This story will taking place by Fudou, since we are already talking about you. Let's see how is Fudou doing after he found out that you are missing. Let's the story begin.

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The day on 16 April this is where you are leaving without telling everyone. On the morning practice at Teikoku Gakuen, Fudou who are keep paying attention on his phone from his house until on his way to school even now waiting for your call or text.

He didn't focus at all on his practice, he keeps doing mistakes a lot from the beginning until the end of the practice until Kazemaru was mad at him. Sakuma and Genda who noticed how worst Fudou was just now immediately went to him and asked what's wrong.

Fudou was really pissed and said that you didn't text or call him at all from last night until this morning. Sakuma tried cheered Fudou out saying that probably you are busy or something like you always do. But Fudou replied back saying that at least you could text him a bit telling that you are busy or what but you instead suddenly lost contact like seriously.

Genda asked Fudou to calm down and tell him that he's sure that you will text or call him. Fudou just silent but still pissed and then came out Kazemaru from no where as he patted Fudou made everyone shocked of his sudden appearance.

Kazemaru told Fudou that he's sure that you need some time alone for yourself without anyone bother or etc. And he even told him that everyone has their own privacy and won't always be connected too. So Kazemaru told Fudou to understand you and trust you instead of getting worry or mad. Kazemaru left the three of them behind after he told everything that he wanted to say. Fudou only tch-ed and said what a bother as he left too.

After that arguing, well not really called arguing but don't know friendship talk? I guess. Fudou was still waiting for your text even though he understands what had Kazemaru told him tho. But he doesn't know why, he's feeling that there is something missing liked... You are not  here. Worrying keep making him nervous like hell, like seriously even though it was only a day like today you don't give him news, he is worrying sick about you. Yes, he is protective to you, don't know why tho, but there is don't need to ask. Because he's really love you so much right in his heart for you. So you can't blame him why he is acting like that tho.

After the class is over, Fudou went to the rooftop so he could secretly call you or text you, but too bad tho, you didn't answer or even text back. Fudou feels horrible when he didn't get a text of you, it feels like he wanted to dig his hole instead than keep waiting your text. He feels liked dying keep waiting your news.

Genda and Sakuma who are watching Fudou while eating their lunch feel sorry for him for worrying too much. This is their first time seeing Fudou like this liked seriously how's really deep that Fudou had fallen in love with you? When his phone suddenly vibrated, he quickly rushed turned on his phone to see whether it is from you or not. And turned out is not and he's feeling down again, the two of them sweat drop of Fudou's action like seriously this is new to see Fudou like this. A boy who looks like a fuck boy could act like that, it's really something miracle that is what they are thinking about him.

"Still didn't get news about [Y/N]" Fudou surprised when he heard someone talked from his behind. He looked at his behind and it was Kazemaru again. Seriously is he ghost or what? Why would he appeared without making any sound? That's what the three of them thinking when they were looking at Kazemaru.

Kazemaru told Fudou to be patient, but Fudou didn't reply him as he doesn't want to talk at all. Genda and Sakuma who look at Fudou's attitude, they both think the same thing "What a childish". Kazemaru keeps adviced Fudou liked father and son, but Fudou seems liked pissed and rushed went out left the three of them.

Time passed so fast and Fudou still keep waiting your call or message. He looked at his phone once again and then turned off, looked again and then turned off again. You made him crazy like seriously, he's even skip class again only to see you and right now he is in front of your school.

Fudou was messaging to Kidou first since you can't be connected tho. So he texted Kidou like this.

#To          : Smarty-Ass
#Subject : -
Hoiiii

#From     : Smarty-Ass
#Subject : 😒
?

#To          : Smarty-Ass
#Subject : 😑
Was [Y/N] come to school?

#From          : Smarty-Ass
#Subject      : 🤨
Huh? No. There is no letter about her too.

#To          : Smarty-Ass
#Subject : 🤔
Seriously?? Does she call or text you why she didn't come to school?

#From      : Smarty-Ass
#Subject  : 🧐
No, I don't get any messages from her. Wait... You too? That's weird.

#To          : Smarty-Ass
#Subject : 😞
.... I'm going to her apartment now.

#From          : Smarty-Ass
#Subject      : 😕
Wait you skip class???

#From          : Smarty-Ass
#Subject      : 🤬
HOIIIII

After Fudou knew that you didn't come to school, he quickly rushed to your apartment to see you. But when he arrived there, you aren't there although he keeps ringing your door bell even calling you to come out. Right now he called you on phone but you still didn't answer him, he feels something is wrong right now. Your neighbor who heard your door ringing, came out from her apartment and saw Fudou who was very tiring after running from long way to your house.

