips danced across each other, wanting nothing more but the other. His hands tight on my waste as he left me up on his lap.

By this point I have gotten the idea of how the whole kissing thing worked and gave his lips a slight suck just like when jin did to mine. He suddenly broke the kiss, eyes looking at me in complete utter shock

" who taught you that? " his voice somewhat sounded angry but he still held a calm face

" n-no one " I said as I hid my face in his chest

" good, because you're too cute to know those kind of stuff " he chuckled which resulted to him getting hit on the chest by me

I snuggled deeper into his chest, hearing the soothing sound of his heartbeat. I closed my eyes, replaying the day we meet. The first word he said to me, like he said just moments ago.

" kookie "

He hmm, tightening his hold on me

" I love you "

" I love you more, my little lion "

The end

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Imitation has finally come to an end.
I'm so thankful you guys stayed with me on this story even thought I fucked your brain
I love you guys <3
I been thinking of making a bonus chapter would you like one?