Your neighbor surprised of his tiring and told him that you aren't around right now. Fudou was confused of course and he asked your neighbor that where are you right now? The neighbor replied that she saw you in the early morning brought your luggage out and left. And she even said that probably because you are going back to your hometown since she remembered that you have told her that your parents keep asking you to come home once a while but you refused. And she even told Fudou, maybe that you have decided to come home to see your parents for a while.

Fudou's face like wha? But he still say thank you to your neighbor for telling him about you, so he left your apartment and went to the park that near to your house. He sat on the swing and sighed on tiring, he even muttered you that why didn't you tell him that you need to come home to see your parents first before you are leaving? He's kinda disappointed of you, but he still keep thinking positive that maybe you have your own reason.

Suddenly there is someone approached to Fudou and Fudou noticed that appearance, he thought that could it be Kazemaru? Because he feels annoyed of his sudden appearance like the last 2 times today. He raised his head to see who is that guy and he saw a guy who wore a casual clothes but neat and as you know he is your console doctor.

At first Fudou's confused, but the doctor knows directly that he is your boyfriend and he even knows his name as he called him. Fudou surprised that this guy knows his name and he was liked "dare? (Who?)"

Your doctor smiled friendly to Fudou as he sat another swing besides him. Fudou still confused who he is and the doctor introduced himself properly saying that he is your console doctor. Fudou was really confused right now liked seriously a console doctor? He even though that why you need a personal console doctor?

The doctor could see your confusing boyfriend here as he smiled at him and told him that you need something to deal with. The doctor told him about your mental illness, about your trauma, and etc.

The flashback story appeared about you are still in Gawon Middle school student who are having a holiday school trip with your friends here. You all were so happy, taking a selfie together, eating foods together, travelling around, buying souvenirs and etc. But the happy smile won't last long... After that accident come..

The ship suddenly hit something anf made the ship turned tilted and ended up to get sink. You all in panic, calling for help even calling the teachers, you all got a notification from the captain that you all need to stay calm and don't move sround the ship. You all obeyed the captain and waited for the rescuers to come. Some of you are scared and there are some of you are laughing, but you know that they are inside are scared too even though they're smiled.

"It's 60 degree tilted" Your friend said as he has difficult to stand up.

"Is it going to be a Titanic?" One of your friend said as he scared.

"I really want to live" Said another one.

"[Y/N]" Your best friend called you as you looked at her.

"Are you okay?" Your best friend asked worried about you.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I think I just got shock" You said as you tried to calm yourself.

"If water gets leaked, we've got to escape. Should i call my mother? Mom can be the last..." One of your friend said as he looked at his phone.

"Never. Never move. Stay still..." The announcer said as we obeyed.

"Stay where you are and stay still."

"Seriously? We need to stay still? Isn't it being sunk? Really? No joking." Your best friend said as she protested.

"Are all teachers okay?" The boys said as he checked the phone to text your lead teacher.

"Hoi wear the life vests" The boys said as they gave you one and also your best friend.

"Gosh i want to survive" One of them said as you replied them back.

"You can"

"Dude I don't want to die. There are so many Japanese animations I haven't completed yet." One of your friends said as you agreed with him.

"I can't believe we stuck the school trip like this. I'm so sorry [Y/N]" Your best friend suddenly apologized to you made you confused of her apologetic.

"What's for?"

"Because I'm the one forced you to go to the school trip although you don't want to." Your best friend said as she looked down, you told her that it's fine and besides you tell her that you are having fun too. Your bestie smiled when she heard that and she told you that.

"I'd better leave a message first before I die" One of your friends said as he still stand up.

"I'm recording now, it's a video clip." Your friend said as he hold his phone.

"Ah really? Wait... Only I could survive.. Mom and Dad I love youuu"

"Hoi are you guys crazy?? We won't die! I'm sure the rescuers will be coming soon!" Your best friend shouted as she mad as she doesn't want this happen.

"I'm sure this will be on the news."

"No unless it gets sunk."

"It is getting sunk?"

"No, it's not going to. It can't be... " Your friend said as he panic.

"Gosh stop saying such a thing." Your best friend shouted at him again to ask him to stop. As for you, you told everyone to calm down and wearing the life vest tight enough.

"Gosh they are keep talking nonsense. But st least you are chill [Y/N]" Your best friend said she sat besides you.

"You aren't scared?" You asked her as you could notice that her hands are grabbing your arm, trembling.

"Im lying, if I'm not scare." Your bestie said as she looked down wanted to cry, you patted her head and told her that everything is going to be alright. Your bestie smiled at you and the  she said that

"Once we are alive, let's meet outside alive!" When you heard your bestie, you nodded her agreement and even made a pinky promise that you both will meet outside together.

But it came out what you didn't a wish for, there are half of people are lucky enough survive from that accident, but there are half of them aren't and sadly... It was all your classmates who didn't survive at all excepted for you. You are half awake and half didn't that time, but when you stood up in front of the huge funeral ceremony of your classmates... You are completely blank and also shocked, you even screamed yourself in fearless remembering the promise that you get with your bestie and also all your memories with your friends in that ship. You are screaming crazily until cause mental illness and trauma. And this is how you got your mental illness from the first place.

After with a long talking with the doctor, Fudou who had heard all your story past suddenly went silent. The doctor could noticed that your boyfriend must be shocked and suddenly Fudou raised up and decided his own that he wanted to see you right now. The doctor shocked of Fudou said and asked him that whether he knows where are you live? And his answer is simple, it is no and it made the doctor dumbfounded of his answer. The doctor chuckled and told him that he will help him. At first the doctor thought that maybe Fudou will be going to see you tomorrow, but he can't believe it that he decided to go now. The doctor helped Fudou took him by his car to his house for preparing his things first before left and after he done, the doctor takes him to the train station.

After a long way reached to the train station, Fudou needs to wait another train again since the early one is already left.The doctor told Fudou to take care of himself and also counting on him to take care of you too and hope you would come back here too. Fudou told the doctor that he will definitely bring you back and also take a good care of you. The doctor teased Fudou saying like a prince or etc and it made Fudou blushed immediately but didn't show too much. The doctor permitted himself to go off now since he has a work to do, Fudou thanked him once again and seeing him off.

Fudou waited the train as he called you once again wondering this time you would pick up and again still don't have answer. Fudou texted you one by one message who knows that you will read his messages even though you didn't reply them at all.

Skip to see how are you doing right now, right now you are at your house lying yourself on your comfy bed, but feeling lost and cold. Yes, today is the funeral of your friends. You aren't ready for this, but you have to because they are all waiting for you. Your mom knocked your door room as she came in and seeing you were lying down on your bed and were in a deep thought. Your mom worried about you and your health because you didn't eat anything right now from when you were in the train, the funeral, and until now. Your mom pats your head and said that it's not your fault and asked you that you need to move on.

You told her that it is no way that it isn't your fault, you even told her that you failed to help them all. You felt depressed as you still don't want to raised up to face your mom, your mom still worried about you and she left you alone since she knows that you need some times to be alone.

You could hear a wave flowing near to your house and of course, it is because your house is really near to the beach. That's why you could hear them everytime when you lived hear. When you were kid, you are really love hear the sound of the wave from the beach but now you feel sick of it.The time right now is 4.35 p.m after that funeral ceremony, your friends' parents are calling you that time and they asked how have you been? You feel sorry and didn't reply at all as you looked down. The parents know your difficulty as they told you that it is not your fault at all, but you keep blaming yourself as you kneeled down to them. The parents were all shocked of your action and they asked you to stand up and they are even crying don't know that you have been through all of these things. They asked you to keep strong and don't keep blaming on yourself but you feel that you deserved to be punished and at the end you are crying feel shameful of yourself who couldn't save them.

After that situation that you are causing trouble, you keep listening the wave sound once and once again and suddenly without you are realizing, you went out from your room and went outside to go to the beach. Your mom noticed that you are out, as she called you that where are you going? And you didn't reply her and directly went out just like that. Your mom thought that maybe you need some fresh air? Or maybe not?

On the other sides, to see how Fudou is... Right now he has finally arrived at your hometown and now he tried to search your house right now by trying ask each person of this town. And gladly there is an old lady knows you and said that your house is not really that far from here and she told him that your house is near to beach, but at least he needs to take a taxi to go to your house destination tho. Fudou thanked to the old lady and took a taxi to go to his destination to your house.

To see how are you doing right now, right now you are only stood up in front of the beach. Right now the time probably around 5? You could hear the wave whispered as the cold air hit you since of course it is still spring. You could feel someone was calling you and even whispering right besides of your ear.

"I've been waiting for you, my dear friend." You could hear you best friend whispered on your ears, but actually it was only your hallucination.

And right now you could hear all your old classmates calling for you, they are keep saying that they feel lonely, so cold, and etc and they even asked you to come with them, accompany with them. Once again your best friend whispered on you ears.

"I miss you my best friend [Y/N], please stay by my side. Everyone miss you here."

Without you realized, you went into the sea along with your hallucination, you followed at where the voice you hear, but actually it was your hallucination, they aren't real. But you can snapped yourself, the sea water was on your stomach now near reached to your chest. They keep whispering you, until you didn't realized it has finally reached your neck almost on your face.

"Welcome home my bestie. I miss you." Once again your best friend whispered to you and you replied her back by saying.

"I'm home." When you are about drowning, suddenly someone pulled you.

"Are you nuts?!" Fudou said as he pulled you with him and went back to the beach, but you stopped him and saying that your friends are calling for you. Fudou snapped you out and saying that.

"Dude, they are all dead! Snap out of it!" You shocked of what he said and Fudou still pulled you out from the sea and finally both of you have reached out at the sand. Fudou hold your arms and asking you that are you okay?

You didn't reply at all and looked at the sea lifeless. Fudou touched your face and turned you to face him, he asked you to snap out of it and looked at him. You are still shocked and your eyes are wide open, Fudou keeps calling your name and asked you that everything is over.

You still looked at Fudou and turned back to look the sea. Fudou keep holding you and shaking you to realize that they are already dead and told you to snap out of it. He even told you that you can't make them seeing you are suffered because of them.

You are shocked of what he said and finally you looked at him face to face. Fudou told you that you shouldn't blame yourself for everything and you can't change anything for what had happened.

"This is what it has done and you can't blame yourself over it. So please snapped out of it [Y/N]! They don't want to see their old friend suffer anymore!" Fudou shouted to you and you are completely speechless. Then suddenly you could heard your best friend whispered to you again. Fudou hold you and closed your ears.

"That isn't your best friend talking to you. That is only your hallucination!" You shocked and finally tears appear on your eyes as you bit your lips.

"[Y/N]! All they want is only to see you! Not bringing your life with them!" When Fudou told you that, you directly hit his chest like you asked him to shut up cause you think that he doesn't know anything about you, but Fudou hold your wrist and saying to you that he knows everything about you, about your illness, trauma, nightmare, trouble, and etc. He even asked you to shared your wounds to him, so you could trust him as your lover.

Fudou shouted to you to make you realized that you aren't alone. You are surrounded by your family, your new friends, school, club, and your lover. He told you that past is past, now is now and he even told you to face the future right now, not the past of yourself.

"So snap out of it [Y/N]. You are the [Y/N] now! And the past [Y/N] is already over!" He shouted to you once more again and then suddenly lower down.

"So please... Don't do anything stupid again... I don't want to see you suffer anymore..." The tears suddenly appeared and yes, you can't imagine that suddenly the person in front of you, your boyfriend Fudou Akio are right now crying in front of you.

You can't believe what you have seen like this is your first time seeing your boyfriend was crying like that. Seeing the tears appear from his eyes, now you are realized how foolish you are right now. You even started to cry too and hug him to cry along. You even told him that you are sorry and asked him to stop crying. Fudou raised his hands and hug you too and told you that.

"Baka (Stupid) don't do that ever again." You only nodded slightly and told him that you won't.

(To tell you the truth when I was making this story. I felt goosebump so cringey yk?)

After with this long emotional crying cringey thing, you both sat together on the bench while holding hands together. Both of your eyes are freaking red right now cause of crying too much and you could see Fudou still sniffing tho. You chuckled of Fudou because you found out that you could see a cute side of him. Fudou noticed you are chuckled of him and asked you to shut up and looked away. As for you, you smiled at his back attitude again.

And once again you told him that you are sorry, Fudou just tch-ed you and said whatever. But then he told you that you won't never ever do that again as he was really mad and you are afraid of his sudden mad like that.

Fudou even said that he hope that he won't see this ever again too becUse he said that this is so heart attacking. And you who heard him asked him why tho? Fudou hits your forehead with his finger and he said that.

"Are you stupid or what? Who won't heart attack when seeing someone's suicide in front of their eyes?? Even your old friends would cried too you know." He said made you confused like eh? Old friends? And Fudou was liked 'you know what I mean'.

After you heard him, you see at the sea again remembering your classmates are calling for you even your best friend too and this time you aren't hallucinating anymore, you could see clearly that they are waiting for you. You stand up suddenly and it made Fudou surprised of your sudden action. You looked at closely and you could see that they are all in front of you. Yes, your best friends and your classmates, they all stood at the beach near to the sea, they are looking at you and smiled, saying goodbye.

You can't believe of what you have seen as you cried and shouted them, told them that you are very sorry, regret that you can't help them all. They all smiled at you and told you that you should be happy as they left you alone with Fudou and walked along to the sea together. You are still crying and Fudou accompanied you, even though Fudou can't see them, he could feel that your friends' souls are all here.

After that moment, you and Fudou went back to your house. Your parents are confused and shocked that you have a companion who is your boyfriend. You didn't tell them that you have a boyfriend, so you directly introduced Fudou to them. Your mom and dad surprised of what they heard and saw even asked Fudou to come in to have a dinner with you all. Your mom accepted Fudou's attendance, but your dad... He refused tho lol 😅, but he can't say that because your mom glared at him. You glad that your parents are getting along well with Fudou cause you don't know what will be happen if they don't accept him tho.

While Fudou spent his night here in your house. Of course both of you weren't allow in the same room, your father won't allow it tho. So ended up, Fudou spent his night at the living room and slept on sofa. You asked whether Fudou is fine of that tho. Fudou told you that it's fine and asked you to sleep early. And you obeyed him tho, you are lying on your bed, you keep wondering if you would get a nightmare again. Sweat appeared on your head, but you try to sleep tho, but this time it's strange that you can't sleep right now. You keep thinking what should you do as you went out from your room to take a glass of water. And then you saw Fudou who are already asleep on the sofa, sleep so soundly. You walked closely to see him and you could see his cute sleeping face.

You chuckled of his sleeping face and looked at him softly. You remembered how Fudou saved you that time and how he's crying over you and how hard is he come over here to see you. You feel sorry for him as you kissed him on his right cheek and told him that you are sorry and thank you for saving you.

When you were about to leave suddenly you could felt a pair of hand hold your right hand. You surprised of course as you turned around to see that Fudou actually was fully awaken. He was blushing right now and told you that it is so unfair as he pulled you along let you lay down on sofa with him. You are still surprised of his sudden action as you yelp asking Fudou what is he doing? And Fudou told you to stay like this for a sec.

Fudou was still hugging you as you are blushing so hard. When you asked Fudou to released you, Fudou told you to stay still and asked you not to leave. You who heard him, blushed. Like seriously how can he say that in this situation like this. A few minutes later before your realization, you noticed that Fudou fell asleep. You are dumbfounded of course like seriously he slept while hugging you what will be happen if your parents woke up and saw you both like this?

You tried to wake up Fudou, but Fudou still asleep like seriously, you are struggling from his hug and when you tried to release from his hug suddenly he muttered calling your name asked you to not leave him again liked last time and you are shocked of course. At first you are confused, but then you smiled at how he called you is. You let him hugged you again and you both slept together on the sofa as you hope that this would never last tho.

Started with the tomorrow morning, your parents are surprised that you both are sleep together. Your mom took a picture of you both as your dad wanna ruined you both from sleeping, but get stopped by your mom.

You both have decided to go back to your place where you are supposed to be with Fudou. Your parents hugged you and told you come a visit again when you are holiday and even asked to bring Fudou too to come along, but your dad disagreed tho.

Your mom asked Fudou to call her mom instead and it makes the three of you shocked of your mom said. When you all bit a good bye, you and Fudou rushed to the train station to wait another train to go back home. And then suddenly you thought of something.

"Hey, I think we forgot something... " You said as you trying remembered and Fudou was asking you that whether you left things behind and then both of you have the same expressions. Yes.. School, you both forgot about school. You idiot...

You both even forgot to tell your friends about for not being at school right now even forget the absences. You both have skip 2 days of school tho as you both look each other at the time which mean you both won't make it to go to school. You both look at each other and then laughed like oh well. Let's just skip one day that's what you both said. And you both coming home with happy ever after.

The end~

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Thank goodness is end guys. I'm sorry for the late update and this story is dedicated for the sinking of the Sewol Ferry that happened on 16 April 2014.

Hope you all enjoy this story and once again I'm so sorry for the late update guys. Please don't forget to vote and comment too.

P.s.
The reason why I use BTS spring day song is because the song is also dedicated for that accident. For the more news, you guys can checked out in internet. Thank you.